LITTLE CHICKEN-WRITTEN SAT-5-14

(SOMEHOW I FORGOT TO PUBLISH.  BECAME DRAFT)

SURELY MY NAME IF ANYONE KNEW WHAT'S GOING ON INSIDE.

I WENT TO GYM SV AND TO LOS ALTOS METHODISTS RUMMAGE AGAIN TODAY.  I WENT YESTERDAY AFTER SRS.  YESTERDAY $3.75,TODAY HALF OFF, $8.50. 

I FEEL LIKE I'M WAITING FOR DISASTER TO STRIKE.  EVERYTHING'S GOING TOO SMOOTHLY. 

I GUESS I COULD WORK ON MY TAXES, THAT WILL BRING ME DOWN.

I COULD ALWAYS RELY ON MY FAMILY TO BRING ME DOWN.

THE BEGINNING OF SELF SABOTAGE.

                                THE FAMILY.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE,YESTERDAY I BOUGHT TWO RED LILAC TREES AT OSH FOR $21.93.  BIG ONES.

***ADDED SUNDAY.   FOR SOME REASON I DIDN'T TAB PUBLISH YESTERDAY.

THE ONE I HAD FROM MANTHEY'S DIED WHEN I COULDN'T GET OUT OF BED TO WATER IT. 

TO ME THE LILAC SYMBOLIZES SURVIVAL OF FRAGILE BEAUTY SUBJECT TO ABUSE. 

WHEN I WAS 10 MY JOB WAS TO WATER THE YARD AT 1260 LAWRENCE STATION ROAD.  MY SISTERS HAD NO JOBS.  THEY WERE RAISED TO BE FAT AND LAZY.  AND THEY DID NOTHING TO CHANGE IT.  THEY STILL EXPECT SOME ONE ELSE TO DO THE WORK.  THAT'S WHAT KILLS PEOPLE.

MOM THOUGHT IT WAS A MIRACLE THAT THE LILAC SURVIVED.  I DIDN'T TELL HER I WATERED IT TOO.  FOR SOME REASON SHE WANTED IT DEAD.