4th DAY 90o

I CAN'T TELL IF IT'S BETTER OR I'M BECOMING USED TO IT.

THE THREE SPRAINS ON THE LEFT FOOT AND THE 2014 ON THE RIGHT MUST BE CORRECTING ITSELF. 

THAT'S ALL I CAN FIGURE.

DESPITE 90o HEAT.

3rd DAY

MY FEET ARE SOOOOOO SORE.  I HAVE TO WEAR THE ARCH SUPPORTS TO BARELY BE ABLE TO WALK.  LFT CALF IS BOUND.  RT IS SORE. 

REMINDS ME AT 21 AFTER THE FALL, MY FEET HURT.  ALL I COULD WEAR WAS ONE PAIR OF SANDALS.  I WORE SUPPORT HOSE TO KEEP MY LEGS FROM ACHING.  I WAS TAKING LOBSTER HOT BATHS 3 TIMES A DAY.  MY LEFT ARM ACHED TO THE POINT I KEPT IT IN A SLING FOR A WEEK.  AND THE MIGRAINE HEADACHES!!!

I'M SUFFERING AND IMPROVING. 

SRS MAINT.

YESTERDAY STARTED TUBBING AT 24.  G2 WILL CLOSE THUR AND I'LL GO TO G1. 
I STAYED IN AT SRS FROM THE HEAT.  RESTED.  SUNDAY I PICKED A GROCERY BAG FULL AVOCADOS.  WHEW!!  HARD WORK.  T SAID THE GIRLS WOULD BE AT D'S FOR CORN PANCAKES.  AND TODAY I PAY.  LAST NITE I AWOKE EVERY TWO HRS.  TODAY SUCH PAIN IN RT HIP, ACROSS BACK. 

OH, WELL.  SO I'M SLEEPY.  AFTER 24 TUB I'M SOMEWHAT BETTER.  I WAS NAUSEATED SO AT LUCKY'S I GOT GRAPEFRUIT AND CRACKERS. 

MY FEET HURT SOOOO BAD.

more anxiety

AND I DON'T WANT TO SMOKE TODAY.  SO WHAT DO I DO??

DW-FREE.  I ACCEPT.  FREE FROM BAD HABITS.  FREE FROM SELF SABOTAGE LOYALTY TO FAMILY.  FREE FROM ANXIETY.

I WENT G-ARQUES AT 7:30 AM, SAVERS.  I FOUND MY ONE AND ONLY MICHAEL KOORS TEE 6, CLOGS 6, FAN 3.2.  I USED MY ONE TIME 20 o/o OFF. 

I FOUND DIME, PENNY, NOW AT M-SRS TIGER GLIDER, NOTE CARDS.

AND NOW I'M HUNGRY.

THREE STRIKES; FORGOT TOWEL, FORGOT PURSE, STOOD AT DOOR AT SAVERS AND COULDN'T FIGURE OUT WHY IT WASN'T OPENING.  MAN PUSHES OPEN DOOR.  IT WASN'T AN AUTOMATIC DOOR.

PRE 9/5

I'M FEELING TIRED AND DRIVEN.  BY MY AXIETY.  AS DAD'S DEATHIVERSARY COMES UP. 

AA MANIPULATED DAD TO GOING TO ACCUPUNTURE AND CHIROPRACTOR BY TAKING MOM TO TAHOE.  MOM PAID FOR IT.  THEY KEPT IT SECRET FROM DAD AND ONLY TOLD ME TO NEENER.  SO I TOLD HIM AS SOON AS I COULD.  THEY WANTED ME TO BEAR THE BRUNT OF HIS WHINING AND CRYING ALONE.  NO WAY. 

SO HE WENT TO HER TORTURE AND DIED LIKE SHE WANTED, USING MIT AS HER STOOGE. 

WORTH IT

I'M WORTH HAVING FUN!!!

IT'S TAKEN DILIGENCE AND DEDICATION.

SO TIRED

I FELL ASLEEP 8:30, AWOKE 1P, 3BMP, 5 TO TURN OFF TV-DVD.  SOMETHINGS GOING ON WITHIN.  I THOUGHT IT WAS TOO MUCH CARBS BUT THE WEATHER SPEAKS OTHERWISE. 

IT'S STILL OVERCAST.  AND COOL. 

I'M CARRYING ON.