i used to dread

today ex's b'day.  this year i'm fine.  i feel like i turned a page.  i lay in bed doing stretches 'til 10.  i watched sun morn 7-8:30 and went back to bed.  my hips are talking to me.  today's daily word i forgive myself for being human making mistakes.

i made instant mash topped with shredded chicken and instant gravy.  a little rich.  my stomach is talking to me.  

i went to lucky's noticed bottle of 'hemp 2 o' at the cart cleaner.  he said san tomas liquor's $3.10.  i checked website 7/$27.90.  they have the nerve to put 'no shipping.'  $4/bottle.  it's at a bunch of stores.  the passion fruit i wanted.  

s v p high jacked internet.  took me awhile to figure and fix.  i did it.

wind is making my eyes itch.  my butt hurts.  time to pack it in. 

a slow start

so much movement and pain in lower back.  used pillows to stretch and flex.  left arm achy not as bad as '72.

i took my time getting ready.  wore brace to cook b'fast.  first i was going to have senior roast beef sandwich.  drained pickled onion.  then remembered i had burger.  with eggs?  no, quinoa.  balsamic from asparagus, perfect.  all protein.  rebuilding body.  

i watched greatest american hero.  it's me.  dressed went to big lots free hand wipes bought mister clean bath plunger design i always wanted $5.  i walked lucky's didn't want free bread yet if at all.  i walked dollar store for amber m wash none bought anther mask lanyard.  senior park stretched walked.  bee lanyard gone.  no computer came main.  

lovely cool today.  12:45.  62 o.

i'm feeling so much love from my angels.  daily word "inner peace."  internet taking a long time to load.  i'm using the time to search storage in car.  and plan a better arrangement.  3 pages left to car mileage log book.  i like being ahead.  ella complained to me about her gas gauge broke.  i keep a log book just for that reason.  if mileage changes something needs checking.

something wrong yahoo mail not loading.  took hour and half.

tee hee

i took off early to cup.  

i stopped dollar store 2 hair scrunchy w/pineapple charm and $7.77 fun stuff for me.  good will had 2 multi skirt hanger, tie/necklace hanger.  gave bee the mask lanyard.  she set it on the ground.  if it's there tomorrow i get the credit for nothing.  i still haven't gotten amber m wash.  lunch was ok.  main i got bored didn't finish slow internet games.  

went to cup lobby and browsing area open.  safe way i got free water and monopoly cents off.  came home tired.  

tomorrow free french bread lucky's and hand wipes big lots.  

yesterday's italian movie 'loose cannons son announces to his family he's a writer when forced to take over the family business.  he admits he can't say what he feels he can write.  how autistic.  i can't either, i get distracted.   

i'm tired of the pain-tire air check

i'm not calling them back.  comprehensive spine called to make appointment.  i don't want to do anymore for no improvement.  not worth it to me.

maybe i'll go pickup cup holds.  maybe not.  i planned on tomorrow.

i just want to scream and scream.

12:44 pm i'm feeling better after lunch.  it was raining steadily and now is drying out.  i don't feel so trapped and i can walk and stretch.  1:01 and....it's raining again.  oh, well exercise at home..

i just remembered i hit my head on a bar yesterday at main park.  i was wearing my big hat and lost track of equipment placement.

2 pm i called nicholas am tire for air check and went kiely to prune ridge much shorter.  15 minutes lance ea tire evenly 6 lbs low from last month, i was done.  went grocery o for ginger $9/lb not, quinoa bargain 4 lb/$6, 6 oz blueberry .99, rosemary $3.49.  buzzed across street kyo po even cheaper blue and asparagus .69.      

tygj for wins.

i forgot scratch path games.  took so long to load then yahoo emails faded out and i stumbled across games finally loaded.  very slow.

GO SLOWLY.  ENJOY THE JOURNEY.  THE BEST I CAN.

i'm using the time to search for a new car mileage log book.  i know i have at least 2.  found it.  

binge watched

'all creatures' 2020.  so worth it.  felt closer to the truth.  i've never binge watched before.  

i had internet connection and it's gone.  tried moving car.  oh, well.  wed library opens late.  2 minutes to go.  i'm ok with it.  tv has always fulfilled my need for connection and i'm still feeling mellow from being with my 'all creatures' family.

cut my finger opening vitamin plastic.  my spring allergies.  skin is thin and dry.  which means old thin skin is a supplement thing.  chemical balance off.  my nails are growing.  i liked it better when they didn't.  when i was bed ridden my nails and hair stopped growing.  just as well, i couldn't do anything about them.  my focus was minute to minute dealing with excruciating pain.  then i learned my unendurable pain was acid in my lower intestine and sipping non acidic grapefruit juice healed whatever imbalance was caused by my back injury.  oranges, lemons and other citrus fruits are acid.  

i'm pondering going to cup for holds.  i picked up lunch and am at main feeling timeless.  empty lot, still, quiet.  healing playing.  tygj for this experience.

out of vitamin d, fish oil

today i attempt updating sim card.  wish me luck=pray for me.  

and renewing 'secret' cd.  reached my limit.  due.  i don't want to keep it illegally.  i know i could because of covid in fact a librarian suggested it.  but i prefer legal.

takes me time getting used to new.  yesterday 10:54 am confirmation mail trace request.  2:13 pm reply from mission post mistress manjit.  

like the quinoa or amaranth.  taking my time getting used to changing diet.  6 years.  

dollar store.  seniors stretched walked wet sand off shoes.  i'm still full from b'fast.  last night i cooked g-round, sliced red onions, diced potatoes, shredded cabbage, 5 poached egg.  ate 1 and 2 this am. 

screen looks huge.  today i stretched and walked again.  not bad.  back was a little complaining, neck was kinked right side but none the worse for wear.  

feeling sick-nuclear-i get it

i watched 'true detective' this morning felt fine.  i can understand people believing in evil.  not taking responsibility for the nuclear reactors we are.  our bodies fission and fusion all day long.  

came to seniors 10:30 driveway still blocked i was going to get out and move the blocks and thought i'll just wait.  i'm usually the first.  

drove into lot and remembered missing mail.  looked it up and filed.  paid city too.  then i started feeling sick.  it's crowded today.  meatloaf gravy mash greens.  bland my stomach feels ok.  must have been allergies.  paid consumer cellular too.  i looked at online activation i'll do tomorrow.  

today is my lucky day.  

it's so windy too much junk blowing around.  i'll wait 'til later if wind settles i'll stretch.

i almost lost email 'lost mail' confirmation, city payment confirmation, consumer cellular payment confirmation.  i successfully retrieved them from trash.  i wonder if that's when why we screw up to fix it for a dopamine fix.  that's alarming.  page is still jumping.

and an entire highlighted paragraph i wanted to space disappeared.   took awhile to retrieve i did it.  success dopamine.

the slow internet forces me to sit wait think.  and george w with his nucular.  lol.