best star wars ever

i watched big bang theory season 7 arthur jeffries dies and his funeral is may fourth.

and the rockets' red glare. 

i had cauliflower, rice, beef for breakfast.  hurrah me.  so delicious. 

i remembered classical stretch 6;30 channel 9.2 and my left hip is manageable pain.  my feet are tingling.  my right hip still hurts just less than my left.  i took 2 white willow and eventually slept for a few hours.  the good part is it's gradual.  if it was all at once i'd be dead x times over from the pain.  yoga ball is not working. 

sitting is difficult getting up torture.  i have to lean forward resting my hands on my knees and walking my hands up my thighs to stand.  excruciatingly painful in my back and hips. 

 i had rice, beef, cauliflower for lunch with b-b-q sauce.  excellent.

i'm sewing.  perfecting my life.  i made a neck toll using a hand towel and 3 fuzzy socks.  i have no idea where the fourth sock is.

freedom

went to santa smart & final no weenies so left without cob corn or beef.  i did laundry, changed brake light bulb in parking lot rearranging trunk and remembered i have target christmas gift card got ground on sale $3/lb.  cooked it micro with mac cheese just what i wanted.  ate an orange and chips.  very satisfied.  cooked up some brown rice for nasi goreng.

re sewed orange terry perfectly.  did what i felt like doing all day.  i watched 1776 much better than hamilton.  i requested 1776 from county i can watch or not.  found red and black bandana fabric.  took long shower washed my hair for fresh pillow cases

i started the day with my right hip hurting a little.  by the end my left hip hurts so bad i could cry.  i can barely get up.   walking lubricates everything until i sit again. 

leaving my compulsions

behind i don't know who i am.  i can be who what i choose.  scary.  i'm feeling scattered.

what was i thinking; watching jamie oliver cooking with olives i paid pch $20 for two olive spoons.

i banged left hand very hard on doorway carrying laundry basket.

finally nicotine gum.  i keep forgetting.  reminded me i have 3 senior sandwiches i want to toast.  my desire for bk croissant gone.  tomorrow maybe i have bagels too.

i have a plan finally.  tomorrow laundry, replace brake bulb.  no jamie no reason to wait.   today i can write auntie and cathie.  get them in mail.

i put laundry in car,  then i trimmed front door weeds and window rose, got stickers in my socks good time to quit.  moved toaster oven to garage for cheeses and turkey melt with chips, yogurt chocolate turmeric.  lots of carrying moving.  my legs vibrating.

now i know all i have to do to update blog page is refresh.  nope, doesn't always work.

progress is perfection.

arrived 9;50 3rd car with 2 cars parked in lunch line and 2 cars parked middle of block.  one took off and the other moved up behind me.  i confuse easily i think because mom aileen mitzi were always setting me up as the punch line.  taught me to laugh at myself.  i'm so amusing.  when they're not laughing they're abusing me.

such a lovely cool day.  65 o. i'm having my mid morning snack raw carrots and almonds.  for the moment free of cares.  tygj.

i always wonder when mom snacked.  it takes a lot of work to be overweight.  a lot of the wrong foods.   food is the easiest drug to get.  we didn't have snacks in the house that i knew of but both my sisters tended to fat too so it was probably hidden like the gum.

i found a pair of kitty socks to send cathy and the bright shiny dime i found at walmart to auntie.  holidays are wonderful to kickback and goof around. i watched pixar onward dvd.  i think it's the type of movie that needs to percolate.  much thought and care were taken in the creation special feature.

happy thursday to me

happy thursday to me, happy thursday dear me-e, happy thursday to me.

i heated soup left in microwave 7 minutes high, added 2 eggs, poached for 2 minutes delicious breakfast.

on hold dmv

i'm braving the technology.  keeps saying wait time 15 then 18 minutes.  i confuse easily.  the good part is 66 o day.  lovely.  i went chase since i have enough gum for today.

this waiting is stressing me out.  exercising my emotional muscles if that's possible.  i certainly hope so.  is it possible to become more resilient? 

i paid online and it says my car registration renewal is incomplete.  i passed smog 5/26 good for 90 days.  i don't know.  blogging relieves some pressure.

finally after half hour cheryl came online.  she was so patient and lovely.  she said it may take 3 days to process payment, to try the help line again on monday.

lunch was ok.  i considered going to the main library after lunch open 'til 7.  retrieved second yoga ball from corner bedroom.  same size ball as in living room.

2 o'clock nothing on tv i decided to go to walmart for gum and found clearance $4.41 12 pk cheeze its, diced tomatoes and 5 pieces valentines assorted chocolates i ate.  decided to try scb star 1.  open i deposited and arrived main 3 pm just opening picked up 3 holds.  gary crosby, david viscott, onward dvd.  home 3;30 pm what a day. 

i put yoga ball in bed, rested relaxed an hour stretching everything.  i made veg soup added beef jerky.  very satisfying.  tomorrow i want to poach eggs in soup.

i deserve love

here and now i'm going back to age 25.  i used to listen to k-abc talk radio.  sondra ray, dr david viscott started me self help.  i learned of an unlimited universe.

i'm updating.  checked on wikipedia he died '96 i think related to one of his kids dying, his marriage failing, giving up his work.  on the radio he told the funniest story of his congenital defect in the golf club house locker room.  library has a book i requested.

i put extra electrical strip in living room for computer and secret cd player.  all these things i bought wondering why i bought them years ago i'm using now.

i decided to go to chase instead of walmart after finding a gum card.  i remembered to mail trans am life and arrived seniors 9;52 car #4.