LIVELY

FREEZING COLD AT NIGHT SO KITCHEN LIGHT WORKING.  I'M HAVING LOVELY TIME.  I ARRIVED 8;44 AND LOTS OF PARKING.

ART GAVE ME EXTRA CHICKEN.  I WANTED TACO SALAD MAYBE FRIDAY.  NO, WHIPPED POTATO.  TOMORROW PORK FRIED RICE.

I MADE MYSELF HOT CHOCOLATE.  I USED TO MAKE DAD AND ME HOT CHOCOLATE AND BUTTERED TOAST UNTIL AT 16 I HAD TO STUDY FOR AN IMPORTANT TEST AND MADE DAD HIS AND WENT TO STUDY.

THE NEXT MORNING I WENT INTO THE DINING ROOM AND MY FISH AND AQUARIUM WERE GONE.  10 GALLON TANK WITH FILTER AND LIGHT DISAPPEARED.  I ASKED MOM AND SHE TOLD ME DAD PUT IT OUTSIDE ON THE FREEZING PATIO.  HE GOT MAD I WAS STUDYING AND TRIED TO KILL MY FISH.  NOT A WORD TO ME. 

I FILLED A BOWL WITH WATER AND RESCUED MY FISH.  I HAD TO USE BOWLS TO EMPTY THE AQUARIUM TO BRING IT BACK IN THE HOUSE.  THAT'S WHEN I LEARNED I HAD RHEUMATOID ARTHRITIS.  MY HANDS IN THE FREEZING WATER BECAME RED, SWOLLEN, USELESS.  I WAS IN EMOTIONAL, PHYSICAL, SPIRITUAL AGONY. 

I WAS DISAPPOINTED IN MOM FOR BEING TOO JEALOUS TO STAND UP FOR ME AND DAD FOR BEING SO CHILDISH AND DESTRUCTIVE.  I NEVER MADE HOT CHOCOLATE AND BUTTERED TOAST AGAIN. 

I REALIZED AGAIN NO MATTER WHAT I DID I WAS ALL ON MY OWN.