THE END OF DENIAL

AND THIS RENEWED CHROME IS FREAKING DOING WEIRD THINGS I'VE NEVER SEEN MUCH LESS IMAGINED.  I BELIEVE IT'S ACTING OUT MY INTERNAL TURMOIL.

THANK YOU CHROME.

5:23 AM THE TIME I WAS BORN.  THE TOUR AROUND MY HIGH SCHOOL WAS GOOD.  I WAS A VERY UNHAPPY GIRL.  THE LAST 18 YEARS I'VE BEEN A VERY UNHAPPY WOMAN AND I'M DONE WITH THAT.  I'M DONE WITH LIVING MY LIFE ACCORDING TO WHAT OTHER PEOPLE WANT ME TO DO AND I DO ONLY WHAT I WANT.  NOW I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT WHAT THAT IS.

TEENAGERS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE IN LOVE WITH THEMSELVES.  I SKIPPED AND HAVE TO DO IT NOW.

I CONSIDERED PAYING CSAA DUE TOMORROW, NAH.  THIS IS NEW FOR ME.

1;11 pm I EXERCISED, DECIDED ON CARL'S JR GUACAMOLE 2 X CHEESEBURGER AND STOOD FOR 5 MINUTES AT THE COUNTER OF AN EMPTY STORE WHILE THE EMPLOYEES TALKED IN SPANISH SO I LEFT.  IF I WANT TO BE IGNORED I CAN GO ANY WHERE.

SO I WALKED TO LUCKY'S (DR CHUNG WOULD BE SO PROUD OF ME) AND GOT MY FREE 10 OZ PC COLD BREW MOCHA COFFEE.  NOT VERY TASTY.  I BOUGHT THE PANERA GIFT CARDS FOR 1000 POINTS AND CHECKED OUT THE SALAD/ HOT FOOD BAR.    I GOT AND ATE .32 LB  CHILI CHICKEN AND MUSHROOMS $2.56.  AS GOOD AS PANDA EXPRESS.  EVERYTHING ELSE WAS DRIED OUT.  FRIED RICE, CHOW MEIN, CHILI RELLENO, BEANS, SPANISH RICE.  IF I GO EARLY IN THE AM I CAN GET IT ALL FRESH.

I FORGOT MY CHARGER IN THE CAR AND I CAN USE THE IN HOUSE STATION HERE AT MISSION MY SATURDAY GO TO.  I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR FORGETTING.  NO I CAN'T.  I GOT IT FROM THE CAR.

I SIGNED UP FOR PANERA AFTER CHECKING CARDS VALUES.  FREE PASTRY OR SWEET EXP. 11/13.