HOT TUB=WOMB 5/23

I'M REBIRTHING MYSELF USING THE HOT TUB.  AND SO FAR SO GOOD.  I HAVEN'T LOST ANYTHING THIS WEEK.  I MISPLACED A PACK AND BOOK.  I REMEMBERED WHERE I LEFT THE BOOK, IN THE LIVING ROOM WHEN I STARTED CLEARING A READING SPACE AND GOT DISTRACTED AND ENDED DOING SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT.  OH, WELL.

5/23  IT'S WORKING.  TODAY I WATCHED THE 9TH LIFE OF LOUIS DRAX AND I'M OK.  EVERYDAY IS A REBIRTH.  I CAN START FRESH.  NEW.  SITTING IN MY CAR IS ANOTHER WOMB.  I REEXPERIENCED THE SMOKE AND TENSION B4 BIRTH.  SHE SMOKED.  SHE FELT GUILTY WHEN I WAS BORN AND WAS ACTUALLY BETTER THAN B4.  DIDN'T BEAT UP ON A AS MUCH.