I'm feeling

I'm feeling like a pre verbal baby.  

I'm taking tomorrow for me.  no plan.  

I googled Bates Vision Improvement.  I can print eye charts.  

Napa fires making me nauseous

waking up with my sinuses blocked.  made ramen added can tuna for b'fast.  the sweets I ate didn't help.  worth it.  

lovely cool 63 degree overcast weather.  

9:50 am sitting waiting outside Cup library to return and pick up in space #1.  I'm wearing my mint green ruffle tank and white cotton tiered maxi skirt I found in storage.  and I found pink green gym bag.  

I let Spirit lead me to Target wiper blades too big.  I paid card.  on to Gym 2 and Safeway.  I bought cornbread no kernels I'm disappointed and cupcakes and chips.  

new behavior

I woke and made ramen with carnitas (tastes so good, bad for sugar), and just enough for a mini burrito I dressed and ate with TV news.  I parked seniors #3 spot.  I puzzled 'til 9:30 entering my sweeps then showered and stretched deciding no pool.  

I picked up St Just lunch and weekend bag.  Gloria avoiding me reminds me of Tom hiding and peeking at me.  

I puzzled the 'fairyland' for an hour in blissful peace.  when another puzzler came I'm taking a break.   

extra carnitas

I woke 6:30 and got dressed, put my supplements in a container and seniors 7:23 am I got #4 parking spot.  

Lee is having a hissy fit.  I got here and staked my spot two hours ago.  3 pm he's harassing the upstairs librarians.  better them than me.  it's a show he's put on at senior lunch a couple times.  I wonder if he's still in Hilde's good graces.  as the female librarian was passing I mentioned to her he's picked fights with different people a couple times at senior lunch and maybe it's a blood sugar thing like my diabetic parents.  she said he complained I was sitting in his spot and some of his things are missing and wanted to call the police.  oh, well like dad said I caused his cancer when I moved home to take care of them.  and dad's 9/5 coming up.  august was the sisters' month of hell.  crazy is as crazy does.

HEAVEN.  they called the police to interview him.  so he's on record.  he's my dad.  he brought the officer over saying I was in his spot.  swear to God dad died 9/5 26 years ago.  

found my PGE

always at night resting I didn't recall the bill.  so I started at 6 am general housekeeping, fetching water, rinsing off the car and found it next to my TV chair was due the 18th.  Augh!!  Discover due!

I don't know how to do any of the icons that show up on my desk.  I have a link to the Sunny menus.  how I got it I don't know it just added itself.

computer room is deliciously cold.  I finished the 'Winnie the Pooh' puzzle.

no Cody today.  I plan on library.  I'm resting, relaxing every muscle.  

Inge had coconut crispy rollers.  I ate half a dozen.  little sticks.  Costco and Walmart.  

lunch was bad, company was good.  I prefer ramen.  

sitting at the library Lee in my spot I finally figured he's jealous.  he made a big show of treating Toke for awhile.  like a mad cat.  makes me laugh.  I'm sitting in the kid's section.  when I sat down 10 minutes ago I was the only one and now it's full.  and 2 restrooms are right here.  I thought there was better I was missing.  

I read the tofu book for ideas.  

still shaky processing

I'm hoping to be better than before.  after dad died I was on mom suicide watch.  and after she died sisters trying to evict me and estate tax shenanigans consumed my energy.

3 pm heavenly resting in the cool library.  Toke encouraged me to stay cool.  new Disney stamps puzzle.  two frantic alien girls were harshing my mellow so I walked the library.  they're gone and I'm resting and puzzling.  burning calories.  

so many unsupervised emotional orphans left on their own by selfish immature parent/children while the parents play at the library.  

liquid aminos and noodles

dinner last night.  better still sore.  I finished puzzle so satisfying.  it calms me or maybe gives my soul a chance to catch up.  "Mutant Message Down Under".  

soaked away my aches and pains.  sat with Bonny Judy and remembered chamomile.  there were 3 Beatle CDs at the library I hope she bought.  I pondered Rubber Soul, Revolver and compilation.  $2 ea I already have so many I don't listen to.  

I came back to the library, gone today so they weren't mine.  Lee sitting in my spot sleeping.  such a weird little man.  did he expect me to pay him for the food I never asked for?  puzzle orphans here being neglected and ignored while she and annoying east Indian man frantically add pieces.  makes me glad I didn't have kids to neglect and abuse.

I filled water bottles, donated Dean Edell glasses, reworked garment bag to re purpose strap and mend mesh.  

nice Indian man helped me relocate since Lee was in my spot.  I hung out 'til 6.