loaded free vit water

9:30 done and done.  bought yogurt.  used expiring rewards.  cost me 25 cents confused clerk.  showered and stretched only 1 stall hot water.  lovely quiet.  eating detox herbs and boost.  very tired and thirsty.  lunch good extra for home.  little gloria and diane next table.  toki, alex, 3 strangers.  pondered.  i was tired came home put things away.  napped 2:30-5 forced myself up.  keep moving forward.  back to bed 9.

'father stu'

i guess we set our curriculum based on what we need to learn.  i keep practicing compassion.  i don't know how the dalai lama does it.  there's so much that can go wrong i suppose it's a miracle when it goes right.

woke 7:30 took enhanced cilantro slaw with me for b'fast.  after swimming i was so hungry.  shared flax blueberry muffin with cody ate one myself.  my right shoulder and neck swollen stiff sore.  i'm healing.  cody brought me 'puss in boots; last wish'.  and i borrowed prince harry 'spare'.  very readable.

speaking of wright saw kelly upstairs after lunch.  talked for half hour her spinal stenosis i shared my experience.  she does no foot exercises so her feet hurt all the time.  i explained her feet are caged in shoes all day so of course the muscles atrophy.  and the fact modern medicine is only 50 years old.  unless has back issues knowledge is hearsay.

sitting ensconced upstairs at library i'm watching soccer game and maintenance covering bocce lawn field with plastic sheeting.  3 pm i decided to swing by dollar tree for gold duct tape.  only silver and white.  thursday delivery day.  butter pecan ice cream, mushroom swiss burgers, tater tots.  i ate ice cream first.  defrosted cooked chicken with ketchup.  so good with tater tots.  

ready for today

people acting polite ask me how i am and i honestly don't know.  i was never allowed to be.  i'm learning to connect with the authentic me.  first i have to find out who i am.

i laid out my clothes last night.  i just started doing this.  saves me time, energy in the morning.  more relaxed.

8 am i need my grandma to hold me and love me.  the first time i know what this feeling is.

10 am 40 minutes to arrive seniors.  stopped homestead safeway clearance nut bars and everything artisan loaf.  free vive 2 oz boost.  heck of a time loading to account took hours.  i did it.  showered relaxed.

lunch good, company excellent little gloria, toki, alex.  mallory traded new bright colorful flowers puzzle for boring tree.  raining steadily i went to under central.  rested upstairs while it rained.  by 3 it stopped.

lovely to awaken calmly

some days the physical and emotional pain are too much.  today is a good day.  i feel good.

rainy cold i dressed in layers 3 light jackets boots.  

swam, puzzle, lunched, went to under central library parking to air swimsuit.  rested feet up, read newspaper, computed 'til 2:30.  

doing what i want.

scary still new.  home 2 pm with left over veg pasta lunch hilda resented giving me.  if not for next table asking her she would have ignored me and given to her favorites.  

i waited 'til 9:30 to go to seniors detoured to costco to fill gas.  beautiful day of sunny and warm.  lunch good little gloria, toki, alex.  i had roast beef sandwich.  i rested to digest and got extra veg pasta/ spinach.  hilda was going to ignore me but next table made a point of asking for extra so she grudgingly gave me some too.  all the times she tries to short me leaving something back from my lunch.  i have to laugh.  

my back and butt hurting in different spots.  i ate some shepherds purse.  i think it will help my eyes.  the alkilai compounds.  since i'm already detoxing.  

lucky's wi fi

got freebie small red bull big lots, tropical fruit packs.  lucky's spam and chips.  walked stores my exercise.  cupertino library 3.8 mi.  on to gym 1, i showered.  so many cute asian kids.  thought of chipotle passed time for sunny.  same rigamarole.  chrome closed loses all pages.  not convenient.  supposedly safety feature.  only sunny.  olive street open.

home checked online 4 spots available.  what!!  ate squash beans corn.  toasts.  pie dessert.

dreams of 2 yr old me missing my gram.  a lot of my anger frustration.  watching the 'whale' and 'strange world' in japanese bringing up pain and suffering.  

relaxed routine

i'm practicing every day a new me.  picked up freebie lucky's loaded in store on their wi fi.  drove leisurely to seniors.  

right shoulder blade screaming.  right eye blurry i'm not sure from pain or sugar.  bean, zucchini, corn stew toast b'fast.  i'm doing everything leisurely.  showered, had lunch, gloria then asian man, toki, diane decided to sit with avocado linda, alex, ron came very late.  tiny sloppy joe on small plate.  still hungry.  

charged chrome upstairs 'til 2 then home and rest.  big lots freebie red bull.  

nice feeling relaxed no wi fi.  i'll pick up and test sunny combo i have 'til tuesday.