WE'LL SEE

I FORGOT TO CHARGE CHROME AND PHONE UNTIL AFTERNOON AND IT WAS GREAT.  I PUZZLED, STRETCHED, RELAXED.  THE OLD CHATTER CRITICAL, CONDEMNING IS FADING INTO BACKGROUND.  LAST NIGHT AFTER FLUSHING CLOGGED SINK I READ /BACKGROUND AFFIRMATION AND SLEPT 7 HOURS STRAIGHT THROUGH.

 3:30 @ mlib  I SAW HH AS I WAS LEAVING POOL AREA.  SHE STOPPED AT THE PUZZLE TABLE AS SHE WAS LEAVING AND GAVE ME A HUG.  TYGJ.

PRETTY LITTLE

HAPPY HANNAH (REAL NAME HANH).  I MET HER YESTERDAY IN THE LAP POOL AND TODAY AGAIN.  SHE HAS A 9 YR OLD DAUGHTER AND 6 YR OLD SON.  MARRIED TO THE LOVE OF HER LIFE.  SHE'S VIETNAMESE, VERY BRIGHT AND SELF-DEPRECATING.  SHE BELIEVES SHE'S LESS BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T KNOW MORE ENGLISH.  I TOLD HER SHE KNOWS WAY MORE ENGLISH THAN I KNOW VIETNAMESE.  TRUE, I KNOW NONE.  SHE SAYS I'M NICE.  I'M NOT, I TOLD HER I'M KIND.  I TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY THEY TREAT ME.  KIND=ALIKE.  AND I KNOW SINCERE FROM INSINCERE.  AUTHENTIC FROM INAUTHENTIC.  I SUGGESTED LEARNING ENGLISH WITH SUBTITLES FROM THE LIBRARY DVDS LIKE SNOW WHITE TO WATCH WITH HER KIDS.  SHE THANKS ME FOR TALKING TO HER.

MOST PEOPLE I DON'T BOTHER WITH BECAUSE OF THE POWER, ATTENTION HABITS THEY HAVE.  WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I PUT UP WITH THE SILLY ONES.  NO, SAYING THAT IS AN INSULT TO SILLY.  SILLY IS AN ART FORM LIKE HUMOR THAT DOESN'T SEEK TO DEMEAN OR MAKE LESS OF OTHER PEOPLE.  SOME PEOPLE SEEK TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT THEMSELVES, PUFFING THEMSELVES UP BY PUTTING OTHERS DOWN.  CRITICIZING WHEN IT'S NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS.  I GAVE MYSELF PERMISSION TO IGNORE THEM OR CORRECT THEM.  OLD MAN LABELED ME GOOFY TRYING TO PUT ME DOWN AND GET THE UPPER HAND.  I REPLIED I'D RATHER BE GOOFY THAN PLUTO (DISNEY DOGS)  BECAUSE GOOFY CAN TALK.  HE WALKED AWAY BEFORE I HAD TO TELL HIM TO GO AWAY.  I'VE TOLD MEN TO GO AWAY BEFORE.  PEOPLE CAN BE SO ARROGANT AND FAMILIARLY DISRESPECTFUL.  LIKE MY OBSOLETE FAMILY.

WHO GAVE HIM THE RIGHT TO CRITICIZE ME.  NOT ME.  THEY THINK THEY CAN SHATTER ME.  NOT LIKELY.





 

1 A.M.

I AWOKE.  YESTERDAY WAS THE ICE CREAM SOCIAL $2.  I WASN'T GOING TO PARTICIPATE.  LAST YEAR WAS $1.  I CAN'T AGREE WITH DOUBLING THE PRICE.  MUST BE JENNIFER THE DIRECTOR.  SHE COMMISSIONED HER NEIGHBORHOOD STORE.  THEY PUT IT OUT ON THE PATIO R/T INSIDE AFTER LUNCH AND SHORTENED THE HOURS.  CHOCOLATE, VANILLA, RASPBERRY R/T STRAWBERRY, SHE ADDED ALMOND ICE CREAM, SHREDDED COCONUT.  GERTA ASKED ME IF I WAS GOING.  I DIDN'T WANT TO FEEL RUSHED SO I TOLD HER I HAD TO GO OUT TO MY CAR TO GET MONEY.  SHE GAVE ME TWO DOLLARS.  I WANTED A LITTLE OF EACH BUT COULD ONLY HAVE TWO, CHOCOLATE+ALMOND WITH EVERYTHING.  IT WAS OK.  I'D PREFER A LITTLE OF ALL FOUR.  I WAS FULL OF SUGAR.  STILL AM.  THE UKULELE BAND WAS GOOD BUT NO SOUND SYSTEM AND IT WAS NOISY SO HARD TO LISTEN.

SO I'VE BEEN WATCHING DVDS.  LOUISE HAY USED ALLIANCE I LOVE MYSELF THE WAY I AM AS THE ANTHEM FOR HER AIDS GROUP HAY RIDE IN SANTA MONICA.  SHE WAS RELIGIOUS SCIENCE PRACTITIONER.  FUNNY SHE NEVER MENTIONS ERNEST HOLMES, FILLMORES OR MARY BAKER EDDY.  I HAVE HER SELF PUBLISHED BLUE PAMPHLET 1984.  MAYBE WHEN I LIVED IN GILROY.

YOU TUBE HAS ALLIANCE PERFORMING 1987 AND HOW COULD ANYONE.  I BOUGHT THEIR TAPE FROM FIRST CHURCH OF RELIGIOUS SCIENCE WILLOW GLEN PERFORMANCE 1986(?).  I WANT A CD.  THERE'S SOMETHING ABOUT JERRY FLORENCE HE DIED AIDS 1994.  A SPECIAL PERSON.

AHH, THE MUSIC OF MY LIFE.

10:25 a.m. crashed from sugar.  i'm ok.

SO DISTRACTED

I ATE CELERY LAST NITE FOR SNACK AND THIS A.M.  AND I FEEL SO GOOD I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF.

I HAVEN'T FELT THIS GOOD IN WHO KNOWS.

ANOTHER MIRACLE

COURSE IN MIRACLES "MIRACLES HAPPEN ALL THE TIME.  WE DON'T NOTICE THEM."

LAST WEEK I BOUGHT CELERY ON SALE .50 AND  I'VE BEEN EATING IT.  I LOVE AND SOMETIMES MUST HAVE SOME.  I EAT IT VORACIOUSLY FOR A FEW DAYS AND THEN I LOSE INTEREST AND HALF OF IT GOES TO WASTE.  NOW I KNOW WHY.  IT'S SO EXPENSIVE USUALLY I CONSIDER IT A LUXURY.  THIS WEEKEND I REDISCOVERED LOUISE HAY AND NEWLY DISCOVERED MEDICAL INTUITIVE ANTHONY WILLIAM.  CELERY FOR ALL INFLAMMATION.  MY BODY NEEDS IT, BECOMES BALANCED AND THEN MY BODY DOESN'T NEED IT.

AND LAST NIGHT I SLEPT LIKE A BABY.  I AWOKE WITH ACHES BUT I SLEPT 8 HOURS.  DESPITE EATING PRINGLES/MSG I HAD CELERY AS MY BEDTIME SNACK.  I HAD TO P 11:30 WHAT ELSE IS NEW.  I SLEPT 'TIL 5:30!!

EDITOR

I LOVE THE ABILITY TO EDIT ANY POST.  I CAN CORRECT AND REFINE MY THOUGHTS.  I CAN REVIEW MY BEHAVIORS.  PRETTY COOL.  I LOVE LOOKING BACK AND SEEING MY PROGRESS.

YOU CAN HEAL YOUR BODY IS A NEW EDITION.  I LOVE THE AFFIRMATIONS.  I CAN PLAY THEM IN THE BACKGROUND.  I CONSIDER FINDING MY OWN COPY.

I ACTUALLY WANTED TO JUMP UP AND DOWN THIS A.M.  I'LL WAIT AND DO IT CAREFULLY.  I'VE BEEN UP SINCE 4:30.  I'VE EATEN MY OATMEAL, CONSIDERED PUTTING OUT BINS MONDAY, REST AND RELAX.  THERE'S ALWAYS LATER.  I RESET MY PHONE.  PAID TARG.  STEADY GIRL, CALM AND PEACE FILLED.  EXUBERANCE LATER.

IT WORKS

I WAITED 'TIL 4 PM YESTERDAY TO RETURN CHROME AND IT BECAME AVAILABLE.  WHOOPEE!!

I WENT COSTCO, GAS REMEMBERED, G2 AND SAFEWAY CRACKERS, MUFFINS, CHIPS ON CLEARANCE. I'M SO DISTRACTABLE  I LEFT MY WALLET ON COUNTER WHEN CHECKER LEFT I DID TOO.  I WENT BACK WHEN I COULDN'T FIND IT TO PUT IN MY SACK BAG.

OSH CLOSING STORES.  AND HERE, CUPERTINO LIBRARY TO RETURN.  AND I PARKED IN LONG TERM SHADE.  I FOUND QUARTER IN BATHROOM MACHINE AND COULDN'T RETRIEVE IT, SO BLESSED IT.

I FOUND 3 HAY BOOKS TO ABSORB.  I AM RICHLY BLESSED.  A COMPILATION OF FLORENCE SCOVEL SHIN TITLES IS REMARKABLE IN IT'S USE OF WORDS.  LIKE BENJAMIN FRANKLIN'S AUTOBIOGRAPHY THE WRITING IS STILL FRESH.

I SHALL DEVOUR THEM.

1:22 pm I'M AT SV LIB AFTER TARG.  I BOUGHT HOT DOGS, WALKED THE STORE FOR BARGAINS, PAID BILL DUE 1ST.  PASSED HOLLENBECK OSH, MAYBE RETURN LATER, MAYBE NOT.  ATE ONE HOT.

I DECIDED TO PICK UP ACTIVITY SHEET FOR SUMMER READ.  $5 COUPON.

WHOO-HOO!!  FOUND TWO DVDS.  HOME BY 4.  REST.