what i want

i got last parking space senior center because b'fast w/santa.  i soaked in tub, kicked aside slippers moved into my place.   talked to inge, toki, trudy.  i relaxed, took my time.  toki told me she didn't want the snacks.  i guess she couldn't see.  after seniors i went to sprouts clearance 2 cheeses, 2 salads, artichoke hearts 99 cents ea.  baked donuts $1.99.  yum.

st j thrift looked at everything bought nothing.  on to cup library.  picked up, returned movies.  home lunch 2 pm.  not even hungry i ate cheese chicken and a donut.  i napped 'til 5 pm.  dinner delicious salad.  avocado oil no flavor.

i'm doing what i want when i want.  i think happy people become healthy people.

free candy lindor truffle

i have so much free stuff.  i am blessed.  i have a dozen sodas.  garlic bread, so much good food.  toki left pound of see's bridge mix.

salome offered box of free snacks toki took entire box and put in her car.  i waited for toki in back parking lot to give her bags of persimmons and oranges i saved for her so toki wouldn't have to carry.  she hurt my feelings not even offering snacks for both of us.  like cathy hoover taking $20 i found from shell station saying it might not be real.  then she returned only $10.  i never talked to her again.  i feel betrayed again.

oh, well i'm warned about toki.  i won first bingo $10 lucky's card.  i went sprouts bought clearance 4 delicious apple cider goat cheese and bag dried mushrooms too oily.   everything balances out.

still codependent

milder with toki.  lovely quiet.  i can do whatever i want.  lunch i prefer sitting in the back to watch people.  could be a survival thing.  on alert.  i don't know.    

so perfect.  i finished the puzzle and went to sprouts found garlic bread 99 cents.  4 grilled chicken breast $1.98, 3 snacks 99 each.  stopped by toki's to check if she wanted some or oranges.  she said wait 'til tomorrow.  so i heated one chick with ragu and toasted bread.  so delicious.  the first time in my life i'm eating just what i want.  it's intimidating.

monk 2002-2009

tv was the only family i had.  

what a perfect day.  i puzzled 'til 4:30, diana gave me her barley 3 bean salad; garbanzo, black, kidney.  the green onions took me an hour to eat around.  celebrity wheel a full night of tv.

cathy left v mail

2 days ago to ask about the card she sent.  football i called 9 pm.  she says she's getting along better with sister needing shoulder surgery next month the 30th.  we'll see.  sister may just be feeling mortal.

happy b'day to me.  i went cost co the only thing i wanted 24 oz lays chips $4.69 best quality.  biggest bag i've ever seen mine all mine.  i used rebate check.  oh, so good.  i need windshield wipers i have to measure.  feeling ok i detoured to home depot and bought 3 water softener cleaner i needed for warranty.  over $40.  home 3 pm put away.  napped.

2004 season 9 'everybody loves raymond'

family is family.   it saw me through the worst.  everything i wrote yesterday disappeared.  seniors i went late saw brian in pool.  puzzled a bit drying my hair.  wanted 2 chips 2 waters using certificate Nodira gave me free.  happy birthday to me.  sprouts clearance turkey sandwich on sourdough, 2 packs dried diced nectarine.  considered deposit will wait.  went to main ate lunch picked up 'rockford files'.  star one cup closed walked super safeway.   picked up county holds.  home 4 pm.  napped and finished watching series.

and today i'm resting.  i keep forgetting how much energy healing requires.  salad mix and cilantro lime chicken.  

i fixed bathroom curtain and mixed cheerio cereals.  

dream of psycho lover-will you walk me to my car?-song

very elaborate dream of dinner with friends at their home.  lover becomes upset angry jealous leaves, i ask them all to walk me to my car just in case he's still around.  they comply.  i'm tested positive for Parkinson's.  they are extremely supportive.

bart showed up i paid him.  stopped at carlos' he was test driving got back as i was leaving reset check engine light lean nothing wrong.  i tipped him $20 for lunch.  so lucky dropped water softener cleaner bottle yesterday i retrieved in gutter.  seniors good relaxing 2 leftover lunch fish.  college safeway sushi and water.  chase withdrawal home by 4.  bart set bins in street.  if fined for too early bart pays he knows better.