i'm better, i think

stayed in bed late seniors 9 am i called csaa jordan reported mileage and changed to total insurance automatic payment.  gave e mail address.  i've been forgetting my water bottle.  lots of fountains at seniors still inconvenient.

i thanked toki for croissants and finally remembered anna may wong quarter.  maybe 6 months ago.  made her laugh when i told her it was too much i should return it but i already ate 3.  too delicious.  played on puzzle and came home 3 pm when center closed get ready for tomorrow.  

swam, lunched, puzzled

 home 6 toki left dozen cost co croissants at front door.  so delicious.

feeling ok.

pretty darn perfect.  swam, lunch, library returned hot spot.  new movies.  watched gigi and nate based on real events.  wouldn't play at home.  rested home early nothing on tv bed early. 

whoa

simply perfect.  despite forgetting art.  new randall sat at small table w/o setting.  i asked if first time and talked him through, asked jess if ok to sit alone as he's shy okay.   

spent the day puzzling upstairs.  perfect.

just realized double trauma-i could sleep forever

my back is quietly sore as opposed to screaming at me.  dad died 9/5 and tomorrow 9/11.

i forgot my spoon for soup and a drink at sv library.  picked up cup holds expeditiously, went fremont gym for shower so many little kids, walked 150 safeway, checked sprouts bakery specials surprise cherry turnovers, willow on sale bought 2, $5,74 change left.  parked best sunny vale shade.  ate p'b cinnamon roll to tied me over.  puzzling made me sneezy must have a pet full of dander. 

I finally finished an hour sorting car for spoon.  so delicious when you're hungry.  sitting in car so comfortable.  2 security companies walking parking lot.  pair of white and blue uniforms so 4 guards.  i feel so safe.  

kintsugi-ceramic repair-happy saturn day

fixing broken pottery making it more valuable using gold.  watching 'rare objects' new katie holmes film.  interesting idea our healed wounds make us more valuable.  added experience life skills.  critics hate kh and the editor.  i found the confusion and uneveness more like real life.  it isn't perfect with everything explained and neatly laid out for you.  

new pains in neck as muscles relax.  painful hips draining my energy.  i'm feeling wrung out.  cat nap attack.  

woke 1:30 hungry pain gone.  ate p'nut butter and cinnamon rolls.  sliced cooked onion potato carrot for soup.  i'm so glad 2 more days.  seniors is my job.  

added split pea soup to veg.  

never returned home before-free friday

this week starting wednesday i'm returning home after running errands.  i had to lump them in a continuous journey.  i had to be complete before i could return home.  now i can do one thing and rest.  enjoy my accomplishment without self criticism learned from the family playing through me.  such a relief off my shoulders.  they trained me so completely, thoroughly.  i wasn't allowed peace until i fulfilled their demands.  i was a servant only tolerated to do all the work.

loaded free cookies.  i'm planning my escape.  that gave me the shivers.  I don't know why.

picked up not cookies tru blu cheddar cheese crackers.  99 cent eggs 2.  parked #1 spot took eggs into gym showered.  home forgot food for lunch.  stayed in caught up on monopoly game.  relaxed.  stayed home enjoying my freedom.