not even 9 and i'm sleepy

woke 4 am and i read 'til 6 watched my tv games ate a pop tart.  don't feel like quiche.  got mouth wash dollar store corn chips.  

i drove all over 2 Lucky's, Safeway, Citibank and i feel elated.  and a little sleepy.  i did it all.

cinco de mayo

lovely cool today.  i'll go to nob again for corn who knows.  who's nose.  

my life has been an autistic nightmare.  does happy enter into it?  the Lutheran church spire looks so beautiful framed against the grey clouds.  i'm so expert at distracting distancing myself from pain in all its forms.  it's basically chemical.  it can only register chemically.

interesting i gave 2 bottles of monopoly game aspirin to inge to give to gerda and she was going to keep both.  and she only gave one to gerda.  i only remembered because i got the box cutter for the mail order and there they were.

i called Walter he rambled for 24 minutes.  went to nob 4th time the charm last 3 ears.  

new behavior sunnyvale

this chrome just doesn't like to connect.  too many users.

and i'm home online 10:20.  and i ate another tamale and an orange.  i've eaten more fruit this year than the last 20.

Panera 7:46

i could not find it under b'fast.  they had 3 bacon but i only get credit for each separate purchase.  one more for reward.  just occurred to me 2 separate sales.  mom labeled me sneaky when actually it was Alien pulling my strings or else.  she took care of her scapegoat.  none of my men did.  mom never acknowledged made me think she was dim but maybe just in denial.

banking done for another month.  next.  i decided to enjoy computing in the parking lot with my back fully supported.  hard on my legs though.  i have to keep moving.  i want to wash my hair scalp is oily.  i'm going to wash every day.  

noon driving over to mission library for movie yearly cleanup rolling clothes rack a bit dusty i dismantled to trunk.  i just saw Art 12:48.  borrowed movies, city clean up detour i went to nob hill 6 pork tamales no ears corn, baby carrots.  nuked 2.

1986 living Gilroy i dreamed behind hall bathroom door instead of tub carpet  filled with white tissue paper peach lime green ribbons.  so when mom died in that tub i wasn't surprised as much i was angry we never traveled using the world mark i bought them the month before dad fractured his back.  and i realized the cover to 'love' reflects the 1986 portrait i painted jeweled crown headdress and covid veil.  

no internet.  connected but....motivates me to move.  not working well sunny.

half banking done

i've gotten 3 bags from Walmart.  no invoice.  i'm feeling efficient.  i'm consolidating.  and i'm consistently updating saving my post.  lost everything yesterday.  talking to bookstore volunteer i know terrorists can destroy a country by taking down internet no need for bombs guns.  Putin is just stupid.   

i worried when i lost settings.  now it's merely inconvenient.  

8 minutes to mission c u.  amazing!!  i'm so early.  an hour to shower.  reminded me when mom yelled at me for washing my hair once a week when Mitt washed hers every day without a peep.  

another half hour for pick up.  so today i'm sitting fireplace room charging.  the entire table cme in to join me.  i left them at 1 to come home for lunch not at all hungry.

36.5 'God's Compass' movie.  doing the right thing.  

lost my connection

no internet i tried resetting and no internet at all.  didn't feel like driving after seniors, main, chase, jack in box.  took 'til 12:30 for lunch pick up line out the door.  at least i talked to toki 7/1 dining in only.  oh, well.  i didn't eat 'til 1 too late at main.  too tired.

according to stats

i may live another 9 years.  huh.  the world is such a mess.  greed is the root.  i used to think it was fear but what is the purpose of billions of dollars other than greed.  end of month blues.

3 weeks 'til 24 hour fitness open.  my body may be winding down and i've never been emotionally healthier.  i have what i need.  do i want to soak today and drive 6 miles.

i discovered i only have to click on page to change pages.  i don't want to do anything.

i looked at my anthem otc and ordered supplements.  took hours.  many choices unorganized to promote duplicate items.  

do i want Lucky's peas and hot dogs.