EGG DAY

I'M FEELING HEALTHY.  AND I WATCHED LIVEWELL NETWORK TO LEARN SPRAYING VINEGAR AND SPRINKLING BAKING SODA KILLS WEEDS.  EPSOM SALT MAKES PLANTS GREEN.  I DO LOVE LEARNING.

NEENER NEENER

I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT AND I DON'T HAVE TO KNOW WHAT THAT IS.

I DON'T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING.

I CUT MY NAILS YESTERDAY AND TYPING IS SO MUCH EASIER.

I, I, I, I.

I'M WATCHING WORLD BEFORE YOUR FEET.  IT GIVES ME FREEDOM TO LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT.  HIS PARENTS AND PEOPLE IN HIS LIFE ACCEPT HIM LIVING, BEING WHO HE IS.  HE ISN'T CONSTRAINED BY WHAT PEOPLE THINK HE SHOULD BE.  HE HAS THE COURAGE AND FAITH  TO LIVE HIS LIFE.  AND IT TAKES  LOT.  SO MANY PEOPLE LIVE UNDER CRITICISM AND JUDGMENT CRUSHING THE LIFE.  HE'S BASICALLY HOMELESS WITH PURPOSE.  HE'S A NOMAD.  LIKE SWAMI BEYONDANANDA SAYS 'I NO MAD AT YOU, YOU NO MAD AT ME.'

I KEEP THINKING TODAY IS SUNDAY.  TWO SATURDAYS IS NICE. 

I WENT TO SENIORS THEN PAID PGE.  I'M FEELING PRETTY GOOD ON THIS LOVELY COOL DAY

I LOOK FORWARD

I KNOW A SPIRIT DIRECTED LIFE IS THE MOST FULFILLING, NO MATTER THE APPEARANCE REQUIRES FAITH.

new me

I ACCIDENTALLY ERASED MY SETTINGS.  I'M STARTING OVER. 

TM CAME BY YESTERDAY AT 4 TO LET ME KNOW CURTIS DIED SUNDAY MORNING.  HE WENT LAST THURSDAY TO SEE HIM IN AUBURN HOSPICE.  HE NEVER MENTIONED IT BUT SAID HE'D CALLED ME 10 TIMES BUT THERE WAS ONLY ONE.  OH WELL.

I'M OVER MY POP POP RUSH ADDICTION.  AND WASABI ALMONDS.  WHEW.

FOLLOWING SPIRIT

YESTERDAY I DID LAUNDRY AT LAFAYETTE AND IT WAS PERFECT.  I PLAYED ON CHROME BOOK AND LISTENED TO LOUISE.  I MINDED MY OWN BUSINESS.  A WOMAN LOCKED HER KEYS IN HER CAR AND I DIDN'T NEED TO RESCUE HER.  TWO MEN TRIED TO ENGAGE ME IN CONVERSATION I IGNORED.  AND I FELT TOTALLY GOOD.  I DRIED SOME SOCKS IN MY SWIM DRYERS.  SO EASY.  I WASHED MY NEW BLACK/WHITE DRESS.

WHEN I FOLLOW SPIRIT LIFE IS SO EASY.  GOING WITH THE FLOW.  NOT FIGHTING THE CURRENT.

SENIORS WAS GOOD.  I FINISHED MAYBE THE LAST 100 PIECES IN THE OLD PUZZLE AND STARTED A NEW PUZZLE.  AN OLD MAN HORNED IN SO I WENT TO EXERCISE.  THEN RED PECKER WAS FILLING LOOSE PIECES IN THE OUTLINE SO I THREW THEM OUT SAYING HOW STUPID IT IS TO CLUTTER SO NOTHING CAN BE SEEN.  SHE LEFT.

LUNCH OF ORANGE CHICKEN WAS GOOD AND AFTER LUNCH I SAT WITH GERDA AND READ HER PAPER.  BIG HELEN WAS THERE.  THE ADVICE COLUMN HAD A STORY OF A MOTHER WHO DRIVES HOURS TO EVENTS AND DOESN'T ATTEND.    LIKE DAD.  I FINALLY GET HE'S JEALOUS OF THEM.  SHE'S JEALOUS.  ANOTHER MYSTERY SOLVED.  IT'S EASIER TO SEE IT IN OTHER FAMILIES WITH NO EMOTIONAL CHARGE.  AND HE GOT TO PICK A FIGHT WITH MOM AND EMBARRASS HER IN PUBLIC.  WOW IT MUST HAVE THRILLED HIM.  NO WONDER HE SUFFERED SO MUCH.  HE HAD A LOT TO ATONE.

2010

LOOKING BACK I STARTED BLOGGING TRYING TO DOCUMENT MY ASPERGERS.  HUH, I DID NOT REALIZE THE IMPETUS. 

18 YEARS OF HEALING MY LIFE.  I LIVED IN FEAR PREDICATED ON MY FAMILY'S STUPIDITY.  THEY REVEL IN IT.  STUPIDITY CAUSES DISEASE.  DIS EASE.  ANIMALS ARE SMART ENOUGH TO CHANGE BEHAVIORS TO OBTAIN DIFFERENT RESULTS. 

MY FAMILY INSISTED ON TRYING TO FORCE THE UNIVERSE TO CONFORM TO THEIR IDEAS.  DOESN'T WORK. 

KEEPING UP APPEARANCES

MY ADDICTION TO NORMALCY KEPT MY HEALTH IN JEOPARDY.  I KEPT UP THE HOUSE AND YARD TO MAINTAIN THE FAMILY MYTH OF NORMALCY AND KEPT RE INJURING MY BODY.  SO NOT WORTH IT.  I HAVE TO KEEP REMINDING MYSELF OF THE EIGHT YEARS I WAS BEDRIDDEN AND NO ONE TOOK CARE OF THE YARD.

5 PM-I'M PLAYING POP POP RUSH.  SO MEDITATIVE.  I FOUND THE 3 PENNIES I FOUND FRIDAY IN THE SAVERS PARKING LOT IN MY GYM BAG ALONG WITH A MARBLE.  I'M FINDING MY MARBLES.  I COULDN'T REMEMBER WHERE I PUT THEM.  I WASHED THEM.  I LOOKED THROUGH ALL MY POCKETS OF THE CLOTHES I WORE.

WHEN I HUNG OUT WITH ROCK HOUNDS I SAW A SIGN ON HOW TO BECOME A ROCK HOUND.  BUY A BAG OF MARBLES.  WHEN YOU FIND A PRETTY ROCK LEAVE A MARBLE.  WHEN YOU'VE LOST ALL YOUR MARBLES YOU'RE A ROCK HOUND.