7 MONTHS

I RETURNED TO AFFIRMATIONS.  AND MY LIFE IS BETTER.

WOWIE! ANGEL!

I AWOKE 4 AM  AND TOOK MY TIME DECIDING IF I WANTED TO GO TO THE CAR SALE AT 7TH STREET.  I CONSIDERED THE LAUNDRY, $TORE, SR, SAVERS.

I DECIDED IF I LEFT AT 7:30 I COULD GO TO MIDTOWN SAFEWAY TO REDEEM COUPONS AND GO TO THE CAR SALE.  I SAW A 2010 TOYOTA 80+MI $5,343.  NONE OF THE EXTRAS I HAVE.  BUT WHAT A DEAL ON A BASIC CAR.

I PASSED ERIC'S GARAGE AND THE BUILDING IS GONE.  THE ENTIRE BUILDING.

I DROVE THRU WILLOW GLEN MY OLD STOMPING GROUNDS AND DECIDED TO GO TO SAVERS.  I STAMPED, ADDRESSED, MAILED MY LETTER TO AUNTIE THELMA, BOUGHT 6 AVOCADOS AT FOOD MAXX I PUT IN TRUNK.  I FOUND DRESS, NEW LILAC BANDANA, BLACK BRA, SHEEP PANTS FOR $8.  PRETTY SWEET.  I GET TO CAR AND DON'T HAVE MY KEY.  I LOOK AT TRUNK.  GONE.  THE TAMALE PARKING LOT GUY SAYS ANOTHER PARKING LOT VENDOR HAD IT AND GOT IT BACK FOR ME.  WHEW!!  I OFFERED HIM BOTTLED WATER HE DECLINED.  DRIVING HOME 11 AM I STOPPED AT SENIORS AND CALLED PCH, SHOWERED, BIKED 20 MINUTES.  CAME HOME AND ATE PINEAPPLE RICE, TERIYAKI PORK.

NOT FUNNY

GUTENBERG SKIPPED TO THE LONELY HEART BOOK OF POEMS-ANN CHESTER AND WIKIPEDIA HAD INFO ON BOGART MOVIE IN A LONELY PLACE 1950.  FOOD FOR THOUGHT.

MY BACK AS IT HEALS RELEASES MEMORIES.  1972 FALL INJURY REMINDS ME OF LEAVING HOME.  HOW DAD WANTED ME GONE.  AND WILL NEVER CARED ABOUT ME EITHER.  READING FRESH OFF THE BOAT EDDIE HUANG MEMOIR PUTS LEAVING HOME INTO A NEW PERSPECTIVE.  AND MORE IS BEING REVEALED.

I MUST BE RIGHT.  I FEEL CALM AND VINDICATED.  ALMOST HAPPY. 

6 1/2

I STAYED UP AND WATCHED SCHOOLED AND 2018 GRINCH.  SURPRISINGLY BETTER THAN ORIGINAL. 

4 HRS

I MAY NEED A NAP.  I'M PROCESSING MORE STUFF.  MOM THREW OUT ALL MY COMICS,  I HAD THEM ALL.  SUPERMAN, SPIDERMAN, BATMAN, THE SUPER HEROES.  I NEVER GOT INTO THE AVENGERS.  WAS SHE TRYING TO ERASE ME?

WATCHING THE SPIDER VERSE BRINGS OUT OLD FEELINGS OF SADNESS.  I FEEL DISCONNECTED FROM MY BODY IMMERSED IN OLD EMOTIONS.

PEOPLE MAKE THEMSELVES SICK BY IGNORING WHAT MUST BE RESPECTED AND ACKNOWLEDGED OR IT MORPHS INTO A PHYSICAL FORM DEMANDING ATTENTION.

ALL MY BACK ISSUES.  STOMACH.  BODY FROM MIND.

I WANT  A UNIVERSE OF HAPPY HEALTHY WEALTHY WISE.

FEELING DOWN

I WONDER ABOUT ALL THOSE 8 YEARS I WAS BED RIDDEN.  THE YARD.  IT JUST GREW.

I NAPPED 1 1/2 AT 4.  I'M FEELING GUILTY OVER THE YARD.  AN IMPROVEMENT OVER JUST FEELING SICK.  I HAVE TO REMEMBER.

I'M FEELING

SO SLEEPY.  I WOKE AT 3 A M FIRST OF MONTH BLUES OR SOMETHING.  I DO LIKE HAVING ALL THAT TIME TO GET READY FOR THE DAY. 

I STRETCHED IN THE HOT TUB, DID MY BANKING, GOT MONOPOLY TICKETS, ST J NEWSPAPER, BACK TO SENIORS TO PUZZLE UNTIL 4:30 AND HOME.  MY FEET HURT DIFFERENTLY.  I HAD RICE, CORN, MEATLOAF.  I'M TRYING TO STAY AWAKE.  6 HOURS SLEEP IS NOT ENOUGH.  IT WAS SUPPOSED TO RAIN.  I' STILL WAITING. 

NEXT DOOR HAD MY PERS NOTICE SINCE FRIDAY.  MY USPS EMAIL HAD PICTURE OF IT WITH AUNTY'S LETTER.  CINDY WROTE ABOUT TRIMMING TREES FOR MAY CLEANUP AND OFFERED CUTTING.  I DON'T KNOW.