Saturday, August 2, 2025

flashback 2002-3 watching season 5 King of Queens

my body is processing the anxiety stored from the constant harassment of my sisters.  they manipulated our parents' deaths and I was unable to protect them from themselves.  dad's 9/5 death the summer of torture.  they believed my sisters' machinations.  they chose to believe lies over the truth.  It still pains and upsets me.  my post nasal drip causing my upset stomach.  my anxiety seeking a reason focusing on bills and details.  I'm feeling a lot of emotional pain.  I used to feel like crying now I know why.

listening to healing music helps, reminds me to breathe.  

I've experienced Hell I know Heaven is real. 

9 am $tree I bought 5 brown rice+quinoa.  on to Safeway since too early for banking 2 clearance relaxing gummy clerk adjusted BOGO paid for 1 message on receipt.  (so lost $13 on Lucky's frozen rewards account.)  $20 dollar change blew under car.  lot had emptied I re parked the car and retrieved the bill.  WEIRD.

10 am waited for St Just relaxing.  Charity working inside Sandy processing.  lunch and weekend bag.

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