Thursday, November 2, 2023

i've never understood what drives people

my family tortured and abused me.  i guess they hated life.  they took it out on me.  no wonder i feel depressed.  my motivation has been avoiding pain.  doing the proper thing to avoid pain and punishment.  punishment was the only result i knew.  of course i feel depressed.  of course i feel sick.  

i have to return sunny book.  due tomorrow.  maybe, maybe not.  

facing the truth i feel better.  i got up to watch a 'love boat' i hadn't seen.  

toki called 6 pm to check if i needed anything.  she was just getting home.  

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