I've been here before. I can barely get up from sitting and getting in and out of the car is torture. again. Valentine's car collision I need to love me more. the stronger the traumatic force the deeper it's driven into tissues and the longer it takes to surface if at all. CBD allowed the family program through.
an hour to soak out the pain. pain is practically gone tailbone on fire.
how ironic. just as I finished loading my gym case the alarms went off. and 10 am the fire truck arrived maybe 3 minutes. 4 men got out checked building and left. 15 minutes. getting in and out of car still agony.
I walked Sprouts for clearance kids sack lunch $3.58.
st just lunch Charity makes me feel so welcome and someone left frozen chick nuggets. holiday dinner. extra yogurt. sitting in the library cafe area charging. I watch dads with their daughters. mine always wanted to be the baby. the hero dads are obvious. they look out for their children. tired by 3 pm. borrowed a movie and the newest Botswana book. home I found some melted fruit that inspired me to take out garbage. I watched TV 'til 9 then bed.
2 am- I woke hungry and had the half kids sack turkey sandwich and BBQ chips. so good to have what I want when I want it. sisters are still playing denial games. I brushed my teeth and went back to sleep.
6 am woke with a lump of sad fear in my belly. baby energy I cradled, hugged and soothed.
7:30 I'm crying with Arthur the King: a true story movie about a dog reminding me of my furry family. all of them are so loyal and loving unlike my human family. when I borrowed it I didn't know why. I needed to acknowledge the love that kept me alive.
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