9 am i remembered

first Baptist church in the park at Kiely.  10:30 service and BBQ at noon.  I didn't plan on going then 10 am I started moving.  put extra pantry food in car trunk after dressing in pink/ blue Hawaii dress.  wondering where Hilo Hattie dress?  first I saw Diana Price grumbling as usual.  flip Lisa and her son Walter.  practically entire music service.  hot dogs, chicken, sausage, spicy chili and beans, bow tie pasta salad tomatoes cucumber.  I had a dog sans bun relish grain mustard.  so good exactly what I wanted.  they all took off.  I walked to car and moved it into 90 degree shade.  I walked around and talked to Gloria.  she took off I had choc chip cookies.  

then I considered county or sunny libraries.  I was so hot and sweaty.  24 hour always.  internet and update.  fat people are stiff people.  which comes first.  

3 pm i'm hungry again.  

puzzling is therapy

i'm feeling happy.  better content.  whole.  

I don't want to do anything but puzzle today.

I checked out sprouts clearance roasted turkey tomato bok choy sandwich $1.99 for lunch.  senior center I puzzled 'til 10, showered and went to st just for pantry and Charity gave me lunch.  I enjoyed Cheetos with half sandwich very filling.  I gave half to Sydney at main.  

I finished puzzle with young girl probably Asperger's.  new behavior for me.  

5 bags full

doing weird things.  I bought 2 low salt Lay's chips at lucky's got 3 free plus flavored walnuts.   the oatmeal cranberry walnut from sprouts gave me a taste for baked walnuts.  

Mallory gave me a compliment on my mentoring Walter.  she noticed and supported me.

beautiful day

I'm leaving my life to spirit.  I forgive myself first for being.  

auto update is on.  

i'm detaching

afternoon swim is better.  I showered, lunched, and waited 'til 4 to tub.  2 half hours vs. rush rush rush.  so Mon and Wed I may wait 'til 4.  and 5:30 I do wheel.  

I read 2017-18 and I've come a long way.  Walter lunched today it's good for his social skills.  

2's day

this morning I noticed the front fence is down.  Bartolo left some against the tree.  3 pm I must have been exhausted, I noted the green bin.  

and it dumped rain at 5 am.   I went out and used 5 bottles of water for drizzle.  The car looks better.  I checked the windows were up too.  

great tub.  my right hip and back screaming.  I'm feeling exhausted.

at lunch Mike said Fred has COVID.  maybe why my body is screaming.  "warning Will Robinson''.  

nob hill 7 am

i'm feeling restless.  Walter showed up for lunch all riled up.  I reminded him i'm here to relax.  

I'm waiting until i'm in the car to decide where to go and what to do-Saratoga lucky's

new me.  i'm waiting until i'm in the car to decide where to go and what to do.  I'm celebrating the new me.  sprouts sandwich, 99 cent oatmeal cranberry walnut cookies, half cherry pie, cheese sausage tray.  i'm a party unto myself.  

I showered at seniors and found leg pedals.  returned, renewed books chrome Main library, wearing my purple royal dress works.  ate sandwich delicious baked walnuts in cookie.  2 hours later I noticed black backpack 2 talking Asian gals.  I notified the aide, I don't want the responsibility.  maybe they can call.  closed 4 pm 75 degrees cool breeze.  so lovely I thought of going to Savers.  

79 degrees 4:30 pm hot humid Cup library "mama" movie available, not out on the floor yet.  and I checked in and out Tina Turner again 4 other copies available.  bucket seats, charger, leg rests.  heck of a time getting up.  

6 pm home I wanted a can hobo dinner I stopped at big lots.  Beanie Wienie is not what I thought.  I looked all over.  stevia $5.29, coconut chips $3.99, corn beef hash, $3.89, tapioca pudding $1.19 cheaper than dollar tree.  home 7:30 pm 83 degrees.  

my toddler self is hissing

rexulti made me madder every time i saw the commercial.  ad for anti depressant ends with a silly woman picking up b'day cake for her dog party.  so insulting with the homeless, crippled, and this woman is hosting a party for her dog.  her friends, family and neighbors partaking in this stupidity.  depressed me.  

no wonder I'm feeling upset.  and 'puretalk' phone service for whites and light skinned blacks.  Asians don't exist in their world.  

remembered Costco 6:40 am

new route to Santa Clara.  I tried Martin Ave.  good way to home Depot to order water softener salt.  10 cents a gal more than Sunnyvale.  huh.

4 fires are now 8 and my sinuses are still draining.  5 years since I stopped smoking.  i'm so glad I quit.  The air quality is so bad.  all the tv warnings that smoking is brain poison maybe why dad acted retarded.  besides mom spoiling him rotten.

Walter showed up while I was researching the bookmobile and quest lab diagnostics schedule.  we all need human contact.  lunch was good.  a lot went out for barbecue on the patio.  not worth $7 to me when staff eats for free.  I got a plate of leftover fried rice I ate at 3.  

I got home at 2 pm, no games due to baseball.  oh well.  no games at 5 pm.  

sprouts CBD new 7 am open

and I don't mind.  maybe the CBD.  i'll try it b4 bed.  time for the tub.  my hips feel so tight I can't cut my nails.  and I need petrol.  tomorrow.  

checked and picked up mission hold.  bookmobile 25 exp.  

home rest 3 pm tried 1 gummy bedtime 9 pm.

walter's here-b'day

mini's sick.  she's an old sick hen.  he couldn't sleep with her coughing.  he brought her to exercise her.  she isn't moving.  we sat downstairs and she improved.  I told him the smoke from the fires(4) are bothering her tiny lungs.  she needs air conditioning.  people and animals will feel low grade anxiety from smoke whether conscious or not.  the body signals danger.

he went home to nap.  he returned sans chickens to enjoy lunch.  new behavior not care taking.  I was so proud of him and I told him so.  he tried dragging up the past I kept him with the group.  Toki, Fred, Mike, Jane.  

old men

so noisy.   I suppose they're afraid of fading quietly away.  i puzzled to my heart's content.  

oh, so good.  i worked out all aches and pains in an hour in the tub.  

i scored 2025 calendars, cards, gift wrap and stickers.  Ron got cookies. 

i considered sunny i need rest.  i did a lot of exercise.  today and tomorrow preempted wheel.

refreshed after day of rest. heavenly dad day 24 hour gym

I never took the time.  I could hear mom screeching at me on that endless critical recording.  today with my feet up chrome charging.

i showered, updated blog, filled waters, online Arby's order.  9 am drove to Bernardo.  learned i must pay online arby's wi-fi disconnected i walked to Safeway, walked store, used wifi for 5/$5.  traffic light i drove to mtn view nob hill huge farmers' market design.  i walked for an hour.  home noon.  I ate one and half roast beef plain.  I was ready for a 2 hour nap.  

i'm feeling mellow

I picked up freebie lucky's candy.  Inge shared her cheese coffee cake a new flavor senior snack bar.  she eats the yogurt here for b'fast.  

i've been using the bottled water refills to wash my car in sections.  a little every day.  so easy.  I've struggled my entire life life living according to other people.  Lee is trying to tell me I 'need' an AI computer.  he doesn't even know what AI is I explained.  

my knees have improved a little.  my right ribs are sore like never before.  I always wondered after my surgery the sadist nurse pulled the tube out at least 4 inches in my lung sac and no after effects, now it's sore.  

i'm sitting downstairs watching traffic in the parking lot.  11 am I saw Trudy.  I washed the left back panel of car.  i'm doing my life in sections.  life in manageable pieces.  

lunch with Fred and Mike 5 minutes late Dino made them wait.  hot dog yum I want more.  

binge watching "Trolls Band Together" i'm learning the roles of fathers, families, 'you gotta work hard to make it look easy' the story of my life.  

2 hours to finish puzzle

I sat finishing the puzzle and Sydney came to tell me he found his memory stick in the college computer from the night before.  prayer always works.

I felt exhausted from concentrating on his prayer.  I knew he'd find it.

I found sprouts' tacos $10 and 99 cent 3 croissant and donut holes.  I asked 2 people about missing CBD gummies.  I looked online not listed.  tomorrow shipment check after 10.  ok.  

i'm still signed into CSC

so weird.  every other day I've had to sign in.  powerful prayer work.  Sydney misplaced his stick drive.  Daily Word pray for others.

home 6 pm.

and you tube is back

I refuse to play when they set up blocks.  

91 degree 5:30 at main library.  lovely cool indoors.  I ate leftover lunch.  I watched people puzzler.  HEAVEN!!  I'm free!!

the TV series "WEDNESDAY" is me.  woe!  I'm looking for more.

new recording youtube

I picked up sale arare and doz eggs at nob.  updated everything guest internet.

oops!  I paid city and screen failed, lost everything.  took 2 hours regaining tabs.  blog posts vanished.  

lovely day resting

and back to busyness.  it disappeared.  it was here and it's gone.  post I wrote at home failed.  

10 am no cars strong cup city signal, when lot full weak signal.  i thought of going to sunny, gym 1 and 2 to check internet i can do later.  i need to pamper me.  gym Ginny from seniors loves complaining 15 minutes, shower then lucky's salad, cucumber and burritos.  home 1:30 r and r.

so relaxed and happy.

people think things make them happy.  wrong.  energy makes things.  happy energy, sad, angry.  thoughts are electrical impulses magnetizing our desires to us.  or obsessions or deep wounds.  

I picked up free Lucky's drink only 20 minutes walking the store to find it.  I went to sprouts still no CBD gummies I bought 2 roasted chicken breast boar's head sandwiches 99 cents each after discounts and 2 dark chocolate hazelnut spread $4.50 ea.  

I keep thinking Thursday is Friday.  I found my Panera gift card in my car console.  I've been looking for 2 days.

i can feel the bottoms of both feet and my hips are complaining about not sitting 2 hours for bingo.  my right hip feels broken.  I puzzled, digesting my lunch and home to rest and stretch.  tomorrow's another day.  CBD water makes my pain relax.  

out of the tub

I've been pondering our purpose.  can't be to entertain God.  or can it?

I got Ed and nurse watching a spider

in the tub I was wondering if spiders in their limited lives are smarter than people.  they control 8 legs.  I'm having trouble with 2.  i'm still stretching and exercising.  this is 52 years of scar tissue re modeling.  it explains the duration.  also the cbd is re setting my chemistry.

doing what i want and getting it done

new format.  I swam 2 hours, Brian showed up.  lunch of ground turkey overcooked pasta.  Fred had ketchup made it better.  Mike is such a happy child.  Toki cancelled lunch due to broken water heater Trudy said.  ooh, she probably called I have no idea where my phone is.  

I went to Main under parking closed I dropped off returns and checked st. just.  I detoured to Savers nothing walked the store and asked about CBD at Smart and Final none.  I detoured again to Star One and completed my banking checked ATM card.  Success.

I'm sitting in the cool sunny library.  sunny always a few degrees cooler 81 to 89.  I got the last leftovers so I have my dinner.  or I can leave it for the crows.  4 pm 79 to 89.  I checked YouTube for game shows and I can skip avoid commercials.  Hurrah!  so i watched 2 people puzzler and 2 people, place or thing.  i ate my dinner on the patio watching.  HEAVEN.

home 7 pm.  i considered and discarded sewing at library.  not today.  i have tricky fabrics.  

seniors

drove to nob for carnitas.  

it's Eric's b'day.  my body remembers when my mind forgets.  I swam.  

i love my senior center family.  Fred is back.  Mike and Toki.  

I puzzled, dropped off mail no home service friday or sat.  picked up 'secret' from mission.  home to rest. 

nob hill

an hour to update blog and shop clearance 2 7 oz grated Parmesan and 750 almond syrup $6.18 total.  Thursday disappeared I recreated post.  it's awesome I can drive .3 for internet.  that's new behavior.  I resented driving.  oh, my back is so sore.  I know it's nerve damage because it moves and shifts, pinching and relaxing.  like the info on whiplash pointed out.  I never allowed complete healing pushing and straining my body.  Hey, as a child I wasn't allowed feelings so I didn't know I could be pain free.  like my feet when I worked El Toro shoe store, I learned feet didn't have to hurt.  I learned to customize the fit.  proper fit=comfort.

st j lunch at the library

Charity and friend signed me up for lunch.  Chris told me only one, lunch or pantry.  not so.  2 sandwiches, Doritos, muffin.  I was hungry after 2 hours in tub.  last Saturday pools open 'til august.  

I saw Toki and Mike said hello in gym.  I played puzzle an hour then st just as they were closing.  

to bank or not to bank.