back on track

i don't know.  messages are showing up that have nothing to do with what i'm doing.  yesterday's page wouldn't open and i bought chocolate croissant ate 2 toasted.  so good.  today i bought clearance bear claw bites and minis.  and a half already roasted turkey breast.  at seniors i called to check gift cards having been disappointed by my family and friends so so many many times i don't trust.  and i still have $6.29 on card.  i called care more for benefits and scheduled ride to yearly check up next month.  i get 2 free round trips and unlimited doctors' uber trips.

yesterday i found tom's moon day v mail when i charged phone and usage alert.  i'll call 27th phone time reset.  when i think of all the times i rescued him and all the times he let me down i feel irritated.  he wanted me to need him and failed me so so many many times.  

i realized i can nuke veg and brown in toaster oven for roasted flavor without time the way i used to cook dad's potatoes.  

alien and Cathy hated reading their journals while i've enjoyed seeing how much i've accomplished.  i never thought i'd live past 16.  mom threatened to kill me so so many times.  once would have been enough.  mom loved alien the liar manipulator.  makes me wonder if Cathy is the replacement.  she admitted she moved to Hawaii expecting a big inheritance.  i wasn't paying attention.

thanks 11/25-i watched classic concentration and went to gym 2 planning to leave 12:30 to get to St Clare by 1.  i got there early and as i walked up to a line Walter came around the corner.  we talked 'til 2:30.  so i didn't compute.  i came straight home with small turkey, stuffing, cranberry, roll, cookie, veg.  glad i didn't take 2.  they ran out of food.  

Walter is missing his dad.  i'm blessed i don't miss the wolf pack.

feels like sat day so i forgot wheel until watching a new jeopardy.  so i didn't die from my mistake.  i'm ok.