two good days

better.  lunch with Gloria, Trudy/cake, Kenny, Fred, Toke, Walter.  extra salad.

bought 2 Carl's, happy happy.  

I love the new me-paid Allstate home disc

I'm watching my copy of 'Goonies'.  one of my new 40 movies from library book sale.  the Sunny copy won't play 'err' needs cleaning.  

good day seniors.  Fred and Walter no fish Toki.  I dropped off menus and oranges.  she's my lunch prayer partner.  

home 2 pm back to bed.  game on!  chain reaction and common knowledge.  

I looked online for KFC deals.  regular bowls for $5 interesting like dessert 570 cal.  or Carl's or B King.  

Louise and Big Bang

I feel great.  it's been a awhile.  

I'm using food I bought for hard times.  I spent so much time unable to manage I bought shelf stable on sale.  

11 am watching my game shows.  

it's hard loving yourself when you have no experience with love.  when no one loved you growing up learning to love yourself is difficult with so many trying to use and abuse you like your family.  

I wonder if Parkinson is linked to not moving uptight nervous types.  based on the people I know with Parkinson.  

rocking my pelvis

my left hip still weak.  strong hips not core is most important.  exercising my hips affects my entire left leg.  I can feel the back of my knee.  I'm rebuilding my body.  

I ate the last of whole wheat penne and chicken by adding fresh diced tomatoes and salted almonds.  senior lunch blandness is a miracle.  so tasteless.

so lovely feeling bored.  no crises, demands, just blessed peace.  and tomorrow holiday.  

I decided no Sunny book sale today.  back sore from exercise.  

perfect day-Brian J to Shasta.

taking my time.  waiting for sunshine.  so cold.  seniors 10 minute wait I'm still looking for 'Lucky" book.  not in car or trunk.  kept looking found fruit.  soaked and stretched.  silly Brian elated he's moving to Shasta had 2 big canvas bags of books for Sariah and friend tending snack bar acting like a big pervy puppy so I stepped in to let them know he's silly and harmless.  he hugged me.  

St just lunch Gloria playing avoiding.  library book sale I looked for 'Igor" and Tina Turner.  so many comedy movies I bought 40/$5.  

home 1:30 to look for 'lucky' book.  not in car or trunk.  looking through book bags.  lots of exercise.  found it in book bag in bed.  4:30 exhausted rested in bed.  up at 7:00 to watch 'last holiday'.  

double Louise Hay-Scarlett O'hara wearing curtain day

chrome and TV.  sleeping to both is the best.  I'm playing affirmations on both.  the experience recalls my discordant distracting family.  I'm turning lead to gold.  alchemy.  

44 to 43 degrees 7 am.  I'm waiting for the world to wake and warm up.  7:20 sunrise 5:15 sunset.  

rocking my pelvis I can feel the weakness in my left hip as twinges.  driving using only my right leg throws off my muscle balance.  

I'm looking forward to trying on my new clothes.  and I want black forest pudding ring sale today 2/$5.  and maybe Sunny movie pick up.  

walked Sprouts none, Sunny library pick up book and "Goonies".  on to Safeway no corn dogs inari sushi, frozen 4 pork egg rolls, BBQ pork rice, and $2.50 pudding ring.  

I met Vimila Rodgers 50 years ago when she was a graphologist.  mentioned on "Focus on yourself and stop wasting time"-Louise Hay

so cold 41 degrees-laundry lemon 9898#

I like eating my PB strawberry preserves sandwich in bed.  if I hadn't been ill I never would know the luxury.  

I want nicotine lozenge.  

having the flu cleared my lungs.  I had nicotine second hand before I was born.  

Sunrise 7:21.  I googled it.  I can choose to wait for the sun.  7 am 39 degrees!!  colder!!  slower.  

I enjoyed Fred's dim sum was postponed he had salad meatballs were good.  Toke enjoyed our company.  Walter was tired, did a lot yesterday egg hunting. 

I headed to Savers and St Just a bag of 2 jeans, PJ bottoms, 

laundry lemon 9898# bathroom code.  single load $3.25 Maytag.  wifi, dry clean, water, wash & fold.  home 2 pm 40 minutes to hang.  

dinner red potatoes, meatball, penne.  bed 10 pm.

new me 38 degrees

I no longer need to suffer.  mom needed pain to feel alive.  i can live in comfort.  I wait 'til it's warmer. 

mmm, fish b'fast.  

I can go to Sunny to sew.  

sugar is the easiest cheapest drug.  

lunch of Fred, Toke, Walter left early.  I puzzled and went to central to puzzle more.  exercise.  home 5:30.  

played mahjongg 'til 2:30 am.

St j-new behavior-paid water,disc

laundry this week not today.  maybe Sat.  I keep forgetting one thing at a time.  to be caring, careful.  

I walked home Safeway.  good walk.  9:37 waiting to open.  picked up lunch St Just.  10:15 seniors parked on street didn't wait.  fish and red potatoes extra fish, broccoli.  

Walter named Nicole? Sneezy for sniffling sneezing yesterday on afternoon puzzle table.  He left for his walk  stayed to puzzle and remembered to pay due bills.  city kicked me out of page error message I called J T checked payment received and gave me confirmation

Happy Tuesday!

paid phone 611-disc

always changing.  chrome pages are different maybe the cause of freeze.  still Walter's nonsense last week an influence.  I try to impress the importance of programming.  he doesn't accept it yet.  he had a positive change in an instant stress free lease renewal.  not sinking in.  

new google format crap.  pages are different maybe cause of freeze.  not working well.  I look for my good.  

Frozen Chrome since yesterday-AND I'M BACK

I waited 'til the zero battery shut off.  an hour and half to charge.  I regained my tabs, dark setting default.  I considered and discounted returning to the main library.    

Patricia Delicious Nutrition- banana + melted 80% chocolate, vanilla, cinnamon, nutmeg, wand blended, chilled.  you tube Louise Hay.  

I watched Rough Magic 1995 Mexican magic.  I want a copy.  

finished the pudding ring

so I have the sniffles.  worth it.  ate senior lunch "enchilada".

I'm binge watching Elsbeth 2.  I have terrific movies from yesterday.

lunch I cooked spaghetti 10 min high micro and chili.  

magnetic unified field-*67 blocks ID

I have a clearer vision.  better understanding.  it was a feeling, affinity, intuition.  Walter is the only person I know who may understand or be interested.  he may be able to expand my explanation.  

coherent electrons are electricity.  extend the line of electrons into a magnetic field.  spin it into gravity=attraction.  I diagrammed it out for him.  he said I "should" have been his teacher when he was little.  I told him stop "should"-ing on me and what makes him think he's grown up not letting him answer.  he gave me his extra lunch with mine I'm set this weekend.  

I returned over dues at central 123/37 hot spot.  6 holds.  redeemed $2 coupon for "Goonies" movie.  feeling eh, CUP returns 12 holds.  focused on perfect parking got it.  then my back started screaming at me.  resting in the car I decided I wanted 4 Jack Box tacos.  so good.  

Gin @ 24 hour

b'fast salad my teriyaki and tuna.  very satisfying.  

7 shower and set my intention.  Gin gave me another doll crochet scrubber.  I thought about Sunny $ tree but too rushed.  my $1.75 glasses better than $300 Dr Mark.

8:30 I'm hungry waiting in my car at Sunny lunch.  25 folk already in line and more coming.  cod, couscous, green beans, cauliflower carrots, cantaloupe.  

9:30 signed in when 2 people left, lady fainted.  Debbie MGR came to check me in.  so kind and efficient.  it's so NOISY AND LIVELY.  people are bossy in a nice way.  I love it so much.  if not for Toke I'd come here.  Fred has Deb and Walter is too smart to fail.  lots of people come here for their vitamin Human.  cod so good.  

$v dollar tree fish oil, hairbands, 4 reading glasses better than $300 glasses, vita C drops.  CVS 4 almond protein shakes $15 free OTC.  

home back screaming too tired.  central tomorrow then county.

note to myself-Rough Magic Sun 1/11-10 am 2.3

HOT SPOT CUT OUT CITY-Sunny 3 weeks

TV CHANGED PROGRAMS AND I'M STUCK IN CAPS.  using 24 hour I saw Bryan.  hello.    

8:50 waiting in car Sunny 9 am lunch.  Teresa (husband Bob, autistic son Dylan), friend Keith dancer singer, Ernie Afro talker.  Anne from SC senior too.  Herman & Yanti.  Armando gave me milk I passed to 7 dwarves and 2 oranges for Toke.  I was served 10:49 Jimmy and Armando and Debbie thanked me for my patience.  nothing like rude power game SC.  

made big salad w/prep teriyaki chick, prep celery, tomatoes.  

allergic? sneezing

maybe I'm reinfected from seniors.  I took my time 8 am r/t 7.  not frantic parking or freezing cold.  I showered, no swimming and gentle stretching.  still feeling weak.  

Sunny phone holds are ready but not on account so...  I can wait.  

I love not being ruled by the clock.  man invented the timepiece and became enslaved.  everything we "own" actually owns us.  subservient to a watch or car.  

lunch Trudy, Kenny, Walter, Toke late.  eh not good enough to wait.  tomorrow and Thursday off I called Toke and Walter.  

I just realized I went cold turkey no potato or corn chips for 2 months.  what's that about?

one pass scan Bryan @ 24-I paid Bartolo-17/59-18 held tomorrow-paid PGE

signed me into a new membership, typed everything.  very patient and personable.  WHEW!!

checked Chipotle opens 10:45.  Fred and Walter got me extra lunches.  so sweet.  Toke saved me comics and dollar tree closed.  it is good to be back.  my loving family.  

walked Walmart nothing I wanted.  Homestead Safeway used gift card for salad, tomatoes, prep celery, clearance black forest pudding ring.  free.  

I came home I checked Nob ad ate mediocre noodles and napped tuckered out.  4 pm I drove to J in Box for 4 tacos.  everything available 24 hours.  $1.49 deal online only.

bed and rest.  rainy windy. 

the Bride Test Helen Hoang-19/59

I finished reading after midnight.  eight years old I begged dimes and quarters to buy school program weekly readers.  and so began my Cinderella Complex of doing all the domestic chores in exchange.  my sisters were given money I always had to laboriously earn.  I loved staying up to finish reading.  I gave myself eye strain and a headache I stayed home from school.  

I looked up low blood pressure and sugar.  too much bed rest.  2007 I'd have to stop and rest.  slowly I rebuilt my stamina.  vagus nerve.

space between my shoulder blades up through my skull tight and sore.  vagus nerve tightening and relaxing.  rocking my pelvis.  bed exercises.  

food log-1)pea soup cheese, 2)noodles cream chicken.  too much salt I rinsed and drained 3X.  I needed salt.  a month w/o too low.  feeling stronger.

Maid in Manhattan "you don't know what you can do until you have to."

Maria Twitty Henderson Nevada, Las Vegas.  called from new number I called back 22 min catch up.  Master Mind prayer group.  

not hungry-20/59

my stomach sore I need oatmeal.  and vienna sausage for protein.  

I'm watching movies I've never seen.  I'm resting, healing.  I've been pushing, forcing myself to function.  it feels strange to rest and allow myself to heal.  I expect attack, ambush from the family.  

6:30 pm hungry I eat beets.  

Heal Your 7 Chakras While You Sleep-23/59

living here with the parents all their fear infected me.  I've been pushing myself barely functioning for 35 years taking care of them.  

Heal Your 7 Chakras While You Sleep-Louise Hay 2:15:20 best Rx.  I gave myself hiccups.  

probably shouldn't have soda /caffeine.  so tasty though.  spaghetti-o s not the best b'fast.  instant oatmeal dessert too much sugar.  oh, well.  my blood sugar is resetting again.  

1:30 Carl's 2 Cali onions on the side.  passed on 24 hour register today.  home 2 pm.  taking care of me.  

I figured it out-SUCCESS

viewing is by year.  I have to click on year to view blog entries.  I'm researching dental plans.  so many.  praying for universal health care but for medical greed.

I remembered where I left my wallet yesterday so weak.