yesterday I forgot wheel.
I'm wearing Valerie dress I look so good. seniors I puzzled and showered stretched. I'm getting a lot of walking from Walter.
St just Charity lunch & weekend 2 donuts strawberry icing and custard. doritos and I brought Sprouts chips. 2 'ham cheese'. 2 mini apple 'pies'.
I went to my car for fleece hoodie, bass shirt is too heavy. The library feels cold means my inflammation is less.
and I'm OK. I thrive. arrived 7:49 if i wait 'til 8 people are leaving. all in the timing. Walter Lisa's son parked next to me we chatted about she only comes for bingo Fridays and Sunnyvale is 3/4 Asian and the food is 10 X fresher. I talked to him about senior depression getting old losing abilities. he appreciates me. at lunch she invited me to St Justin senior lunch/bingo Feb 15.
Fred, Toke,Walter weird wouldn't eat but took extra salad home. motivated me to go to Cup via central. I focused on best parking and got it. somehow 'Born Lucky' auto renewed despite hold. I returned and borrowed 2 Aladdin live and anime.
feeling well I drove to India Cash & Carry loud, crowded, dirty, expensive. Han Kook Korean clean, bright, serene, expensive. I proceeded to Nob Hill using wi-fi to check Safeway no and decided on 2 macadamia and cottage cheese. home I napped after all the walking and trying Sprouts chips.
probably where PERS DD papers are. looking for county book 'expectations'.
Inge's b'day Sumi gave her gold? earrings and Lynn a Whole Foods caramel chocolate cake. yum.
good soak swim Cody new bookmarks last unicorn, translucent rose fire sword and book dragon.
lunch OK Walter and Toke so late.
I considered home but drove straight to Sunny 5.9 miles. I walked Sprouts 5 clearance pineapple chomps all they had $10, 2 big bags $.99 chips. walked Ross.
Sunny I returned spot and requested again. dinner I wanted Cali burger detoured to 24 Safeway for 3 corn dogs 2 clearance 'wicked' chocolates $7.37. for Inge and Toke b'day. home 5 pm.
I heated rice, peas meatloaf. I'm blessed. eating triggers my back. huh.
I was feeling a little off balanced, I'm feeling grounded. I'm remembering Joe Special. hamburger onions spinach eggs. so good.
I'm reading Louise while listening to you tube. so many good books. she works with great writers.
6:10 and I'm ready. a little gentle exercise.
lunch with Trudy Kenny, Fred, Toke, Walter extra potatoes mixed veg.
seniors was good Fred, Walter. I soaked and stretched 8 am. I finished puzzle started new. lunch tasty sesame fish extra rice. I went library an hour. then Savers I dropped the car key green stretchy. oh, well I walked entire store twice. I have other keys. I left my name and phone number.
I walked Grocery Outlet for Inge looking 87 years frail.
home 3:30 I called Anthony 3:55 pm re dump trash in 3 bins. I took out recycle and put 2 bins under cover. third bin under tree too heavy I put umbrella to cover. recycle pick up Thursday said no wood. I called Anthony again 4:14. he called back 4:34 pm saying they'd handle. I suggested tomorrow getting dark. he promised clean up before leaving on vacation. front stabilizing 2X4 unpainted. needs painting.
using magnet I picked up over a dozen driveway nails.
$2543.75 total dad rebuild. took a lot longer. 'til 5 pm. OK job. Discover denied security reason so I called to verify Jennifer said resubmit fine.
came home 12:30 guys still working I went to library returned chrome no longer holds. puzzled 'til 3:30 still painting. raley's meatloaf $5 and eggs $2.50, hazelnuts $4.49, peas $1.79 I used $5 coupon.
Dr Wehle didn't follow through on insurance so no $535 cleaning visit. time for new dentist.
I want truly helpful people. no ambush or sabotage.
in the pit of my stomach, shoulders and chest. I was never allowed to feel anything. family judged and criticized me, adding to my discomfort and pain. I don't know what love and support feels like. I'm feeling afraid of new feelings. new feelings create new experiences.
somehow the format changed and chrome took over. I'm sitting with my feelings.
I looked up Rhonda Richards CPA helped me in 2002 for tax year 2001 when Aiko ambushed me with estate taxes to cover her embezzling. I'm looking through the return. I'm assembling this year's return.
Rhonda took excellent care of me drafting the letters and printing forms so all I had to do was sign forms and checks, mail envelopes. I was barely alive. I felt I was dying. at that point sitting in a chair was causing my spine to compress literally killing me.
I folded laundry trying on 2 dresses. perfect. the 4 pocket zip hoodie had a hole I wove.
I put out the garbage bin. I'm inspired. trunk organizing.
Anthony and Damien Campos 3:30 pm $175 cleaning. Damien does some repairs. tomorrow 'day' off estimate $2 K on dad's front hang. parts and materials. for fixing 3 bracket repair flashing fix $350= 3.5% $543.38 total today. I gave them bottled water.
I fell asleep after a repeat celebrity wheel 8-9 pm. I woke at 3 and song was playing in my head. contradicting Walter's gloom and doom. and I hadn't connected charger to chrome or hot spot.
4:30-8:30 slept and woke up pondering whether to go to seniors or St Just. the pro was I've been finding goodies and need for water massage exercise. so I went and found over 45 NEW pcs earrings, pendants, rings, necklaces, and a bracelet of pearls semiprecious gold over silver in little plastic bags. WOW! I thought of Sunshine.
St Just at 10:30 short line and Sandy weekend bag. puzzle
Anthony Dela Cruz /Bayline Solutions Inc estimate gutter clean $175+ 3% $5.75 for Discover. tomorrow Sunday 1/25 2-3 pm. I asked about carpentry repair dad's add on.
what to do? I can act average keeping it or return it.
having done laundry I'm feeling bold. my back is a little sore. and I love, love, love clean clothes. probably a function of autism fresh clean clothes feel good. so much of life feels uncomfortable. I was worried about weakening as long as I pace myself I'm OK.
foggy 100% humid.
so I came to seniors and collected clothes ready to wash. soaked and stretched. another paper bag of juice pouches, jellos, with mayo and mustard packs I separated. yum. Cody bookmobile new book marks. I gave only unicorn to munchkin Darth Vader.
lunch went well Walter and Toke extra rice veg. I washed @ lemon used b room walked mall 28 minutes double load. old St Just clothes OK.
J Box 4 tacos and home 2 pm. I took my time ate tacos, hung laundry inside 3:30. socks garage stuff later, rest now. slept 3:30-6. veg rice dinner watched my shows bed 10 pm.
better. lunch with Gloria, Trudy/cake, Kenny, Fred, Toke, Walter. extra salad.
bought 2 Carl's, happy happy.
I'm watching my copy of 'Goonies'. one of my new 40 movies from library book sale. the Sunny copy won't play 'err' needs cleaning.
good day seniors. Fred and Walter no fish Toki. I dropped off menus and oranges. she's my lunch prayer partner.
home 2 pm back to bed. game on! chain reaction and common knowledge.
I looked online for KFC deals. regular bowls for $5 interesting like dessert 570 cal. or Carl's or B King.
I feel great. it's been a awhile.
I'm using food I bought for hard times. I spent so much time unable to manage I bought shelf stable on sale.
11 am watching my game shows.
it's hard loving yourself when you have no experience with love. when no one loved you growing up learning to love yourself is difficult with so many trying to use and abuse you like your family.
I wonder if Parkinson is linked to not moving uptight nervous types. based on the people I know with Parkinson.
my left hip still weak. strong hips not core is most important. exercising my hips affects my entire left leg. I can feel the back of my knee. I'm rebuilding my body.
I ate the last of whole wheat penne and chicken by adding fresh diced tomatoes and salted almonds. senior lunch blandness is a miracle. so tasteless.
so lovely feeling bored. no crises, demands, just blessed peace. and tomorrow holiday.
I decided no Sunny book sale today. back sore from exercise.
taking my time. waiting for sunshine. so cold. seniors 10 minute wait I'm still looking for 'Lucky" book. not in car or trunk. kept looking found fruit. soaked and stretched. silly Brian elated he's moving to Shasta had 2 big canvas bags of books for Sariah and friend tending snack bar acting like a big pervy puppy so I stepped in to let them know he's silly and harmless. he hugged me.
St just lunch Gloria playing avoiding. library book sale I looked for 'Igor" and Tina Turner. so many comedy movies I bought 40/$5.
home 1:30 to look for 'lucky' book. not in car or trunk. looking through book bags. lots of exercise. found it in book bag in bed. 4:30 exhausted rested in bed. up at 7:00 to watch 'last holiday'.
chrome and TV. sleeping to both is the best. I'm playing affirmations on both. the experience recalls my discordant distracting family. I'm turning lead to gold. alchemy.
44 to 43 degrees 7 am. I'm waiting for the world to wake and warm up. 7:20 sunrise 5:15 sunset.
rocking my pelvis I can feel the weakness in my left hip as twinges. driving using only my right leg throws off my muscle balance.
I'm looking forward to trying on my new clothes. and I want black forest pudding ring sale today 2/$5. and maybe Sunny movie pick up.
walked Sprouts none, Sunny library pick up book and "Goonies". on to Safeway no corn dogs inari sushi, frozen 4 pork egg rolls, BBQ pork rice, and $2.50 pudding ring.
I met Vimila Rodgers 50 years ago when she was a graphologist. mentioned on "Focus on yourself and stop wasting time"-Louise Hay
I like eating my PB strawberry preserves sandwich in bed. if I hadn't been ill I never would know the luxury.
I want nicotine lozenge.
having the flu cleared my lungs. I had nicotine second hand before I was born.
Sunrise 7:21. I googled it. I can choose to wait for the sun. 7 am 39 degrees!! colder!! slower.
I enjoyed Fred's dim sum was postponed he had salad meatballs were good. Toke enjoyed our company. Walter was tired, did a lot yesterday egg hunting.
I headed to Savers and St Just a bag of 2 jeans, PJ bottoms,
laundry lemon 9898# bathroom code. single load $3.25 Maytag. wifi, dry clean, water, wash & fold. home 2 pm 40 minutes to hang.
dinner red potatoes, meatball, penne. bed 10 pm.
I no longer need to suffer. mom needed pain to feel alive. i can live in comfort. I wait 'til it's warmer.
mmm, fish b'fast.
I can go to Sunny to sew.
sugar is the easiest cheapest drug.
lunch of Fred, Toke, Walter left early. I puzzled and went to central to puzzle more. exercise. home 5:30.
played mahjongg 'til 2:30 am.
laundry this week not today. maybe Sat. I keep forgetting one thing at a time. to be caring, careful.
I walked home Safeway. good walk. 9:37 waiting to open. picked up lunch St Just. 10:15 seniors parked on street didn't wait. fish and red potatoes extra fish, broccoli.
Walter named Nicole? Sneezy for sniffling sneezing yesterday on afternoon puzzle table. He left for his walk stayed to puzzle and remembered to pay due bills. city kicked me out of page error message I called J T checked payment received and gave me confirmation
Happy Tuesday!
always changing. chrome pages are different maybe the cause of freeze. still Walter's nonsense last week an influence. I try to impress the importance of programming. he doesn't accept it yet. he had a positive change in an instant stress free lease renewal. not sinking in.
new google format crap. pages are different maybe cause of freeze. not working well. I look for my good.
I waited 'til the zero battery shut off. an hour and half to charge. I regained my tabs, dark setting default. I considered and discounted returning to the main library.
Patricia Delicious Nutrition- banana + melted 80% chocolate, vanilla, cinnamon, nutmeg, wand blended, chilled. you tube Louise Hay.
I watched Rough Magic 1995 Mexican magic. I want a copy.
so I have the sniffles. worth it. ate senior lunch "enchilada".
I'm binge watching Elsbeth 2. I have terrific movies from yesterday.
lunch I cooked spaghetti 10 min high micro and chili.
I have a clearer vision. better understanding. it was a feeling, affinity, intuition. Walter is the only person I know who may understand or be interested. he may be able to expand my explanation.
coherent electrons are electricity. extend the line of electrons into a magnetic field. spin it into gravity=attraction. I diagrammed it out for him. he said I "should" have been his teacher when he was little. I told him stop "should"-ing on me and what makes him think he's grown up not letting him answer. he gave me his extra lunch with mine I'm set this weekend.
I returned over dues at central 123/37 hot spot. 6 holds. redeemed $2 coupon for "Goonies" movie. feeling eh, CUP returns 12 holds. focused on perfect parking got it. then my back started screaming at me. resting in the car I decided I wanted 4 Jack Box tacos. so good.
b'fast salad my teriyaki and tuna. very satisfying.
7 shower and set my intention. Gin gave me another doll crochet scrubber. I thought about Sunny $ tree but too rushed. my $1.75 glasses better than $300 Dr Mark.
8:30 I'm hungry waiting in my car at Sunny lunch. 25 folk already in line and more coming. cod, couscous, green beans, cauliflower carrots, cantaloupe.
9:30 signed in when 2 people left, lady fainted. Debbie MGR came to check me in. so kind and efficient. it's so NOISY AND LIVELY. people are bossy in a nice way. I love it so much. if not for Toke I'd come here. Fred has Deb and Walter is too smart to fail. lots of people come here for their vitamin Human. cod so good.
$v dollar tree fish oil, hairbands, 4 reading glasses better than $300 glasses, vita C drops. CVS 4 almond protein shakes $15 free OTC.
home back screaming too tired. central tomorrow then county.
TV CHANGED PROGRAMS AND I'M STUCK IN CAPS. using 24 hour I saw Bryan. hello.
8:50 waiting in car Sunny 9 am lunch. Teresa (husband Bob, autistic son Dylan), friend Keith dancer singer, Ernie Afro talker. Anne from SC senior too. Herman & Yanti. Armando gave me milk I passed to 7 dwarves and 2 oranges for Toke. I was served 10:49 Jimmy and Armando and Debbie thanked me for my patience. nothing like rude power game SC.
made big salad w/prep teriyaki chick, prep celery, tomatoes.
maybe I'm reinfected from seniors. I took my time 8 am r/t 7. not frantic parking or freezing cold. I showered, no swimming and gentle stretching. still feeling weak.
Sunny phone holds are ready but not on account so... I can wait.
I love not being ruled by the clock. man invented the timepiece and became enslaved. everything we "own" actually owns us. subservient to a watch or car.
lunch Trudy, Kenny, Walter, Toke late. eh not good enough to wait. tomorrow and Thursday off I called Toke and Walter.
I just realized I went cold turkey no potato or corn chips for 2 months. what's that about?
signed me into a new membership, typed everything. very patient and personable. WHEW!!
checked Chipotle opens 10:45. Fred and Walter got me extra lunches. so sweet. Toke saved me comics and dollar tree closed. it is good to be back. my loving family.
walked Walmart nothing I wanted. Homestead Safeway used gift card for salad, tomatoes, prep celery, clearance black forest pudding ring. free.
I came home I checked Nob ad ate mediocre noodles and napped tuckered out. 4 pm I drove to J in Box for 4 tacos. everything available 24 hours. $1.49 deal online only.
bed and rest. rainy windy.
I finished reading after midnight. eight years old I begged dimes and quarters to buy school program weekly readers. and so began my Cinderella Complex of doing all the domestic chores in exchange. my sisters were given money I always had to laboriously earn. I loved staying up to finish reading. I gave myself eye strain and a headache I stayed home from school.
I looked up low blood pressure and sugar. too much bed rest. 2007 I'd have to stop and rest. slowly I rebuilt my stamina. vagus nerve.
space between my shoulder blades up through my skull tight and sore. vagus nerve tightening and relaxing. rocking my pelvis. bed exercises.
food log-1)pea soup cheese, 2)noodles cream chicken. too much salt I rinsed and drained 3X. I needed salt. a month w/o too low. feeling stronger.
Maid in Manhattan "you don't know what you can do until you have to."
Maria Twitty Henderson Nevada, Las Vegas. called from new number I called back 22 min catch up. Master Mind prayer group.
my stomach sore I need oatmeal. and vienna sausage for protein.
I'm watching movies I've never seen. I'm resting, healing. I've been pushing, forcing myself to function. it feels strange to rest and allow myself to heal. I expect attack, ambush from the family.
6:30 pm hungry I eat beets.
living here with the parents all their fear infected me. I've been pushing myself barely functioning for 35 years taking care of them.
Heal Your 7 Chakras While You Sleep-Louise Hay 2:15:20 best Rx. I gave myself hiccups.
probably shouldn't have soda /caffeine. so tasty though. spaghetti-o s not the best b'fast. instant oatmeal dessert too much sugar. oh, well. my blood sugar is resetting again.
1:30 Carl's 2 Cali onions on the side. passed on 24 hour register today. home 2 pm. taking care of me.
viewing is by year. I have to click on year to view blog entries. I'm researching dental plans. so many. praying for universal health care but for medical greed.
I remembered where I left my wallet yesterday so weak.
