of course my crown came off. the miracle it was glued easily. and last night i rested instead of forcing myself beyond my limit. WIN!!
I dozed hour and half in tub. I feel almost good. lunch fun with Toki, Fred, Mike. I enjoyed the tortilla soup. I digested and nothing at sprouts straight to sunny by ECR. lots of parking at 1 pm.
5 pm 82 at home and sunny 75 degrees.
11 pm is not the first time. I'll call dentist first thing. good I have liquid b'fast. no popcorn no gum no gummies.
6:34 am called left message. Ashley left message while I was in pool 8:08. returned call 9:11 immediate appointment done by 9:46 considered library or st just too rushed do it later. i guess God insisted i get my goody bag toothbrush and dental floss that i forgot last week.
lunch remembering to baby tooth. soft food bean cheese burrito, salad and corn. Toki, Fred, Mike, Melvin. best company. Tita has new friend to impress ordered Ted to sit with her so she's surrounded by men. Tita island.
I could go sunny tomorrow when due. I picked up and charged central spot. I feel like a queen surveying my queen dom. air quality bad today library. home on border of ok air. easy puzzle.
i'm feeling a little tired.
awoke 6 relaxed not ready for the day. oh, well. I let go. seniors afternoon parking space in case I decide to tub twice. I keep wanting to run away. "fear is the mind killer." DUNE.
Gloria Navarette came by the computer room to commiserate regarding care taking parents. and that her doctor kept her waiting 45 minutes late for health results she has osteoporosis. No suggestions or advice. horrible. I gave her coupons for max protein ensure low sugar. more as a reminder what to get. nothing worse than feeling incapable, powerless and uncared for. it may not help then again it may.
75 degrees I can go home or wait for pool already 3 pm.
home 5 pm bartolo put out green bins picked up very late.
customer service doesn't open 'til 9 now. used to open 8. oh, well. I shopped and found peach ensure. same values as chocolate and strawberry. not sweet. so i let black female get money order even though i knew i'd be faster. and i bought vanilla and strawberry. I love I don't have to talk to anyone if I don't want to.
lucky's Sara .9 miles I got my free water and bought hot chick pot for lunch. I'm still 10 minutes early. parked backward in shade I can see entrance. man from 24 hour used to trash mercury news parked next to me.
bradshaw family secrets pg 77 the darker the secrets the stronger the pretense of normal stability the harsher the punishments for perceived disloyalty or betrayal. children have limited perception.
I can't believe the power of denial. the Paris opening of the Olympics when Ukraine is so close in proximity. Trump has promised to let Putin take it just like Hitler was given Poland. and these crazy people spend millions on frivolous when Ukraine is life and death. People are being murdered.
i'm not doing anything. I'm a human being. i'm praying for the world.
justin Bieber never say never 2011 tour amazing he started music at 2. tremendous mom. she did everything right to give him his best life.
cartoon woman dissed me for the second and last time. she took the part of the puzzle I was putting together like I wasn't there. I told her no one has disrespected me in a long time. she apologized like she didn't do it being two years old. what a crock. I could hit her in the face and apologize like it never happened. I am angry. my family is programmed mentally deficient, she has earned no right. I hate her so much. she looks like a cartoon hill billy. I gave her the chance to act human but she's a cartoon. she's dead to me like my sisters are dead. don't exist. i've been exceedingly gracious.
yum! I rewarded myself Mauna loa rocky road $3.99 with coupon. I bought 2 ragu flash sale. I saved $6.60 +$1.50.
I swam gave Cody avocados. I think they're being pollinated with Haas. they're bigger and ovoid and greener.
this morning I was #22/25 for a hot spot and it's ready. so i'll pick up Tuesday and return sunny and sew.
I love making plans and keeping them, a very satisfying feeling.
wow 3 pm 88 degrees.
I love no traffic. fun swim pool noodles and new lunch ok, toki didn't want to sit with the guys. tiny tamale pie. Martin gave me peas.
94 degrees 3 pm nob hill parking 82 degrees. I considered main central too much driving. I want to pick up holds at sunny. driving in the heat it occurred to me to eat dinner at nob hill. and I found Mac onion and garlic, tuna jerky, dark chocolate cranberry bites, pitted dates for Kyochan, 2 clearance recovery drink $1 ea.
so i'm sitting relaxing, charging spot and chrome while watching people. heaven. my favorite hobby.
so good. i'm sure Italians have it all the time.
what's wrong with me. George is back. parking lot he approached me when his date fell through. he wanted me to entertain him. thank God i'd already eaten and had dentist appointment. no arguments. no discussion. he asked if I remembered him. like I could forget how insulting for him to want to add me to his collection. My friend. huh! made me feel dirty and deficient.
3:35 pm at the library. I got to dentist 1:30 to fill out papers again. 15 minutes. Ian polished again. Lavanya Ankala dds 15 minutes cleaning. EVOO is still working. 2:30 pm sprouts half cherry pie and mix greens.
'cat ballou' 1965 is the last movie in my library collection. i'm ready to return loans. Mitzi and I watched it on TV so many times.
everything hurts. my legs, back, hips. I'm watching 'Dark Crystal'.
it's not just me. the internet crashed taking my settings with it took 'til 2:02 to figure it out. got back my settings. the old me would have felt a frustrated loser and given up.
i went to big lots, lucky's, gym. home 9:15 pm i ate pint of mauna loa vanilla.
we'll see. an hour to organize car, i'm feeling tired, sore and don't want to do anything. my stomach hurts. the smoky air is triggering post nasal drip. wearing a mask, wet towel or finding air conditioning. hmm..
I decided to stay in. stay cation.
'Society of Magical Negroes' Asians are the invisible servants. The movie made me consider what humility Asian men suffer. I know I was treated like a hooker even called Suzie Wong.
paid discover phone.
I did buy 4 bags light salt lay's for $6. internet interruptions online story my biggest worry is not able to access accounts. I read an account in AARP phone cloning. another reason NOT to do online accounts. wah... I forgot my monopoly 10 tickets.
3:30 at main 93 degrees. i finished leopard puzzle. i had to wait for my fave chair. soaked in good vibes.
I want to read and play games. I put registration tag on the car, first time my license plate number on it. and I tagged my suitcase with a return address label and added my phone number. third times the charm.
as I was leaving 6 pm closing I checked lucky's back online and I got my monopoly tickets @ Sara prune ridge and successfully loaded Starbucks. 1985 when I wanted iced coffee people were horrified. ice tea but not coffee.
and it's interfering with my ice cream eating upsetting my digestion.
and the droner was holding people hostage in the tub so I paddled the warm pool. he harshes my mellow. ear pollution.
i love reading my blog. lunch good nasi goreng like lots of left overs. mmm... with pickles.
Lhosa needed a 2 block ride home. took me 10 minutes to clear front seat. i did it and then went to main. finished leopard sky puzzle. rested, read magazines fun, fun, silly willy. home 5 pm game shows. still republic trump on tv.
I found 60 cents in the change machine. why I check. I love finding money.
2:30 main discrepancy in temp car said 76 weather service said 68 so I came where it doesn't matter.
i'm running away. probably the sugar from ice milk.
+35 cents. I came home 6:30. still republican convention posturing.
solar storms messing with reception.
aahhh... 3:37 snack pint of Mauna loa rocky road to Hana. I keep expecting law of diminishing returns but no. just as delicious.
I am blessed. 6 am I went out to pick up fruit and my $100 key was lying by my back tire.
martha security at library brought my gym bag to front desk. she stopped to say hello as my prayer partner.
i'm doing the details. I picked up fruit. put into bags at seniors. sorted magazines.
I didn't remember they were carpenters like dad. I thought they had various jobs. mostly they got into trouble. like family they argued all the time and loved each other.
lunch good and crowded. Jane, Melvin, Diane besides regulars Fred and Mike. did Toki mention avocados? I puzzled 'til 4:30 and came home. ate leftover fish, rice, Cole slaw.
must be a lot of solar flares. reception is shot. took an hour to pay my phone online.
I finally found the county returns waiting in the bag by the front door. I looked. I looked through the bedroom, living room, trunk, front seat. I trimmed the kiwi starting to attach to the house thinking where I put it.
I started packing to pick up county and there it was. I hung the return bag by the front door. augh!! I located monopoly case after I got spare from storage I remembered.
the artificial in the CBD gummy gives me hyper energy. I get a lot done.
cup library 10:30. now I understand how people get here when they get here. I got in car oops I needed gas. all green lights. 8:45 just before rush 10 minute fill up. showered at lucky gym parked in shady spot, washed face cloths, filled water bottles I could have done at cup. cup 10:30 shady divine order parking spot. returned, picked up, cleaned aqua pen.
watching babies have perfect posture fluid motion. then life happens. this is the perfect time and place to read magazines.
i'm so happy eating my egg croissant, listening to my healing in the car at lunch.
I just hope the library opens on time. when I loaded the car this morning I noticed. still I picked fruit and drove to Sara Lucky's for clearance savory snack and postage stamp books going up in price tomorrow. i'll fill up gas tomorrow.
I showered at seniors drenched in sweat running around 72 degrees at 10 am. I stopped at sprouts still $5.59 Mac treat.
YES!! they had blue case at front desk!! the heat and smoke too much.
11 if i must get old and fall apart i have chocolate. mmmmm...macadamia rocky road to hana. DEATH BY CHOCOLATE.
3 pm i'm tired. I finished sky in Van Gogh 'wheatfield' puzzle.
tired home 4 pm nothing on TV but Trump pot shot I napped 'til 10. I ate stuffed $2 mushroom from lucky's clearance cooked in microwave like meatloaf.
getting old is easy it's the falling apart that's hard. I looked for a book at the library and I couldn't get up on a step stool. my body couldn't manage. I had to ask a young man.
I feel like a zombie minion to Eddie Murphy. my toe. zombies are un dead but their bodies decompose. I wonder if old people invented zombies to explain falling apart.
gummy 25 mg did the trick and full of artificial colors etc. the sprouts cbdMd is all natural. i'm feeling so hyperactive. my body processing the chemicals.
omg my skin is so soft.
Bill Gates book Blah Blah Blah useless drivel. and I'm sure he made more money on it. waste of resources.
picked up lucky's freebie looking for Mauna loa Mac ice cream. clearance savory protein bars. 92 degrees. decided to use library cool for stuffed portobello $2. I considered home too hot.
2:34 pm sitting main library 99 deg out. i'm feeling silly willy British.
i'm babying myself. I stubbed my right toe gathering avocados 7 am I couldn't feel anything and almost lost the nail. I didn't notice except for bleeding. so I forwent soaking in the tub. not good for tub or toe. bag lunch today. I waited for Toki to pick up avocados. I gave half to Cody bookmobile is back.
Diana provided today's drama with a run in with zany Beverly. I'm always super careful knowing some seniors have cognitive issues. everyone at every age has issues.
i'm getting hungry. my stomach was smoke allergy upset. the senior center air has to contend with doors opening and closing constantly. the library is so much better. Sunny air con was good too. I got senior sandwich from car juicy deli meat tomato romaine.
tonight I try peach gummy.
i didn't sweat it. I used to castigate myself for not being perfect. now, no more criticism. I pooled. took an hour for my sinuses to clear. I have a K 95 mask on the dash and I forget to wear it. my head fills up on the drive over. and when I go out to the car to retrieve anything. lots of left over russet potato wedges = chili fries.
when everyone shows up at lunch it's like a party. Trudy, Kenny, Toki, Mike. I remembered to check the Sunny hot spot. I can pick up late. Trudy didn't know the pool reopens 4-6:30 M and W.
I confuse myself so easily. I forget to refresh my blog and the new isn't there. I love reading my writing. AARP had an article on ear wax. Asian is dry like who wants juicy ear wax.
time to pool. 4-6 then nob hill me me since I missed her 4 July. and I got st Pat tiara $.25. besides clearance dried currants. picked up spot and Bill Gates book re global warming. I'm good. 8:30 i'm getting hungry.
sprouts I bought piece of corn bread and a cheese stick. I just ate the cheese.
I used my spoon in my coffee to cool it and 'stole' Toki's to eat with. I'm a very funny girl. Fred planned on work buddy lunch, they bailed we got Mike and Fred.
i'm researching CBD MD $10 for 10. I checked the smoke shop AJ offered $50 for 140 @7.14 mg versus 20-25. i should have asked for a sample.
my head is so congested it's hard to decide. library air is better than seniors.
4 pm i'm hungry. sunny hot spot 24 hours. i ate both nectarines about to expire. carnitas sandwich perfect.
I can't believe how normal people seem.
lunch best company, Toki, Fred, Mike. i started coughing last night. woke up twice.
Walter came by with Minnie same complaining tape. he wants his father's life. he's wasting the time he has left with her and knows it. his counselor has told him the same thing according to him. i don't know why he's blowing the time he has. he's still looking for his mommy. all the men i know.
my left hip screaming from air conditioning cold. air is still very smoky. but 81 degrees at 4 pm. i have to be slow and careful 'til my body stabilizes.
heat kept waking me, the good is i'm feeling pain free.
lucky gym an hour floating in the 82 degree pool. I slipped on the steps into the water. what a surprise. bleach from the tiles on my feet. I wonder, I have lots of pool shoes for traction. so lovely taking my time no clocks running my life.
arr cup 9:52 so I decided to straighten car. then I ate my chicken cutlets.
checking my sunny account 'cat' didn't register. huh.
I'm ok. lucky's Cathy gave me 3 clearance turmeric tea $1 a box no longer in system delicious cinnamon sweet.
whoa! i did it. i went to star 1 after seniors for deposit and remembered to ask about the income tax withholding letter. after me a huge line started at 10 am. they open at 9 am. I worry i'll forget to pay bills.
Main library 2 hours i'm taking a break from the Van Gogh puzzle. Gloria Navarette was walking through stopped and talked. i know the fear and anxiety of care taking parents. actual title of Edgar Cayce book.
I am blessed. I changed my flips to give my feet a vacation. they take me everywhere. my balance has changed. my hips have become very unstable. being aware is half the solution. when I was 7-8 I feared I had trichinosis when my muscles hurt. I didn't know I had psoriatic arthritis like my dad's mom. so he had it too. maybe he wasn't so lazy. maybe why he became a hypochondriac never felt well.
3 pm snack time 93 degrees. 4 pm 97. on to sunny.
4:15 I parked in shade across in PD. I checked the temp it really is 84 here. so lovely quiet. I started for cup in my enthusiasm but the traffic light changed. I may go to nob hill to eat my salad in the air conditioned parking. tomorrow is better for 10 am cup not 1 pm sunny.
lovely 91 degrees at 3 pm seniors came to main under parking very comfortable 86.
an hour to shower no mom at the door screaming at me. HEAVEN. wow what not to have. I need to concentrate on what I want. I want pain free healing.
I want a good hot dog. hard to find on a holiday. lots of lovely other things to enjoy.
no open cooling centers I may hang out at this or another 24 hour. a 10 year old died yesterday hiking with his retarded parents in 147 degrees. the idea of people that stupid out of touch is appalling to me. like my parents which is why living this long is a miracle. she threatened to kill me so many times I wanted to die. she stole my joy. like my sisters.
it's sad so many young people are here instead of with family. so many unhealthy looking out of shape children. the problem with gyms it's not a total body workout. some over and under developed muscles. I do like everyone doing their own thing. when I mentioned heaven doing what you want Jane jumped to hitting people. where did that darkness come from? when I asked how she assumed hitting was acceptable she backed off. saying her comment of a heaven including hitting people was merely for clarification. no, it wasn't, more like disturbing.
I am blessed. I woke 4 am raring to go. tomorrow 24 hour fitness. I went out to wash my car and 72 degrees 6 am. no dew.
2 hours in the tub I dreamed of puzzling and friends. I made up for waking early. 3 pm 100 degrees. 4 pm - 6 pm part 2. I love watching the water droplets dancing on the foam. home 95 degrees.
flashbacks to kindergarten. putting blocks together and being ranked gifted after mom calling me stupid, retarded. she was projecting herself onto me. my stupid retarded mother. maybe autism is a gift.
today my back is so normal. I soaked. makes me wonder if I was massaged all night if i'd be pain free.
I printed big lots ready order held 4 days, oatmeal cookie recipe then it wouldn't stop. I wanted a lucky's shopping list. eh, that wouldn't print. another mystery. not a good one. ooh, orange cranberry walnut cookies. I can chop up dried persimmon. Sprouts has orange cranberries.
I wanted good parking main, I picked up "Magical Negroes" at mission and here by 1 pm. Hilde grudgingly gave me last meal for my dinner. 4:30 100 degrees. tonight library open 'til 7 or I can go to sunny 'til 9.
heavenly sitting listening to healing. I puzzled 'til 4:30. 6:45 I decided to pick up big lots and lucky's. new me enjoying heat and flexibility. new me home 7:30 what?! game shows can wait.
my chemistry is off. I nibbled an apple I had and when I remembered I hadn't eaten I drank a shake. my right hip still aches. I had a good hour soak in the tub. i'm considering a part 2 this evening.
doing what I want when I want is remarkable. I don't know how I stood it before except I didn't know what I was missing.
on the way to main I remembered chase. so good to accomplish w/o planning and stress.
