chemicals

taming has a recipe for change.  i started following the recipe and i'm feeling so many emotions (chemicals) i don't know.  like a maelstrom of emotions.  i have to stay with the feelings and process.  simple not easy.  

watching cesar 911 i realized covid is all about community.  there is no them only us.  we all pull together or go down by an unseen common microbe.  virus have been part of life since there was life.  we have an opportunity to be real.  not a world of appearances or posturing.  microscopic reality.  because it mutates everyone must be protected or possible reinfection.

i went to safe way for chocolates yum and yams but couldn't find just 4 me yams bought sale dates to honor army.

i did my walk 2 pm from front main watching out for flock of geese poo.  stretched feels so good.  cooling off from bright sunny day to lovely overcast.  i wore 2 masks more comfortable than 1.

i looked all over care for february daily word.  it's the same booklet.  1-2, 3-4, 5-6, etc...talk about distracted.

i have spilled so much food on my clothes.  not paying attention to eating while i read and watch tv.  

weirdest thing loaded onto chrome without me.  interview linda ronstadt brain palsy.

scary

i'm watching 'running with scissors' again.  i watched it years ago not realizing the story based on life.  an entertaining group of eccentrics.  it's amazing that only now i realize how truly 'normal' their family is.  i never noticed the father is alcoholic.  my dad drank before coming home.  normal.  if they are mentally ill 60 % maybe more of america is mentally ill.  and the rest of the world that allows social ills.

i've changed and i can continue to embrace reality.  the story of redemption can be everyone's.  getting back to owning oneself.  family=another form of slavery.  emotional chains and prisons.  family designed to be a launching platform.  i was programmed to fail so my sisters would succeed.

i re program myself to own my own life.

it's so cold the phone wouldn't automatically turn on.  i plugged in charger and it turned on.  

i called s c it yesterday and i have home internet again. tygj s c i t.  and it's gone after an hour.. 

bedroom c d g quit.  time for something different.  

today is healing.  well, self care.  i'm focused on me.  hard to remember i'm so conditioned otherwise.  i'm installing instilling new programs.  i never knew what i wanted to be.  i want to be happy.  an inside job.  only i can do it.  whatever else i do in this world i want to be happy doing it.

taming:  1 minute what do i want.  20 minute total distraction allowing subconscious solution.  1 minute what 1 step do i take before bedtime.  success creates more success.  brain paves more myelin highways. 

5 am self sabotage. stress free balance.

i suddenly awoke confronted by the realization my ex marriage and all the other self sabotaging leading to the wrong account number.  the family tradition of alcoholism and suicide just different forms of self sabotage.  the conflict of suicide vs self sacrifice.  

taming has step by step success strategy 100%.  like eating an elephant one bite at a time.

i called soc sec again this time leaving message and talking to saul regarding how to leave voice mail.  at the end of long pause more options one press 79 to leave message.  so maybe she never got the other messages.  he took all the info and was contacting special agent coralis.  i keep wanting to call her corvalis for some reason.  hey, i'm complicated.  no i'm not.

mary of yelling was just outside my car.  i arrived 10;30 seniors stretched immediately before others use park.  yesterday i saw gardener chopped down beautiful shepherds purse.  disappointing.  oh, well.

taming anxiety 8 am

simple not easy.  i've been doing it hit and miss all my life.  most of us do.  learning is my favorite thing because of the rewards,  the more i learn the safer more control i have over myself.  'with all thy getting get thee understanding'.  and the chemical factory is explained how it functions and why.  easier to remember.

i'm still lucid dreaming.  my chemical memories are releasing from my back.  i release and let go.

i wrote auntie since she doesn't remember the card and stickers.  she wanted to know how i am i wrote what i'm doing.  since the x rays i'm a little sad it's taken this long for anyone to believe me.  given my family history of depression it's familiar and still feels lousy.

i wonder if the shattered spine and neck compression is energy related to dad 's dad hanging himself?  dad died of his self fractured vertebra.  auntie t had work back injury.  they say genetics but there's a behavioral component too.  more food for thought. 

i'm waiting for mrs coralis' return soc sec call.  if she doesn't call i'll try again this afternoon.  i have a plan.  i answered a call from resort he very nicely hung up when i explained.  

picked up lunch #8 at 10;50.  straight to main break in rain just long enough to stretch on 3 better bars .2 behind main by duck lake.  i explored.  i've never been this side.  and rain is back.

wow, i'm feeling abandoned by those who have died.  lunch pretty good.  mushroom chicken quarter and apple slaw ok.  i'll sit with feeling for awhile.

battle of providers going x-fin and csc-public.  i have to keep resetting.  good i'm good with adversity.

lucid dreaming

everything stored in my back is releasing.  so the fall i took 1972 is my body's method of processing past life energy.  my theory of energy passing from life to life.  the infinitesimal energy signal that defines us but doesn't limit us.  i want off the karmic wheel and grace is providing the way.  i dreamed of fluffy white kitten blue eyes.  i love her so much.  me.

i'm sitting at mission the only place i could get a signal.  i headed to main and spirit detoured me to college safe way.  clearance corn bread.  i ate hamburger for breakfast.  i can make dinner chili, squash, corn, beans extra protein.  rebuilding blocks.  

picked up lunch returned mission signal spotty.  came main.  had to reconfigure settings for csc-public.  i don't know sv power fading.  lovely raining.  time to recharge at home.

checking on soc sec i gave them wrong number.  called cu and carla told me one number checking saving.  i didn't understand until teller in cup explained one number for both.  same same.  oh silly me, screwed up.

while in cup i dropped off 4 and picked up holds.

called soc sec mrs coralis my case worker i left voice mail.  

i'm no longer addicted to tv now i'm addicted to computer games.

i checked out good will.

got the imperative.  found $3 pearl bracelet i didn't need and royal & lang nickel set of drawing pencils in a case i can use $1.49.  i was looking for a bar to stretch from.  maybe i already have one.  has to be a certain size to fit my hands.

wow, city must pay well jennifer manager senior center drove up in lexus.  she's doing alright.  makes me wonder if she's renting out the place.  sitting on monroe in shade, clouding over noon.  eating lunch fatty chicken cooked in microwave crispy the way i like it.  

charged chrome went to schs.  i found another abandoned yoga mat in the deserted parking lot.  might be up to 4.  i haven't bought any.  never in the budget.  

looked up lang nickel, eh.  went home charged chrome on to schs poor reception on to main.  computed home by 6.  and i can charge chrome and return to compute.

wof-shopping for food

t-your vacation coverage

longevity paradox

i don't know why they say paradox.  must like the way it sounds.  seems reasonable to me that eating traditionally is healthier.  everything in moderation.  we have access to so much now and most feel obliged to over do our patriotic duty.

i woke at 6 exactly my stomach and back hurting.  i went out to compute got home 9;30 pm from schs.

i'm organizing my pantry.  i have so many treasures.  

couldn't get consistent internet reception walked and stretched.  oh my right neck so tight and sore i can't feel anything else.  

oh!  just like after i fell in '72 i had migraines from too tight neck trapezius.  

47 o cold snow on back mountain ranges.  so crisp and clear no pollution.  and it was icy cold 1972 too.  waterbed no heater on floor above open cellar.  freezing.  well, no inflammation.  the only relief 3 boiling hot baths per day between full time school and 25 hours working at macy's.  and x became helpless child.  i had to do everything for 2.  nausea, all the symptoms back.  

lentil stew.  vegetarian day.  cheese.  i need meat.  a little.  my digestion doesn't feel right without meat.  not a lot.  like priming the pump.  i like meat.  my stomach is already complaining.

remembered nob hill.  i was feeling tired, feverish, not quite right.  bought beef, lettuce, 3 cheese, pound of asparagus.  i cooked asparagus sesame oil seeds garlic.  so good.  i peeled stems ate it all.  with 4 slices of my new favorite muenster.  i tried the rice quinoa cereal.  the rice doesn't cook.  i'm cooking it as rice not cereal.  and it boiled over in micro.  glad i put in 2 glass liners easy to clean.  i know how i am.  it worked.

i'm cooking veg rice.  i bought clearance jack fruit.  instructions on can.  i read about it online.  i love trying new things whether it works or not.  

wof-a blooming orchid

the damp seems colder

i spent the morning sorting cards and stickers and pondering my life.  i have memories invested in my mementos.  started reading 'longevity paradox'  all about diet nutrition.  some info is gross.  very scientific dry.

this is slowing me down.  but what else would i choose to do.  i'm sitting in the car in the rain lovely dry and just right.  glad i don't smoke.  tummy full of pork stew.  i added sesame oil and seeds.  so good.  and glad i put out bins before coming out.  

schs-left 8.  chose new.  finishing scratch path.

listening to healing

since i get 2x points i went to lucky's and bought laundry disinfectant no directions on label and c l r bathroom spray cleaner.  diced chili pork clearance 1 1/4 lb $3.11 in the cooler while i compute at s c h s.  walked the store.  i felt so stiff and achy.  a good warm up banishes age.  i may go park to stretch.  if i could find bars closer to home would be ideal.  maybe clamps for doorway.  garment rod inside closet.  

auto renewal county loans on all due when one is requested.  not my imagination.  

at park stretched.  and now my eyebrow itches and hurts.  sore and when i massage eye sockets crackles and pops.    the rest of me is ok.

came home toasted senior lunch sandwich added pickle lettuce.   cooked half pork and sliced onion in microwave half in oven.  cut potatoes and carrots.  delicious.  peanut butter banana bagel dessert.

12;20 am scary lucid dream;  x and i at posh hotel.  alien with her husband trying to lure us into plot.  she tries to get me to wear her shoes, to walk in her poison shoes.  i'm incredibly strong.  i pick her up by her ankles i put them on her feet.  she be crazy.  

i'm a nomad.  'i'm no mad at you' swami beyondananda.  i make do with what i have.  when they steal from me i make do with what i have.   

got here seniors 10;32 car # 8

wasn't raining so i got in my stretching and walk now it's pouring and i'm baptized.  otherwise i'd still be walking.

i called toke and thanked her for quarter pudding cake on porch she left yesterday.  she's so thoughtful and generous even if it was from last $5 fry.  she's done a universe more for me than my evil step sisters.  i don't feel i must go to safe way.  i have dessert.

so today we got both salad and coleslaw.  bland rice con chicken, good beans.  i made corn grits for breakfast that stayed with me.  corn meal is smaller than grits.  i for some reason bought wheat grits.  

i started cleaning hallway and found brand new in box sony cd/dvd player.  must be from tom i think i have mp3 player too but i don't know how to use it.  

reclining is better on my back and eyes.  sitting is too stressful on my back which stresses my eyes.  the tip of my nose has been itching off and on all month.  annoying.  at all times of the day.  no rhyme or reason to it.

wof/collette-joining a band

i'm fluffy now and i love it

i used to be so skinny.  as a child i looked anorexic was always hearing 'poor thing' while my sisters were very well fed.  so for the longest time i felt i was cinder ella.  'poor orphan' evil step sisters step mom and dad.  except dad was there physically only.  friend of mine asked when he died saying i never mentioned him.  he never participated.  mom was abandoned in marriage.  

did laundry, playing token games.  word finder is so slow.  hour to load.  did quizzes.  

car #7 stretched picked up lunch.  they removed stewed tomatoes forgot my replacement veg.  they said they substituted coleslaw nope.  they steal from seniors.  

i'm growing into my autistic brain.  

wof-my humble abode

i do not feel adult 7;39 am

what is adult anyway?  inside our souls always feel timeless or maybe infinite.  j e robison finds the same experience/results in brain evolution.  without the curiosity imperative function is superseded by new interests.

i started to go to laundromat and detoured for gas then water filters, glucosamine, and hot dog.  new costco format.  ketchup and mustard in little reusable cups and soda by demand clerk.  wow.  put  first cup in aarp insulated travel mug.  walked back for refill.  today's daily word divine order. 

parked monroe in afternoon spot.  doing computing.  with god life flows effortlessly.  i cleaned trashed baking rack and pan with a plan.

lunch good today; tamale pie nice size, bland easy to eat.  some days too salty or spicy.  cauliflower, zucchini.  hooray i could eat any day!!  i feel like i could eat cornbread every day.  

i may go laundry today or tomorrow.  wow.  i have the freedom.  i'm playing pch games.  blurry vision is more from intense focus.  tension in neck and hands.  i think i can avoid by relaxation.  consciously relaxing eyes and stretching fingers.

all this year i've smelled smoke.  either more people are burning fires or my tissues are releasing more tobacco.  'habits of a happy brain' by breuning describes how behaviors are chemically crafted.  

wof-i am overjoyed

i must leave the old life- a lot like dying

in order to have a new life i must leave the old stuff behind or give it away.  major life changes are like deaths.  stepping into a new world.  what still works i keep.  no wonder we're afraid of change.  designing my life will take much thought.  

i'm sorting through my life.  yesterday pch so slow didn't have time for sweep, oh well.  and i used hours on spine.  they are merely confirming what i've known for 20 years. 

today's lunch soupy and dry at the same time sweet sour soup dry pork roll chop.  the collard was surprisingly woody.  

now i know why i have the wire racks.  to use in the car as a cool air circulating desk top.  for the summer.

listening to the sub liminals constantly is working.  i buy things in multiples without knowing why and i always find i use and need them.  i have 2 i kept in car.

if i laundry tomorrow i can blog there.

7 minutes to find hot spot 77 o

i'm at schs.  what a day.  i'm not hungry.  ate lettuce lunch.  still not very hungry.  i've been busy all day and my back is resetting so new messages to my body.   eating a nut bar.

i washed my hair aired out bathroom.  went seniors for stretch and remembered nob hill has almonds $5 monday.  looked online for campbell store.  2 boys on bars until 1;20 almost time to leave for appointment.  i stretched. 

went campbell nob hill after dr massieh i have scoliosis neck and all through my back wants mri.  no almonds so i jetted to sc and last 4 flavored bags better than just salt.  

i have yet to do computing maybe i won't.  i don't have to be anywhere.

trying for chili's log in.  had to reset pass.  half hour free kid's i worked hard.  came home ate decided i'm done for today.  i'd rather read 'look' tonight new cbs comedies.  

wof-focus your mind

still no soc sec

supposed to start second wed this month.  that would have been 13th.  i don't know.

just got a 22 min call from cathy of hawaii.  she's getting soc sec and talked to them covid slowing everything down.  her sister is nice to her now and no more strokes.  prayer is working.  i have to thank silent unity. 

i love playing lotto, word finder  took 20 min to load and still slow.  and then it doesn't work.

i watched half of cesar and came.  i walked the park found 2 bottles one with water for shepherds purse.  i think it like allergy plant grows near toxins.  did my stretches strength training.

wow, i completed games and so second nature didn't register.  i forgot quizzes.  

i must be still clearing my lungs.  maybe that's the allergy thing too.  

sea otters-raft

doing what i want

i planned on 99 cent store for fresh veg.  stopped walmart paid pge walked store.  99 overcharged me celery sticks 1.99 ok pineapple pin, squash, parsley plant.  4 items 3.99.  

at the park did my stretches.  10;48 time is flying cruising internet j e robison and a burroughs.  people who reclaimed their lives.  11 had to move car around block reception gone.  

1 pm home low sugar i'm trembling.  haven't felt like this 12 years.  

best chili.  45 minutes.  i prefer microwave to cook potato, onions, squash, doesn't add water to dilute flavors.  boils away.  1 can chili, corn.  so good.  season thinly sliced onion, spread on parchment paper, microwave high 7 min, toss, high 7 min, toss, high 2 min,  set aside.  season diced potato, high 4 min, stir, high 4 min.  season diced squash, high 4 min, stir, high 4 min.  add chili to bowl, use corn to clean chili can, add potato, squash, onions.

i finally figured the anxiety thing.  when everything is calm anxiety shows up to be processed.   

10;29 #10-57 o

i thought i was late but no.  my favorite parking spot.  i chose to watch 'mr. lucky' cary grant gangster gambler movie.  as a child i watched it as a scary drama that ends well.  hollywood calls it a comedy despite the darkness.  go figure.

at lucky's sara picked up seltzer and 3 tiny clearance cans of moscato spritzer, big bag sprouts corn chips used $1 off.  $1.74.  it went bold.  reception cuts in and out listening to 'healing depression' you tube. 

my tummy a little queasy all day.  from my back.  i guess i did a little too much or too hard.  at least i have my candies.  i lived on lemon drops a month 1972.  

went cup library prune ridge to apple to s c b to cup library.  would have been very fast 1;30 but i forgot mask and returned to car.  done.  now i'm sitting school.  i believe i know which parking lot now.  i hope.  eh, i have a plan.

oh, i'm so happy!  i finally figured how to shift up and down.  two fingers on pad!  i'll celebrate my wins whatever they are.

sorted weekend food.  ate onion y mac fatty chicken salad.  took half hour to remove tbs diced onions.

omg.  trump's legacy is turning america into a third world country.  the news showing dc lock down state of siege.  

wof-pair of chopsticks

10;38 #7 127 mi

i'm set for weekend $tore.  5 movies, 3 chips, comb crochet, 2 tea tree almond aroma roll on, 50 cent baby shampoo.  washed my hair 8 am.  

i want veg 99 cent store.  squash, celery.  

i want to do.  lots at home.  i did my computing.  

time is distorted.  it feels like a week has happened today.  like the 8 years bedridden seemed like no time.  days just passed.  i woke and slept.  like a conscious coma.  i'm reading 'look me in the eyes' john elder robinson.  my theory of eye contact is the energy lock.  when predator and prey lock eyes.  the supposed ability of snakes to hypnotize mesmerize victims.  the energy of a stare.  i can feel it and antagonism.  the feeling causes rising hackles.

wof-good buddies

#5 car

walked and stretched.  so far so good.  x rays and laundry good so far.  right shoulder alive.  fed crows some crackers.  i do hate waste even though i know nothing is ever wasted.

i'm practicing clicking left hand navigating right.  my right side always felt weaker.  i wonder if depression is stored in the spine?

i want to do at least one quiz.  

mike pence's excuse for not removing trump was to avoid setting a precedence while trump has set a precedence of violence against the us government.  trump is an anti-american terrorist.

puttering around the house is so satisfying.  i sorted stickers, went through the mail.  enjoyed watching 'a delicate balance' katherine hepburn, paul scofield, lee remick, joseph cotton.  great acting.  i usually hate talky things this was fascinating.  

wof-local hobby shop

#12 car 10;40

i guess some people are using paranoia to fluff themselves bigger.  we're all tired of covid.  no need to be unkind but then there has never been a reason to be unpleasant.  

after yesterday my left hip is making noises.  nothing a little willow can't handle.  lunch was ok.  roasted baby chicken nice and dry.  better than slimy.  ubiquitous carrots and squash.  

if i play one of each game and search i increase my chances at bonuses.  1 pm already, listening to heal depression.  

online read theory trump 'plandemic'.  he lied to spread covid to weaken america to overthrow the government.  every other president protected america from sars, bird and swine flu, ebola, etc. 

came home checked if clothes dry.  socks and towels ok.  put away and started next load.  i'm so proud of myself.  i started re organizing hall pantry and stopped before i became exhausted.  cooked thin spaghetti for madras lentils.  so good i ate 2 bowls and yogurt.  feeling full and sleepy.  

wof-'making it happen'

can't get through

i did laundry laffayette.  waiting in lunch line i remembered i needed x ray.  i'm still trying to call spine dr. massih no answer.  called dr. peter chung he said come by for prescription.  i waited 3 weeks for authorization.  not needed.  would have been nice to be advised.  i called and went to ciro imaging walk ins 8-5 done by 1;30.  terry the tech was wonderfully sympathetic.  i stood for the neck and spine scans.  hooray!!  i was scared after the fiasco with the osteoporosis scan.  another hurdle crossed.

i was freaking out.  i called dr. chung thanks.  laundry an hour to hang.  38 pr socks.  i started  

i cooked potato and yam melted cheese.  what else do i want?  bagel and ham.

wof-a wild buffalo

managing-why i love the internet

rewards tokens is like shopping and fulfills that desire.  and i get more bonus tokens.  i have 223 million to play with.  pch is the best fun.  sometimes it gets stuck and i have to wait.  there's a lot i can do.  i could sit out here for hours but for the battery and my eyes.  i have to keep reminding myself to refocus my eyes.  at home i used the tv.  i'm playing word finder, lotto, scratch and shopping and emails while listening to you tube healing depression.  i finally figured out to search right hand press left hand.  saves imbalance.

i tried adding another post to edit and gave blogger a headache.  i figured if i had two open posts i'd have one for tomorrow morning but it doesn't seem to be working.  nope.  the posts revert to 'view blog'.

i'm releasing my game show obsession maybe that's what internet home reception loss is about.  i choose healthy healing.  i wouldn't be here at the park stretching without the lure of internet.  it gets me out of the house.  'up and at 'em atom ant.'

this morning i started castor oil bottle search.  the mary kay pore bottle is minuscule.  i added some to oil free moisturizer.  learned something new minuscule is preferred spelling to miniscule.  i removed 2 scratchy collar tags and used veg in omelette with cheese.  delicious.  i may cook potato or yam.  

no channel 5 in living room so no jamie at 6.  i can watch love boat an hour or earth sea 4.  hope i don't fall asleep in kitchen.  

beautiful day

i puttered around house cleaning arranging.  it's 60 o and so sunny.  it's so lovely sitting in the car listening to you tube healing depression.  what a blessing.

i glued my clogs and i'm thinking of how to resole boots.  

i keep smelling smoke.  i guess people are burning fires.  i fed ravens one bag of croutons.  

i'm having the best time of my life.  i don't have to do anything i don't want.  no one to kill or torture me hurrah!!  if i die tomorrow i die happy.

i want a little castor oil bottle.  time to look for my squirt bottle.

for breakfast i cooked penne in the fast mac added chopped celery tuna and grated carrots with mustard and mayo.  i forgot dill relish, peas and i'd left the black olives in the car.  i forgot about the green ones but i think i want that with spaghetti.  green are meatier.  black is a condiment.   

it is now 2 pm and i still haven't finished computing.  so much more convenient at home but no reception still.

i think i'm so much more interesting looking with my moles, white hair and wrinkles.  before i was a blank piece of paper, now i have character.

heaven.  b king whopper dinner w/chips.  watching jamie 15 min meals.  bought nestle pie.  

oh, my back

between right blade and spine.  must have bruised rib 2014 when i fell my right leg collapsed.  i did so much yesterday.  

healing only happens to relaxed muscles.  tight muscles hold everything in place.  

i'm putting my health above all else.  i'm listening to healing recordings.

$tore black marker, 3 chips, 50 cent duster, 2 c cough, pads, velcro phone bag, fish oil.  exactly $10.

ate lunch while computing seniors.  looked freebie went lucky's body armor lite bought 3 oxygen, pearl olives $1 off.  exactly $8.  on the way home i went main to compute then safe way $5 friday didn't have blue diamond almond flavors, bought black forest fruits.  considered going to maria but not worth it.   

i want a pizza of olives, pineapple, ham, mushrooms, bacon.

wof-a word puzzle

i watching ted danson and holly hunter 'mr. mayor'.  set in l a.  strangely unsatisfying.

day=week

first i went senior park 9;30 to try stretching before appointment.  adc cleaning and polishing and fluoride $45.  back to seniors 10;47 ate lunch and compute.  sitting listening to kelly healing i realized i could pick up county returns after picking up glasses.  home and realized i could detour to $v.  walked store.  arrived silicon 40 minutes early.  called they brought out glasses.  i checked out smart and final sale choc quick $6.99 but only strawberry and no idea more.  i may go s c.  drove back way to cup safe way so much easier.  walked store.  drove back hollenbeck/stelling to sprouts walked store zoom frankinscense/myrrh $5.  i still have 4.  recommended for asp.  arrived library 2;25.  decided to blog.  

i considered going to via vico to remember past.  i don't know if i was talking with tom then.  probably not. i was dating bill that's when mom and dad asked me to drive them and started dad's cancer treatments.  i'm sure nit and ail refused.  so self centered the way mom raised them.

the type is suddenly back to normal.  i have no idea how it did this.  well, opened at 3-3;20 library line gone my turn.  i picked up

wof-we quickly found out

celebrity-a long vacation

schs

today is the arrival of the magi and the gifts.  schs neighborhood must be a lot of people online.  very slow.  wof-quacking ducklings.  t mob-bigger and better than ever.

arrived 10;30 am #8 car good reception 49 o lovely cool overcast day.  quizzes, puzzles done and done.

11;20 oh, so lovely sitting in the car eating my lunch practically outdoors.  i'm feeling so blessed.  eating inside we were  lucky if we were served by noon.  a lesser extension of the painful family meals.  still got criticized but i didn't care about seniors and staff.  they weren't expected to value me and when someone did it was special.  phil was always picking on me.  he left under a cloud.  

cut off 2 inches washed hair and found misplaced small bead cheap star necklace hanging on fixture.  my inspiration for the 2 i made.

i came to schs after watching old skinny mexican in a white truck trying to steal cactus.  quite a popular spot.  usually they sneak it in the dark like i care.  it just grows.  i don't know why they don't grow it.  it's carefree.  

i wanted b king 2 for 1 whopper.  i'll have one for breakfast.  i had some chili beans and chips too.

i'm slowly getting used to going where i want when i want.

insanity.  yesterday jeopardy and wheel were preempted by senate hearings over crazy trump and today his confederate 'boys' stormed dc.  reagan had alzheimers what is trump's problem?

frozen chrome

arrived seniors walked and stretched.  sat around corner eating lunch computing.  screen froze on kelly.  i got home at noon called library concerned couldn't do anything.  wouldn't shut off.  kept playing you tube kelly even closed.  played at home.  i was concerned the screen would burn.  i called justin voice mail.  dialed central talked to cody who was to call tech support.  i got mouse plugged in trying to get cursor to move tried shut off again and it did.  called cody the ok.

too much drama.

text from eyes glasses pick up by appointment.  went to s c h s ok reception 2 mi.  forgot tv guide.  paid con cell and city just in case goes crazy again.

oh, i forgot county renew but no virus fines so...

sprinkles

i arr at 10 and tried to compute, sketchy reception car  #5.  so i walked checking on herbs and stretched after yesterday survey of bed clothes left me weirdly out of sorts.  arms sore.  now better.  just in time.

very windy intermitent huge drops.  58 o.  11 am raining steadily.  glad i no longer smoke.

i called carlos after figuring dialed calls.  he said this afternoon 1;15.  alright, alright, alright.  i ate my lunch and listened to you tube.  suddenly remembered i have to deposit.

i talked with gerda.  11;52 she showed up as i was walking my lunch trash back to the center.  i hooked her up with menu lady.

i went lucky's 4 bottles oxygen, paid citi.  carlos less than half hour $118.  so much less than eric time and money.  i had time to deposit credit union.  went to main to compute.  very poor reception.  couldn't connect quizzes, scratch, lotto.  came home brought in bins caught last 15 minutes love boat.  maybe the rain.  

sciipa sent me mask to change medicare.  i'll think about it. 

no tv guide.  didn't hold.  i already checked out tonight comedies and jeopardy.  wof-bowl of apples.  

found my tiger tail-diaeresis-noel coward

noel has it over the e to avoid 'nool' pronunciation.

i'm consolidating my beads and findings.  i'm very blessed.  discover late fee 29 not 35.  48 minutes late is still late.  and i got my 600 covid relief.  tygj.

i walked g2 safe way, $v, maria safe way no chow mein.  now i'm blogging main.  i may still go fremont park to stretch i don't know.

i kind of want to bead an unassuming necklace..

i wanted to burn incense and didn't know where my lighters were.  i'm trusting my lungs are still clearing.

sitting in the car computing makes me more aware of my back and encourages more stretching.  and i rather like sitting with the sun shades up peeking at passers by.  i'm so yawning.  i'm either bored or relaxed maybe both.  nap attack.

suddenly 3 pm.  i must have napped.  2 new emails.

watercress and wasabi for dinner.  i cooked fettucine.  chopped watercress in bottom of bowl left over wasabi from friday $5 sushi.  hot drained noodles on to.  one can tuna and water.  sprinkle amino so good doesn't need anything else.  yummy.  toasted buttermilk old fashion donut dessert.  i'm making up for my family denying me dessert.  just desserts.

today a palindrome.

1/2/21.  carmina burana popped into my head so i googled it and it's a real thing.  oh, what to do.  p o saturday was noon pick up now 4 pm.  i'm so early.  i withdrew chase i can go to cup.  

oh, mc d quarter pounder $6.20 just for burger.  fresh beef delicious.  but come on.  that's restaurant price.  and i don't believe it's 4 oz.  my arthritis hands don't like the real beef or something.  2;20 pm my feet are complaining.  maybe the too sweet bun.

i drove to * and closed.  what??  new hours; m-tu-th 9/5-wed 10/5-fri 9/6.  and that's all she wrote.  

cup safe way nothing.  dropped off county 4 dvds and 1 book-reminds me to renew.  well, that was weird.  i renewed one and they all renewed.  picked up 12.  

got gas costco and tanker there.  i don't know how i manage the same day unless they fill tanks everyday.  when home i remembered computer and stopped $tore 8x10 canvasses to paint cloud angel.  main park lovely overcast day.  quiet because overcast.  home 5 pm.

best dinner yet.  linguine 16 minutes in 'pasta and more'.  i love that i can put it in the microwave and forget it while i wash the water cress and prep lettuce.  watercress in bowl, hot noodles, sesame oil, sesame seeds, sliced ham, peas, 77 sec on high.  so delicious.  ate while watching jamie 15 min meals.  first commercial break i put donut in toaster oven, cripsy crunchy outside moist fluffy inside. 

new life

 yes definitely.  before publishing auto update.  the time changes to publish time.  

i love going my own time.  i went sc dollar, senior computing, college safeway sushi for lunch and iceberg, 99 cent store inoki mushrooms watercress  6 donuts 2.99, sj dollar store 2 concave mirrors 3 chips.  drove stevens creek to walmart 2 boxes gum .89/10 dark chocolate cherries.  decided to go st just and compute online tv guide extra jeopardys 4-6 pm.  hurrah!!

home i diced potatoes added beef barley soup and blanched almonds amino acid to taste soup.  2 bowls.