another real childhood fear. after nuclear drills fears of war with Cuba/Russia due our proximity to Moffett Field. I'm processing more childhood trauma.
Sprouts jicama on the verge of turning, cucumber slimy, 6 oz mango good. $7 lunch includes 2 eggs, 1/4 c diced cheddar. very satisfying. I pick up St Just Thanksgiving today so no bag lunch. every year the same I don't know. I'm feeling mellow, relaxed and sleepy. my letter and ID ready.
I love sleeping. and I love having time to enjoy myself. I have no one taking my time.
new new new, I'm sitting upstairs library both alternates taken. I'm so tryptophan ed out. turkey lunch. home at 2:30 can't stay awake.
I watched 'Murphy's Romance' and called Hector at Scan to apply. way better than Anthem. Walter is supporting me. 7-10 business days for paperwork. so around Dec 5.
Sunshine, Bonnie, Judy gave me half Safeway Black Forest pudding cake 4 days outdated. so moist.
city hot spot ready today from yesterday's 23/37. I have 'til 12-2.
I searched 'my favorite dance' and 2015 was remarkable.
b'fast. I'm hungry. I sound like Audrey II from "little shop of horrors."
simply Seymour or Stuart. I misplaced my senior ID. took it off my shirt just because.
I'm in awe. Paul, Lloyd's friend sought me, talked to me, offered to buy me coffee I asked Nodira and she offered free to Paul he declined. we chatted about his eye mole and castor oil. next time. he's never done this before maybe never again. I am grateful.
I introduced Walter to Sheila from my falls class. Excellent.
I'm reading Mccall Smith 'Hippopotamus" in the copy room, charging, listening to healing, feet elevated, posters to relax vision. it's good that Lee has my chair.
fresh coconut and strawberries b'fast. new day.
I forgot my supplements and felt OK yesterday. and I remembered everything I wanted to do.
today I'm pampering myself. Walter was mellow. and Fred and Toke well. Salome came with her drama. I read magazines all afternoon.
salad and lentil soup. hearty meal. I watched split second and took my time dressing, still arrived seniors 6:55. B Jackson back. I started very satisfying Wysocki puzzle from Sunny. I'm making myself happy.
Walter was lucid and calm. 1 cup decaf. he got me extra potatoes. he tries to make people happy. the most important is himself.
I found a nickel in the upstairs copy room. I checked my deposit to Merriwest. I closed Chase. Maryam was wonderfully patient. her husband has same b'day. I said oh, stubborn she laughed and and added sweet. I felt OK proceeded to Merriwest and then clearance Sprouts 2/$7 red white blue fruit and $2.99 chick sand. lovely quiet.
delicious.
'The Trouble With Jessica' about hanging like my paternal grandpa.
I got gas and forgot to add gas treatment for flashing warning. I collected it, put in car next to me and forgot to add. stopped pumping I had to start over added and continued fill up. I noticed last Nov mileage low probably due to seasonal gas formula change.
I'm yearning for everyone's wishes to be granted.
no allergies due to the rain. I can breathe. when the sun comes out my nose tickles and runs.
I talked to B Jackson an hour in the tub he may be Aspergers. I'm certainly most comfortable with intelligent people. my flock.
Walter was to remind me Toke and Fred cancelled I reminded him.
yahoo! I reset post to auto update. if I'd worn shorts I'd bike.
Sunny I saved $5 didn't buy book sale. and I picked up hot spot.
sunny forecast Tuesday good to close Chase.
and checking gas prices.
he's going by Jackson. injured when his scooter headlight failed at 4 AM. so dark he continued to ride, hit a pothole, hurt his shoulder. he's talking suing the company. then backpacking he fell into his campfire and burned his knee.
I'm so done with ADD. when I had more energy I didn't care. now I care. I am no longer amused. oh, I got it from mom. no wonder she hated me.
St Justin Diana P was there standing 15 feet behind so I filled in.
Sunny hot spot available tomorrow.
I'm amazed nothing about Derek and Stephanie Shirley autism so obvious to me who also is autistic. no wonder Giles was Uber autistic. Dame Stephanie's mother sounds autistic from descriptions of specific behaviors. I googled neuro linguistic programming autism came up. Bill Gates, Elon Musk greedy liars are not autistic. Dame Stephanie "Steve" Shirley was autistic made over 70 millionaires.
so many suicide movies. Bill Murray 'Friend' movie about a dog left behind. 'the Good Half' Nick Jonas movie about his mom's death.
I'm back to 1972 nausea every day. I'm using my hematite shielding.
you tube plays w/o hookup.
Walter called his dad 'old man' and has become one. I'm done. he doesn't listen. he got the knee shot to annoy me. he knows it doesn't work. I don't want another dad. hurray! I run away.
Walter confessed he had 2 cups of coffee and like an addict wasn't responsible for his behavior. I told him he was drinking, 2 cups didn't jump down his throat. he likes the false sense of energy and I warned him the better to injure himself. typical addict. he could choose 10 cups after lunch or 20 decaf. his choice. I told him I didn't need another dad. I can't keep telling him. I want my happy life.
Jane showed at the library 3 weeks in China.
I don't know. 2 middle aged Asian men in suits jump head first to floor below.
the rain is triggering my back, legs, everything. becoming unmanageable excruciating pain.
Walter was in rare form after his shot yesterday. he was purposely dumping his pain on Fred and I. he loves his pain more than himself. I ran away to the library explaining.
delightful, the feeling addicts pursue. up and down along the sine curve of life. autists can be very comfortable with math the only perfect language no exceptions proving any rules.
9:02 Sunny senior lunch city county closed. 10 minute line to get in at 9:30 only half full. they play recorded 30's Depression music. I don't like it. I do like the orange pekoe tea.
in my mind I can still do everything in my body I'm limited. I enjoy reading my blog.
I was at library 11 and got the best shade. 70 o overcast day.
David showed at 5 pm after work I gave him my Xmas puzzle 1 k.
70+ is tough. I feel physically unknown. I don't have anyone I want to depend on I've been betrayed too many times. I'm done with disappointment. Tom M called Sat 5:07 pm left message. he needs reassurance. the only times he ever called. I'm done.
I remembered Citibank due left it on my steering wheel. went after lunch and decided to check Walmart fish oil too expensive free medicare beets. I know medicare used to cover fish oil. I paid $30 on PGE got my flu shot. maybe covid next week. pharmacy said I needed 2 shots I already got. pneumonia and shingles that gave me shingles.
I finally remembered to google 'little rascals' no mention of orphans and Dame Steve just died Aug 8, 2025.
I can't believe the reactions. Martha security was thrilled. never seen her so happy. everyone else flat affect.
today a long session of stretching before rising my back is good. I soaked and puzzled @ seniors while I entered sweeps and wheel regular and celebrity.
St J I finally asked Asian who gave me the purple pillow young lady, her name is- ta da Aileen. God works in mysterious ways.
2 ham cheese, 2 chips, mini joy, mound, p'nut mm, fun, fun, fun. I feel special.
reading Let it go it amazes me Dame Steve doesn't see her mother's behavior as a significant reaction to Dame Steve's autistic behavior. her mother supported Dame Steve's autistic behavior that made her world interaction a success.
SUNDAY-watching "OUR GANG" I never knew they were orphans adopted yet remaining family.
I am filled with God. maybe my family was rubbish to force me out into the world. still rubbish. I don't have to wallow with them. I can love them from a distance. ah, the song.
reading Dame Shirley is so reassuring for me. she's so aspergers.
library closing time I couldn't find my car keys. very unhelpful staff. I called Csaa while walking to the car. I left them in the passenger door.
I'm learning how. I was never allowed and punished for enjoying myself. I'm still a little anxious.
google keeps trying to take over city wi-fi with unsafe messages.
Korean kitties puzzle so cute. I'm going slowly.
Tory (Victoria) at lunch was fascinated by Dame Steve Shirley, autism, my self diagnosis, I talked about Barry "Bear" Kaufman, Option Institute, son Raun's autism, Dr Thomas Szasz, etc. Clyde Burton took a class there 1983? MA. worried about being $6 k in debt.
WOW!! I googled Option Institute as of 12/19 it's autism all the time!
I'm so excited! there's hope for the planet. I believe the Earth needs autists for its survival. we are the evolutionary solution.
I remembered my almonds. I'm encouraging everyone to snack on soaked almonds. according to Dr Gundry the skin has lectins in almond milk. I don't like or eat the skin.
I bought RB bag lunch for dinner. seniors lunch baked chicken/gravy tasty. Fred, Walter, Toke.
forgot glasses again using relaxation to see. practicing Bates' method for puzzle and Dame Steve Shirley.
Heavenly, 4:30 I went to the car for glasses and chips from seniors. getting chilly I got Bass shirt.
I'm feeling well. Sunny nutrition is open 11/11 Veteran's Day. we'll see.
I'm going slowly. Nodira gave me superior snack bar coffee and HI chips. I'm having the best Halloween Ever. I keep eating fun size my feet are swollen. p'nut MMs eaten. almond joy then snickers.
I forgot my specs in car I'm successfully puzzling w/o.
I'm having an effect on Walter. he can identify when others spin their wheels.
always discussion still in effect. I'm loving the light. seniors full of pep.
YAY! candy! someone left a bag. I kept the p'nut mm's, almond joy, Reeses. and I added my mini snickers. 6 months supply at least. makes my joints ache and blurry vision.
lovely soak stretch in tub. I'm so early. the light is encouraging. I got extra lunch chicken. good day. Fred, Walter, Toke, Salome late.
4 pm cold.
auto update works. I figured out I have to add November to see my page. I can read the entire year. I feel special.
I picked up St J lunch behind Gloria looks better. deli ham cheese sandwiches. no dairy today.
parents now are raising a generation of royalty. little princes and princesses. and then there are wild troll children.
4 hours of puzzle I quit. trolls keep trashing puzzle. no parents just larger troll kids.
SUNDAY 6 I cooked diced potatoes cheese b'fast. 8 I remembered senior candies 9 'Danny' movie found noon and candies already in kitchen.
