I'm forced to relax

I got to puzzle 10 minutes then Mr. annoying swooped.  tapping and clearing his throat.  how he expects the pieces to escape I don't know.  he must have been waiting watching.  motivation for me to rest and go home early for my game shows.  

I found 95 cents in the copier.  

I went to 24 early 8:30 am.  I soaked and stretched half hour.  lunch was fun watching Jennifer and staff manipulating food.  they held back so much I got extra veg balls more than in my meal.  then they played with complete dinners taking them out but giving only to certain people.  I actually enjoyed the show.  they had one dinner sitting out for half an hour then put it back.  

I went to main to puzzle for 10 minutes when annoying Puzzler came out making noises and clicking pieces so I sat and decided to pick up county movies.  Two Mules For Sister Sara.  

I came home watched People Puzzler, drove to nob hill for pizza, home to watch Person, Place or Thing.  I must be really tired I left my car key in the door and drove around.  home I baked the pizza for dinner.  not delivery Digiorno.  eh, on sale.  

aquafaba-bean water

the liquid in cooked garbanzo beans is a substitute for eggs.  

I'm making noise.  I'm finally comfortable with noise.  I was punished for everything.  my noise, other people's noise.  I was punished for breathing.  

after senior lunch I bought my low salt BBQ chips.  college Safeway clerks commented one liked low salt plain the other low salt BBQ I told them I mixed them and they were amazed.  life is simple.  

it's amazing how happy chips make me.  and my game shows.  

I decided to watch my game shows first then Sunny open 'til 6 pm to pick up movies and to puzzle.  I went to CUP 10 am after 24 fitness to pick up movies.  no game shows tonight.  central open tomorrow 'til 5.

I ate chips and forgot dinner.  my stomach was upset with me.  7 pm I came home from Sunny library and Sprouts and had split pea bacon soup and tofu ham.  my stomach OK.  

What a full day.  Funny You Should Ask I learned St Drogo patron for the ugly.  

doesn't take much to make me happy

Temptation game show.  'til noon Sale of the Century, Classic Concentration.  and I ate tofu ham for b'fast 2 dark chocolate truffles for dessert

at some point I want low salt BBQ chips and sunny dollar tree.  doesn't have to be today.  I'm relaxed feeling calm and content.  

I started clearing out the mouse condo.  I'm spraying alcohol and scent.

I've been so depressed.  I deserve an easier life.  Eric surely deserved a happier life.  so many people deserve better and don't believe it.  becoming decrepit is depressing.  the outside matches the inside.  

spaghetti-os with toast.  I considered baked beans on toast.  when it's what you want it's so good.  

Temptation game show listed 7:30

I'm a skeptic.  Missouri is listed as the 'show me' state which is why Unity Village is so perfectly placed.  

I'm feeling desperate.  no cause.  old feelings bubbling up.  I want to run away from my feelings.  I'm watching some of my favorites.  Temptation and All of Me Steve Martin and Lily Tomlin.  my body is reacting to feeling pressured to do.  I was never allowed to be.  I had to always earn my right to live.  it was never a gift it was ransomed.  maybe COPD are people never allowed to breathe, taught to hold their breath.  smokers are typically shallow breathers.  

I sliced up the tofu ham.  I used orange soda for braising.  I thought about orange juice.  I finally finished the tofu turkey for b'fast.  

5 minutes on high 25 on simmer.  delicious.  I ate a big salad too.  

I need to sit with my feelings and process them.  changing myself to gold.  true alchemy.

I finally cooked the spinach omelet and ate tofu ham and sunflower toast.  so delicious.  

5:30 Split Second

a lovely surprise.  I fixed my b'fast of tofu turkey and went into the living room.  it hasn't been on tv all week due to Christmas.  I'm so glad it's back.  watching the news is boring.  

seniors are late.  lunch chicken under done.  I'll re cook it.  

main library insecure intrusive puzzler keeps taking over sections i'm playing.  and he's a piece snapper like the pieces might escape.  and he smells.  makes me cough.  

I got home perfect time for People Puzzler.  I turned on tv, changed channel, started first puzzle.  so perfect.  aw, no Person, Place, Thing.  news.  

Happy's Place and Lopez vs Lopez.  laugh out loud.  great Sponge Bob impression.  

the lone ranger or tonto

so many heroes are alone.  I still have tofu turkey.  OK with cranberries.  

good day.  I got the penultimate parking space at 9:30.  I showered and forgot my flips so I used paper towels to wipe and dry my feet.  so I finally put flips in my bag.  and face towels.  

lunch was OK.  people had to comment that the Chinese took over my usual spot like I owned or wanted to own (yuck) that spot.  I got an extra piece of fish.  I walked prune Lucky's nothing and used my expiring $50 at Walmart.  beets and eyes.  I picked up 3 movies and home.  

MERRY FREEDOM!!

I'm watching 1940's Decade movies.  and the original My Friend Flicka.  I can watch the remake now.  

I baked the tofu turkey roast with wild rice stuffing.  It's like hard bologna.  salty bologna.  It's OK with cranberry sauce.  for 99 cents it's OK.  I'll add water.  I'm drinking a lot of water.  I felt sick from too much salt.   it is very filling.  

I'm happy watching People Puzzler.  

must be a lot of people using the internet it's slow.  I'm doing my intermittent training during Person, Place or Thing.  

Christmas eve-Pepsi 1.25 L-12/24/24 once in a lifetime

no parking at 24 hour flooded lot took out 50-60 spaces I drove around 2 times and ended up just picking up free soda then Sprouts 99 cent frozen 2 pie slices and 2 tofu roasts, ham and turkey.  thawing in fridge.  

Staff wanted to go home so I came home 12:30 from senior lunch.  Toki still not well I told her go home more rest.  

I'm watching Love Boat Ellen Travolta looks just like Lily Tomlin.  

everything closed tomorrow I must rest.  FREEDOM!!  

I could pick up movies at city but no.  open 'til 5.  so is county.  

I heated the 99 cent gluten free pumpkin pie is too sweet.  molasses and sorghum flour.  if it had been good I'd get more.  Sprouts open 'til 7.  

2 days to Christmas-Celestial tea

I restored my settings.  chrome locked up.  took awhile to shut down.  wouldn't to do anything.  I didn't get upset.  

my plan to watch O. Henry's Full House 1952 movie narrated by author John Steinbeck then start my day.  it has a whole new meaning to me.  people stories.  The Last Leaf Ann Baxter and Jean Peters.  a very beautiful woman a better actress.

finishes at 8:40 then exercise at 24, pick up tea, senior lunch.  

10:45 sitting waiting at seniors.  I thought of $tree.  maybe tomorrow.  I want cold medicine and c drops.  I love my senior center family.  

3 days 12 oz onion dip

and I love getting up at 8 am.  I'm looking to enjoy the next 2 weeks.  

lots of gym parking 8:30.  i checked out Lucky's first.  no dip.  considered going to Prune ridge.  maybe tomorrow.  I showered at the gym then remembered I forgot to check the candy aisle I went back and they had free dip.  It took me awhile to find Lindor dark chocolate truffles.  I bought 2.  

I decided to check Nob Hill for tomorrow's jumbo fish sticks.  I found 6 clearance toothbrushes perfect for new years.  

I heated Innovasian BBQ pork fried rice for 5 minutes in the microwave so easy and delicious I'm thinking of Chinese dinner on New Year's eve.  

I napped from 2-5 pm.  I'm refreshed.  

I'm making my best Christmas yet.  

4 calling birds 2 free drink-jarritos

I went to 24 at noon.  I'm taking life slowly.  I've learned to savor.  i walked gym Lucky's couldn't find anything.  Prune had dark Lindor truffles I wanted.  tomorrow I'll check gym.  

I'm enjoying the tuna noodle with the carnitas.  and BBQ chips.  not helping my allergies but so good.  and the baby cucumbers.  I may even grow some.  

everything went smoothly.  i picked up movies from central.  relaxed on puzzle, read paper, picked up st Just $20 card and bag of groceries.  

life is improving or I'm improving.  next door Trumpers celebrating, no parking I went to Nob Hill, sale on Blue Diamond blueberry almonds and Mac nuts.

5th day yerba mate 16 oz

tuna noodle 4 tsp 'butter' delicious.  I added raw sunflower seeds, the poor man's pine nuts.  

I picked up free Yachak yerba mate and walked Lucky's twice couldn't find anything I wanted.  the self check gives back change.  what a smart machine.  so it cost me a nickel recycle deposit.  

seniors staff is happy for two weeks off.  I finally figured out my congestion is from the pool resurfacing dust.  today they were mixing powder and the crew wears no protective gear which means a good chance of permanent lung damage.  my sinuses are plugged up.  explains my coughing and wheezing all week.  I spend a lot of time there.  I have the next 2 weeks off.  only lunch is open.  I can take my time at 24.  

6 geese a laying- Saratoga 28 oz water

And seniors puzzle.  I rested.  

Walter defines himself by his aches and pains.  he's following in his father's steps we know how that ends.  he's feeling doomed.  he said yesterday he never imagined ending up as he is and I told him he didn't have to imagine when his father provided a visual example 24/7.  he still doesn't get it.  he drives people away with his constant droning.  yet he feels so lonely.  he takes no responsibility for his life but Walter doesn't have anyone to take care of him.  perplexing.  he's so self absorbed.  

after lunch Francine and Mark were on the puzzle table and Walter left not being the center of attention.  so I went to sunny to pick up my movies and books.  then Sprouts half cherry pie $1.99, calming half price $8.50, immune $2.99, cucumbers 99 cents, $12 organic castor oil.

7 days 1 oz Tate's mini chip cookies

heavy fog.  hasn't been this thick for a long time.  crazy drivers some pockets of fog 5 ft visibility.  

I'm showered, biked, relaxing.  i made it unscathed to seniors.

I already ate the 3 Hirata Mac extra crispy cookies.  so crunchy.  b'fast was pizza with sunflower seeds.

lunch was tiny lasagna.  Toki came in to pick up and straight home.  Salome came in took over.  I shopped college Safeway and got my chips I forgot soup.  I had delicious pizza.  

8 days Jones soda 22 cent recycle deposit.

i feel so relaxed.  i went to 24 hour then walked Lucky's picked up sodas.  it's wet and warm fog today.  

seniors ok.  Toki cancelled taking care of herself.  Fred fun as always.  Walter complaining.  Diana came over so i asked her if she had any pain and he got his.  she put him in his place.  we talked about Albert and Steve father and son.  i made the mistake of saying good morning and was talked at for 20 minutes.  

took me 20 minutes to print tire receipt.  then ink cartridge low.  I told Gabby.  

I picked up my central movies then went to Safeway took an hour trying to load chips.  homestead didn't have low salt BBQ.  clerk finally over rode computer for me.  

9 days beer salt Daily Word Healing-Hiratas xmas-$662 new tires

nurses station major air conditioning.  I used hair dryer.  

I biked and Inge and Su, Den created drama for the kids.  the kids take them so seriously. 

page 31 From a Far and Lovely Country dad refused Auntie Katchan adopting me not because of jealousy but greed, I was money in the bank.  a servant to be bartered.  

12:20 ready to start my day I have a flat tire.  left front.  the bum one.  Manuel CSAA is on his way.  he put air in tire sort of holding but recommended new tires at least 2 front.  

1:20 waiting at America's tires.  no internet.  Saul sold me 4 $55 tire $220 plus sensors and certificates $662.  he wanted to sell me wipers for $23 each.  eh, I have new tires new car.   

I picked up my movies and bought 2 pizzas I cooked to eat today and tomorrow.  I've never been able to eat all I want before.  

i got a Xmas package from the Hiratas Carol and Barbara.  

10 days

The Adventures of Ozzie and Harriet.  I haven't watched in awhile.  

the freebie is Barrilitos 12 oz drink.  

11 days of Christmas

I want pizza and chips.  i don't want the sour candy straws freebie.  

I'm enjoying 7:30 Temptation game and Make Room for Daddy.  I'm feeding my cold and resting.  

and I'm watching horsey movies.  heaven.  My Friend Flicka and Son of Flicka.  

I just remembered celery and tuna salad lunch.  I'm staying home out of the rain and cold taking care of me.  I almost killed myself caring for others no gratitude or help.  now it's my turn to be number one.  

I cancelled the movie expiring today and put in a new request.  i have 'til Monday to pick up the next one.

loaded 2 freebies and picked them up.

free cold brew coffee and truffle.  seniors pleasant except for lunch seating.  the misogynists are a bummer.  I let it go and give it to God.  Fred was late.  Jon added me to #1.  

Jane must have given us COVID.  she said she was sick for 2 weeks.  colds last 5 days tops.  

12 days starts tomorrow

I caught Jane's cold.  she's always going out to eat.  so I taking c and allergy plant.  and I biked my half hour OK.  

I'm consolidating.  I have so many matching shopping bags.   

1:30 not raining i decided gas fill up Costco.  easily done.  home for People Puzzler.

eggs on celery seniors 6:41am

life is simple not easy.  I keep forgetting I have celery.  good with tuna salad, peanut butter.  the calmer I am the easier to think.  

stress is survival focused.  no thinking pure instinct.  stressed people are irrational.  chemicals are targeting threats real or imagined.  

I biked half hour, stretched another half.  helps with stress.  

this is the first year I've needed moisturizer.  I have lots.  

I got a generic after thought card from sister Mitzi mailed 9th 3 days after.

I think I'm OK.  Aileen must have told her to send it.  

I heated the greens mix with fish and cherry goat cheese so delicious.  

I'm listening to new subliminal music to bypass and override the negative logical brain.  

woke at 3

5 hours sleep.  must be enough.  hungry I heated left over senior pasta chicken I added sauce and Parmesan.  OK.  

I misplaced overdue book.  last bag I looked in I found it and stopped looking.

Sprouts had cherry goat cheese I bought 2 $2.99 ea showing great self control.  i love goat cheese so much I considered getting a mini to keep down weeds and make my own goat cheese.  all I need is the milk, duh.  

i went to Sunny returned 5 books.  i passed on Sprouts to watch person, place and thing.   

9 pm I feel energized.

my purpose to make the world a kinder place

I can do this in my part of the world.  I don't have to do anything but be kind to fulfill my purpose.  so simple.  

life is simple not easy.  ego tries to make it difficult.  ego is a necessary communication tool that can interfere in the flow of life by complicating and distorting.  like the head brain doubting the gut brain.  

I love my healing music.  I played on puzzle.  had lunch and extras.  trudy brought me some kettle chips and peanut butter kisses cookies for everyone.  

I came home early.  I went to Sprouts bought 3 edamame 99 ea and lemon salad mix.  I couldn't find my license to deposit banking.  it was hiding.  home I finally got Saturday's mail and my new license.  

Split Second

seven days a week.  tomorrow 5:30-6:30 today was 7:30-9.  

i went to the gym 2:30 and at nob hill I bought a 3 meat pizza. 

I'm feeling threatened

I dreamed of 2 PGE blue service trucks one parked on street the other passes me for no reason.    my evil sisters must be thinking of me.  

I'm watching the Temptation game show.  7:30-9 am channel 2.4.  so many movies and shows to watch today.  Astaire and Rogers and Christmas movies.

I have veg rice from seniors.  and watching Chris Rock Down to Earth 2001.  Jennifer Coolidge is in it.  I requested from county.

I added 20 lbs potassium cubes to the softener.  I have a system.  and I'm covered in garage dust.  oh, well.  plus air pollution inversion layer.

I'm determined I'm going to have the best Christmas ever.  

chrome did it again

 erased everything.  Toki left chips and card front door.

I called Blanca at Anthem for benefits.  The computer couldn't locate me.  took 80 minutes on the phone to finalize benefits with Blanca.  I'm losing OTC.  I'm acting responsibly.

I got water soft delivery.  hooray!  and extra fish lunch.  

and again 5:30 game show

I don't mind waking early when I can watch what I like.  I made tuna mac and added the senior lunch mixed veg.  something to do.  then feeling powered up I went and picked up Inge's recycle $5.  since I was at Danny's I drove to Home Depot and bought potassium softener and cleaner for no charge delivery.

now i'm waiting for Cody's bookmobile.  I borrowed 4 and returned 3.

Life is good and improving.  I'm getting happy.  I folded clothes.  I love clean clothes.

i love my game shows

I'm watching Split Second.  i love learning.   

senior lunch united nations with food.  so good for my digestion to eat with pleasant company.  

I went to lucky wash and it was fast.  home by 2 I took my time hanging laundry.  People Puzzler 2:30.  

oops, I forgot banking.  Bartolo calling the 29th threw me off.

yippee!!

i'm relaxing doing what I want.  puzzle, lunch with Fred and Toki.  nob hill 2:15. 

I bought the wrong pizza.  I wanted 3 meat but picked up pepperoni, dad's favorite.  oh, well.  so easy pop it into oven.  delicious watching People Puzzler.

chrome reset- I'm improving

I don't know if it's the hot spot or a computer bug.  it keeps malfunctioning.  

I'm being more active.  I puzzled and lunched and shopped Lucky's last sale day for Mac nuts.  no unsalted so I only bought 2 onion garlic.  

home by 2:30 for my People Puzzler.  my recycle tower fell when I tripped and almost fell.  I didn't react I just picked it up.  new me.  Walter at lunch was very weird.  depressed and in denial.  I can't be around his energy.  I don't choose to suffer.  he refuses to care for himself, knows it and still complains about it.  like his father and we know the end of that story.  ah, he wants his sister to fill the bill.

PLAYING ALL DAY

Do nothing day.  Watching Barney Miller and Murphy's Romance.  Eating turkey and cooking noodles.  

Happiness takes planning and discipline.