one game at a time

picked up my lunch after checking dollar store.  lunch portions getting smaller.  since it's wed came main to compute.  p c h reception still spotty.  games are slow and i'm ok.  internet is teasing me.  i leave from one page and it starts playing.  so many interesting news items.  sharon stone being molested by granddad explains her choices.  i wasn't surprised.  i was molested by alien molested by neighbor.  and i ended that chain.  

i did my computing slowly.  took long time loading.  got home for 'love boat.'  tomorrow banking, i'm ready paying bills.  i can get gum.  i want to check super safe way for smoke jerky this weekend.  i'm using smokes as incense.  

i'm feeling hopeful.  my back and stomach are pretty good.  as long as i wear brace i can do everything pain free.  i made noodles, asparagus egg omelet for dinner.

listened to free, happiness, healing.  so good.  i feel blessed.

woke very sore

i did somatic stretches.  so easy and all about reconnecting body.  changing body memory.  i stretched out all the kinks and slept 3 more hours.

dollar still no amber mouth w or multi.  picked up lunch and went to college safe way.  kyo po for veg straight to cup library couldn't renew 'secret' so kept it.  waited 'til 1:30 to eat turkey lunch trying to wait 'til home with cranberry.  too hungry.  on to safe way smoke meat search none.  michael's lobster clips.  

home feeling exhausted napped 2 hours.  washed asparagus, baby bok choy, white yam.  opened can soup with raw asparagus delicious. 

i considered and discarded going out to compute.  i'm staying conscious and responsible.

gave toke a mask lanyard

she went to stadium for shots.  said it was easy.  i'll call eventually. 

back to work.  i did a lot of walking yesterday.  took out garbage.  boring.  trying to play my games.  refusing to load.  so... normal.  so i'm playing with screen size and placement, amusing myself. 

o m g!! i have hanna somatics.  i can heal my neck and shoulders.  back in the 80's i went to the Healing Connection breakfast meetings.  Thomas Hanna's one and only graduating class of students presented his material.  he died in a head on car crash leaving a wife and young children.  all the students had been clients he had helped resume their lives mobile and pain free.  they believed so thoroughly they completed his speaking engagements.  

as horrible as my family has been God has always given me the world and what i need.

no idea what i clicked

everything disappeared.  i look in the chrome icon and clicked on chrome and it was all back.  maybe i minimized??  i knew it was somewhere because the you tube was playing sound healing.

ooh it's warming up 78 o.  i'm eating trail mix.  discarding raisins and cashews to the animals.  i get to eat what i like.  

drove to lucky's, maria, G 2, $dollar tree, ross i found over door acrylic hanger $7 like big lots $12 clear organizer $6 car shade $5 glass lotus $9 i've always wanted, senior park, college safe way clearance artichokes chick pot pie, mission lib computing i realized i didn't get monopoly, returned bought beets pasta cranberry/ cherry jam.  home i finally ate shredded chicken with artichokes and beets.  delicious.

i love saving money so i can buy everything i want.

no care more

no vaccines no info.  hospitals like kaiser and sites have it.  oh well, i'll have to call for appointment.   i picked up lunch sat on street.  so stupid want me to walk on side walk not through parking lot unless i'm parked inside.  they were late opening and bitch lied to my face.  did my computing, went to lucky's freebie star bucks, $2 crackers, $3 tiger pop up laundry, $2 m wash.  double points.

drove to cup pick up drop off, safe way zero saw facing for free vermont smoke cured meat snack.  it exists.  ross's window cleaner $5! not $20 p c h.  seat organizer $8 and $7/2 candy.  hurrah! me!  

safeway advertises covid vaccine hasn't any.  home i finished lunch and ate senior pasta salad.  charged chrome and at kiely park computing.  feeling blessed.  

i'm trying to listen to all 5 hours of chemical bliss.  

i considered

going back out and decided my stomach was too iffy to chance it.  i chose to stay close to the bathroom.  i was home 1 pm.  i hemmed all the new scarves with white thread.  i used one entire bobbin and then some.  

i went college safeway to use bathroom and bought 2 clearance salads.  clerks are rebelling changes in monopoly games.  gave me 3 usable tickets.  wow, i just looked at points.  i may be able to redeem 1 water by the end.

i rested.  napped an hour.  laughed 'death at a funeral'.  good day.  sat with myself.  i don't think to do it.  i'm great company.  

today i did laundry.  i love clean clothes.  last night i stripped bed.  i can wash linens tomorrow if i want.  so i'm feeling a tad better than ok.  got rid of garbage.  yesterday i didn't have time.  

my latest you tube is 5 hours of subliminal music.  if it is subliminal.  i don't know.  'happiness frequency serotonin, dopamine, endorphin release music 693 Hz'.  so fascinating the infinite variety by all these different people.  i want to try '9 Hz 99 Hz  999 Hz infinite healing golden wave' looks good.

every day is new

today i feel 50.  i stopped at dollar tree 2 unicorn pens, pads, substitute m wash, 2 pineapple scrunchy's, sale foil.  

back doctor, dentist calling appointments=money.  like my sisters.  later.

i picked up lunch tiny bit of beef just as well making my feet swell.  i'm rhyming.  i cooked asparagus omelet for b'fast.

s v p internet still not responding.  i can log in but it does nothing yet.  hope they get it working.  c s c at main.  so windy the park sycamores being blown to bits.  the main acacias are pretty sturdy.  wind is shaking car. 

i'm feeling very sad.   i'm an expert in depression.  my family legacy.  auntie commented on my positivity.  i work hard on it.  i can't give up.  we are eternal and must deal with everything at some point.  at least i'm an expert at something.

i'm feeling trapped and stressed.  exercise.

robert ohotto, caroline myss.  a good time for spirit to come to the front.  another shooting this time a shopping center.  last week 8 dead.  and colorado wants federal gun control.  easier state controlled.  which means it's just noise,no change.  

i ate salad early.  last night i ate salad too late woke twice from too much water.  

i finally know what i want to do with bandana fabric.  i cut 2 red oversize scarves 1 shawl, 1 black scarf 1 shawl.  win!

washed my hair-aspergersnextgeneration

opened soup added shredded chicken b'fast.  stomach muscle sore i did 50 crunches.  

i washed my hair.  feels so good.  so soft.  i trimmed my nails and i have energy still.  i'm remembering when i'd be wiped out for a month, week, days.  and during that time i'd clear the gutters, patched garage sink, whatever emergency had to be done.  i'd keep re injuring my back protecting nit's interests.

i put out bins pick up 9:30 done by 10 am.

i've healed a lot.  today i feel twenty something.  i stretched minimal popping.  got my lunch fast today.  eyes stinging with allergies.  

s v p is back high jacking.  now it has a check in page but not very reliable.  it's doing weird things typing over print.  cursor disappears.  i don't know where it is.  doesn't update.  automatic connection.  ok i fixed that 

lunch tastes good, weird it smells tomato none to be seen.  turkey alfredo diced loaf has bone chips.  

i went to college safe way 1 mile bought whitman, russle stover valentines sampler $.45 so $.15 each piece.  exactly the same.  exactly.  1:48 chocolate desire.  tygj.  foresight.  and 2 clearance salads for dinner.  wow, sugar makes me stupid.  i tried to word search and got stuck in neutral.  it was instant.

i used to dread

today ex's b'day.  this year i'm fine.  i feel like i turned a page.  i lay in bed doing stretches 'til 10.  i watched sun morn 7-8:30 and went back to bed.  my hips are talking to me.  today's daily word i forgive myself for being human making mistakes.

i made instant mash topped with shredded chicken and instant gravy.  a little rich.  my stomach is talking to me.  

i went to lucky's noticed bottle of 'hemp 2 o' at the cart cleaner.  he said san tomas liquor's $3.10.  i checked website 7/$27.90.  they have the nerve to put 'no shipping.'  $4/bottle.  it's at a bunch of stores.  the passion fruit i wanted.  

s v p high jacked internet.  took me awhile to figure and fix.  i did it.

wind is making my eyes itch.  my butt hurts.  time to pack it in. 

a slow start

so much movement and pain in lower back.  used pillows to stretch and flex.  left arm achy not as bad as '72.

i took my time getting ready.  wore brace to cook b'fast.  first i was going to have senior roast beef sandwich.  drained pickled onion.  then remembered i had burger.  with eggs?  no, quinoa.  balsamic from asparagus, perfect.  all protein.  rebuilding body.  

i watched greatest american hero.  it's me.  dressed went to big lots free hand wipes bought mister clean bath plunger design i always wanted $5.  i walked lucky's didn't want free bread yet if at all.  i walked dollar store for amber m wash none bought anther mask lanyard.  senior park stretched walked.  bee lanyard gone.  no computer came main.  

lovely cool today.  12:45.  62 o.

i'm feeling so much love from my angels.  daily word "inner peace."  internet taking a long time to load.  i'm using the time to search storage in car.  and plan a better arrangement.  3 pages left to car mileage log book.  i like being ahead.  ella complained to me about her gas gauge broke.  i keep a log book just for that reason.  if mileage changes something needs checking.

something wrong yahoo mail not loading.  took hour and half.

tee hee

i took off early to cup.  

i stopped dollar store 2 hair scrunchy w/pineapple charm and $7.77 fun stuff for me.  good will had 2 multi skirt hanger, tie/necklace hanger.  gave bee the mask lanyard.  she set it on the ground.  if it's there tomorrow i get the credit for nothing.  i still haven't gotten amber m wash.  lunch was ok.  main i got bored didn't finish slow internet games.  

went to cup lobby and browsing area open.  safe way i got free water and monopoly cents off.  came home tired.  

tomorrow free french bread lucky's and hand wipes big lots.  

yesterday's italian movie 'loose cannons son announces to his family he's a writer when forced to take over the family business.  he admits he can't say what he feels he can write.  how autistic.  i can't either, i get distracted.   

i'm tired of the pain-tire air check

i'm not calling them back.  comprehensive spine called to make appointment.  i don't want to do anymore for no improvement.  not worth it to me.

maybe i'll go pickup cup holds.  maybe not.  i planned on tomorrow.

i just want to scream and scream.

12:44 pm i'm feeling better after lunch.  it was raining steadily and now is drying out.  i don't feel so trapped and i can walk and stretch.  1:01 and....it's raining again.  oh, well exercise at home..

i just remembered i hit my head on a bar yesterday at main park.  i was wearing my big hat and lost track of equipment placement.

2 pm i called nicholas am tire for air check and went kiely to prune ridge much shorter.  15 minutes lance ea tire evenly 6 lbs low from last month, i was done.  went grocery o for ginger $9/lb not, quinoa bargain 4 lb/$6, 6 oz blueberry .99, rosemary $3.49.  buzzed across street kyo po even cheaper blue and asparagus .69.      

tygj for wins.

i forgot scratch path games.  took so long to load then yahoo emails faded out and i stumbled across games finally loaded.  very slow.

GO SLOWLY.  ENJOY THE JOURNEY.  THE BEST I CAN.

i'm using the time to search for a new car mileage log book.  i know i have at least 2.  found it.  

binge watched

'all creatures' 2020.  so worth it.  felt closer to the truth.  i've never binge watched before.  

i had internet connection and it's gone.  tried moving car.  oh, well.  wed library opens late.  2 minutes to go.  i'm ok with it.  tv has always fulfilled my need for connection and i'm still feeling mellow from being with my 'all creatures' family.

cut my finger opening vitamin plastic.  my spring allergies.  skin is thin and dry.  which means old thin skin is a supplement thing.  chemical balance off.  my nails are growing.  i liked it better when they didn't.  when i was bed ridden my nails and hair stopped growing.  just as well, i couldn't do anything about them.  my focus was minute to minute dealing with excruciating pain.  then i learned my unendurable pain was acid in my lower intestine and sipping non acidic grapefruit juice healed whatever imbalance was caused by my back injury.  oranges, lemons and other citrus fruits are acid.  

i'm pondering going to cup for holds.  i picked up lunch and am at main feeling timeless.  empty lot, still, quiet.  healing playing.  tygj for this experience.

out of vitamin d, fish oil

today i attempt updating sim card.  wish me luck=pray for me.  

and renewing 'secret' cd.  reached my limit.  due.  i don't want to keep it illegally.  i know i could because of covid in fact a librarian suggested it.  but i prefer legal.

takes me time getting used to new.  yesterday 10:54 am confirmation mail trace request.  2:13 pm reply from mission post mistress manjit.  

like the quinoa or amaranth.  taking my time getting used to changing diet.  6 years.  

dollar store.  seniors stretched walked wet sand off shoes.  i'm still full from b'fast.  last night i cooked g-round, sliced red onions, diced potatoes, shredded cabbage, 5 poached egg.  ate 1 and 2 this am. 

screen looks huge.  today i stretched and walked again.  not bad.  back was a little complaining, neck was kinked right side but none the worse for wear.  

feeling sick-nuclear-i get it

i watched 'true detective' this morning felt fine.  i can understand people believing in evil.  not taking responsibility for the nuclear reactors we are.  our bodies fission and fusion all day long.  

came to seniors 10:30 driveway still blocked i was going to get out and move the blocks and thought i'll just wait.  i'm usually the first.  

drove into lot and remembered missing mail.  looked it up and filed.  paid city too.  then i started feeling sick.  it's crowded today.  meatloaf gravy mash greens.  bland my stomach feels ok.  must have been allergies.  paid consumer cellular too.  i looked at online activation i'll do tomorrow.  

today is my lucky day.  

it's so windy too much junk blowing around.  i'll wait 'til later if wind settles i'll stretch.

i almost lost email 'lost mail' confirmation, city payment confirmation, consumer cellular payment confirmation.  i successfully retrieved them from trash.  i wonder if that's when why we screw up to fix it for a dopamine fix.  that's alarming.  page is still jumping.

and an entire highlighted paragraph i wanted to space disappeared.   took awhile to retrieve i did it.  success dopamine.

the slow internet forces me to sit wait think.  and george w with his nucular.  lol.

true detective-dst

oh, yeah i forgot the constant updates attempts if not published.  so it keeps popping up.  i completely ignored daylight saving time.  got up 7 clock time really 8 am.  and heated quinoa and chicken i cooked yesterday.  watched some tv, brushed my teeth.  back to bed at 10.

i forgot matt mc was 'true detective' the reason i borrowed it from library.  i'll check it out.  hey, that's twice.

i watched 'okko's inn' last night twice and loved it like 'igor'.  redemption and forgiveness and thriving.  serious stuff.  

toke left me monopoly Not game pieces

last night i cooked quinoa more protein than eggs.  i made asparagus omelet too.  2 dozen st just eggs lends itself to creativity.  st just olive bread pudding?

on the front porch as i was leaving in a bag.  i'm taking her popcorn.  i guess the reason a small bag and a big one.  i'm to eat the small one. 

i watched meghan, harry, oprah interview repeat last night.  i'm feeling much better.  i didn't cry this time.  to see the same family betrayal from the people who are supposed to love and support you played out on the world stage.  very healing to see the forgiveness, recovery and thriving.  gives me hope i can too.  tygj.  

when games fail loading i just have to go and do something else for awhile.  

i just realized this is the first time in my life i'm not forced to give away my things.  mom always gave my things to nit and alien while dad just stole what he wanted.  like my happy childhood.  on purpose.  

and i know how he ended. 

the games not loading force me to feel unpleasant memories.  'sound healing' at work.  tygj.

i can keep my good.  i dreamed of big, medium and small boxes.  

i accidentally closed tab and successfully reopened it.

feeling my feelings

feelings can be consciously generated with practice.  acting.  i trained myself to suppress my feelings by overlaying fear of punishment whenever i feel anything fear slides in to muddy the emotion.  even love.  i have to change this first by recognizing what i'm doing.

1-recognize

2-acknowledge, respect

3-devise new pattern

4-use

5-practice

i'm learning new things with the computer formatting.  not that i want to but must.  i much more comfortable doing the same old things and using my energy for fun.  that's why people resist change.  same as my phone.  lol.  technology is conspiring to improve me.  forcing me to evolve.

and lack of home internet is forcing me outdoors in front of the library where i have a signal.  would i voluntarily go outside otherwise, no.  

and i decided against dark chocolate raspberry candies too sticky for blood and teeth.  delicious and unhealthy.

i saw grace and maria at dollar together

what a miracle.  i heard grace from across store at check out.  i needed brake fluid got in line.  then i heard maria calling to grace.  they invited me to go with them in maria's rented car on vacation to san fran.  i have other things on my mind to feel comfortable doing that.  sim card came.  exercise, pick up lunch.   rib lets reconstituted pressed hamburger.  good sauce sweet spicy.

what a red letter day.  cathy left v mail 4:47 yesterday i returned after trying to determine which one online zero.  i called 3 missed calls.  hers had her message.  other 2 #s i don't know.  she called while i was driving to main.  we talked 20 minutes.  i parked main and remembered st just.  asian nancy was so kind trading out fruit for veg and chris white woman at st just checked me in.  tygj.

1:30 already.

i almost forgot.  i went to mitsuwa after main and bought 4 manju, tiny kimpira, gobo fish cakes.  (i made noodles sliced asparagus with sesame seeds oil.  so good.)  went to walmart to look for online sale morey fish not stocked, paid pge, bought pineapple sage plant 3.47.  stopped at kiely park to stretch and tried internet reception.  screen went black frozen.  went home, charged, tried shut down again worked.  no pages no connection but i didn't break it hurrah!!

dark chocolate jelly candy

full of artificial junk.  oh, well.  i'll have to find the same thing natural.  i have gelatin.  i lack raspberry jelly.  easy solution.

i woke 5:30 dozed dreaming 'til 8.  heated chili corn bread b'fast.  yum.  lay in bed with dvd cabot cove.  some bits won't play.  9:30 showered, washed hair.  slow and measured.  lay in bed a few minutes drying off.  my hair was going lovely grey and due to nutrients is darkening.  drat.  

10:30 off to senior park beautiful sunny after last night t storms.  walked, stretched, careful to walk off wet sand and saw kelly wright.  talked for a bit.  she mostly interested in old gang.  and wondering if we'll ever get back.  i told her my routine.  people always know where i am if they want to see me.  responsible old faithful.  i like me.

sat in lot computing and dark clouding over so i drove main big steady rain, parked my favorite spot amid infection testing crowd and little hail drops.  lovely cold.  stopped.   

got my first robot call on new envoy.

don't know what i'm doing

i think i texted b b t but i don't know.  how will they know who i am?  i entered sweepstakes.  i think.  people do things, get in a rut and assume they know what they're doing but i don't think so.  i think they're just habituated.  feels comfortable and known.  

screens are huge.  i don't know how it reset itself.  it just does from day to day.  always a surprise.  i give it 10 sec to load and move to another page.  then e mail page is tiny.

picked up lunch no internet so i came to main.  i just noticed car radio has text type buttons.  on the radio!!  3 years i've had this car.  i don't know.  

i considered going to cup lib i still may.  after i compute, do my games, enter my sweeps.  i also remembered st just.  sometime this week.  maybe tomorrow.  i don't know.

i went to library after calling to renew secret.  lobby reopened.  they require hand sanitizer before retrieving holds.  as i stood there waving my hands to dry the liquid i realized i was like an autistic child flapping my hands.  so as i was leaving i mentioned to a librarian it's making us all autistic.

then on to safe way walked store resisted sweets.  bought my 4 pasta 4 tickets 1 free water.  home i cooked pasta added to asparagus cheese.  watched love boat.  added sliced olives.  so good.  

i fell asleep for an hour missed classic concentration.  i can catch the rerun at 8.  

did my 15

stretched, walked vigorously.  less popping cracking i'm taking as a good sign my back is improving.  

100% screen size is huge.  the computer is resetting itself.  must be weather.  tv reception is weird too.  lost some gained some channels.  

monopoly ticket is not all items.  only designated.  oh, well.  i may not play.  besides only online data.  way more work for nothing.  

i wanted to try truffles dressing.  could be another hoax like caviar.  i don't know where pasta coupon went so i got another on the way out.  at least i remembered.  dressing might be good on pasta.  ingredients are ok.  too vinegary.  maybe monk fruit sweetener will improve the taste.  

i'm not feeling much better.  but considering i wasn't allowed to feel anything at all i'm a step ahead.  

i had raw asparagus b'fast all i wanted.  lunch teriyaki baby chicken thigh ok.  i'm drinking all the free the waters.

i want a chauffeur.  wow i spelled it correctly.  spell check was better when corrections were shown.  now, it tells you wrong and no suggestions.  wonder why they changed it?

'i need not worry what to say or do..he who sent me directs me.'  course in miracles pg 24 text.

almost forgot to look at pictures

in greenlights.  m mc is a born storyteller.  he's very clear life is a story.  i'm blessed.  silent unity replied 5:36 pm.  t y g j.  and s u.  they have my back.

i watched judgment - ashleigh banfield regarding dalia dippolito.  she sat smiling as her husband was cross examined totally enjoying his pain recounting her denial and betrayal.  murderers.  her mother too.  liars, soul killers.  nit and alien.  i get it now.  i couldn't believe my sisters could be so animal but why not.  no motivation to be otherwise.

my right temple still sore.  i massaged it but it still hurts.

internet is doing weird things.  i keep having to reduce the size.  beside the hiccups it keeps jumping.  and multiplying pages.  

finally remembered to return the dvds.  i almost forgot m mc pictures i wanted to check out.  i'm so used to books w/o pictures.  i read greenlights 3 times.  he tells a good story.  

and i remembered college safe way may have clearance left i want.  

new configuration on chrome too.  maybe what's affecting internet.  could be unstable weather.  they keep predicting rain.

i watched oprah's interview with meghan and harry.  it was hard for me to see they suffered the same family betrayal.  when it's blood it wounds viscerally.  the enemy strikes from within ripping you to shreds.  and my sisters continue.  i was raised with wolves.  presenting a pleasing appearance just don't expect kindness.  and don't turn your back.  dealing with pain and self protection.  makes me want to die too.  it hurts so bad.  this admission would only make my sisters laugh.  they treat me the way our parents treated me.  it wasn't until mom and dad got old mom and dad understood.

i need to be cuddled and coddled.  i can do that.  it's what i do for others.  

i've been the indian

in my family.  i don't know how they go on.  maybe because they're not alone.  i just know i can't manage any more abuse.  i may go berserk.  ok i feel calmer and after i stretch i'll feel better.  i'm still waiting for my token games to load.  if it wasn't for my love of playing i'd be a lump going nowhere doing nothing.  i watched 'kajillionaire'.  a strange movie i identified with on a spiritual level.  i had to go to wikipedia to find out the plot.  i guess in their limited odd way they loved her.

listening to stress free is healing.  i woke at 4:30 dream of a big benign gray rat.  maybe i should watch 'ben'.

for breakfast i had 6-7 raw asparagus.  all i wanted.  

consumer cellular suveen programmed my link 2  phone.  15 minute hold.  she tried programming envoy 248 but the card is too old so she's sending a modern 3 part card.  3-5 days.  i can use the old one 'til it quits.

ominous, i checked mail preview something from gov.  i have to get back early enough to rest my back for sleeping.  not in today's.

monopoly; when all else fails read the directions.  i got 3 tokens.  

stretched and home for pork, mash, asparagus.  cooked lucky's beans in bag.  young tender.  

watching 'danny says' danny fields knew so many celebrities.  he stayed humble and honest with himself loving music above all else.  stars love with passion music, art, movies.  they project their love to be received by the masses.  that connection creates an energy feed becoming 'popular'.   some celebrities search for that feeling in drugs, sex, rock and roll.  some like monkeys with orgasm brain implants kill themselves.  janice joplin, jim morrisey, etc.  others accept the reality that feelings are meant to travel like sine waves with peaks and troughs.  buddhism seeks a middle path.  no peaks or troughs.  peace.  equanimity.

the autistic take a lifetime to connect those parts of the brain.  like me.  we have a different perception of life just as real one step removed.  

big difference. march is stress

well, i won't be able to play monopoly.  not just online anyway.  i don't know how.  and i don't care to learn.

makes my life simpler.  watched national velvet.  better than i remembered but then the last time i was a child.  

this planet is so wrapped up in false images.  makes the honesty and love more precious, rare.  the american indians have suffered so much.  makes my life look like a piece of cake.  six discs of pain and torture.  

dad and ex.  i don't know the basis for their lies.  people prefer liars.  makes them feel superior.  i just feel sad.  

and when i got home the phone was on the porch.  i called to activate the robot said connected but doesn't work half hour wait time.  i'll call tomorrow.  i'm feeling desperate.  illogical emotions.  new phone has apps.  downloading apps gives them access to everything on your phone.  

cyborg-bbt

wof-taking bold action

scary

i'm having a partly happy childhood.  i still have responsibilities.  children should just have fun.  school was fun for me especially compared to home.  no one hit or bullied me.  course, i was tough having to put up with the abuse at home.  i didn't have to in school.  i could hit back.  no one would abuse me.  school was heaven.

good internet so far today.  i looked online for niece and nephews.  doing ok.  better than me.  tygj.  i feel better.  i worried so much about them.  

and now i know why face book is so popular.  he posts what he wants people to believe is true.  actors creating a wished for life.  if enough people believe psychic electrical energy can bring it into material form.  

scientists study psychic energy using rocks and sticks,  the instruments are too gross to measure psychic energy.   

watching 'national velvet' she has smile braces.  a movie about dreaming big.  healing old hurts.  

2:30 am i woke saying good by.

i was sitting in josie r's den my new phone rang and jenny z called to catch up.  she knew josie.  so it was alien in reality.  

my stomach upset and muscle sore.  g c does the trick.  i wonder from fajita and beans?

i remembered to get costco gas.  $3.30/gal.  highest it's been.  i wonder because gas is being obsolete with electric cars.  like phones planned obsolescence.  i'm so tired of the tricks and money games.  at my age i generally see them coming.

i wanted to go monopoly but too tired of sitting.  came home changed water filter, cooked pork with pickled onions, made asparagus sesame, cheese.  watered porch plants.  lay down totally relaxed my back.  upper back sore.  cooked rice with baby veg.  

i watched 'last days of planet earth.'  low budget space bug movie.  and 'love boat'.

my body is tingling.  napped half hour.  feeling ok.

bbt-wonder woman

wof-out of fashion

after sleeping to 'good omens'

i woke to casting out demons of the past.  and i feel sad to have suffered as a child.  and empty and alone.  i've never felt empty before.  bruised, lighter, free.  so new.  so uncomfortable.

my red phone died after 17 years.  my black one works great.  i looked online not made.  obsolete.  i have the free red con cell sent me.   oh, well maybe.  i'll research.  

eye sent me bill for $84 again.  i called on black phone bill was mistake.  

picked up lunch walked, stretched, computed.  veg is beans and bell peppers so i'll wait and have asparagus and lettuce at home.  guy had to wake me from my computing mourning.  scratch more responsive today.  spoke too soon.

i'm feeling better.  looked online for sim remove install.  

home feeling weird i tried to switch sim cards.  i don't know how to do it.  i want to run away.  the impending family condemnation hanging over me.  i used card in envoy and called con cell 2:07 and asked jennifer how to use sim card.  only covers phone number and account.  she transferred me to tech support @ retrieving phone numbers and no luck.  ruben said next generation in a few months 4-5 g.  so i bought red 'link 2' 4th generation $30+tax=$32.70  4-8 days.  then i have to update sim cards.  i have old dinosaur cards.  maybe i'll wait to get new batteries.

i know how diabetics are made.  i ate lunch 3 pm.  i added tortilla, asparagus ate half.  diabetics skip meals and throw sugar chemistry out of balance stressing organs.  i wasn't hungry but felt light.  they wait until starving and gorge.  

i'm doing ok.  i went to lucky's last day 97 cent asparagus, clearance pork ribs, 3 pasta.  i can't believe i ate all the monopoly pasta.  and i added cheese and amino to left over lunch.  delicious.  washed asparagus into glass bowl with plastic bag green house.  will keep a week.   

sitting in chase parking

new month snuck up on me.  garbage pick up 10 am.  brought in bin.  i picked up lunch.  stretched and walked.  mailed life and aunt card and while i did lobby banking chrome connected.  tygj.  so now i know.  in a pinch i can try there.  just across the street there's definitely no reception at the park.  

don't know why coca cola is so good.  i'm treating myself.  new daily word calendar on dashboard logical location is new.  no searching for it.  

i was so tired waking up falling asleep.  

sitting at main eating korean beef bulgogi.  needs sesame seeds.  beef part is good i could do without the fat and gristle.  basically thick savory teriyaki.  

my body is aching in waves traveling.  my hands, knees then my back.  all over tour.  and i have funny tickle twitches right temple, my left nose.  sound healing you tube.

i want more asparagus.  keeps very well washed and set in mug with plastic bag green house.  

ok. i'm debating deposit today or tomorrow.  and procrastinating.  digesting lunch.  today is better i guess.  i'm just feeling so tired.  and i'm not worrying worries me.  it's so new for me not to obsess for days about banking and paying bills.  family tradition.  whew!!  a big load off my back.  no wonder my body is reacting.  

pch back to malfunctioning.

i went to lucky's walked store bought asparagus.  deposit c u and home.  watched the end of 'jason and the argonauts' 2004 and 'love boat.'  soaked asparagus.  remembered i had senior sandwich toasted added cheese pickled onions lettuce.  ate almonds and chips.  watched 'mike and molly'.