lasagna b'fast

I'm feeling happy.  my back is screaming and I'm OK with it.  I'm lying in a warm cozy.  

back to work 

near sight not subject to size only distance

I find that interesting.  autism makes life interesting.  Inge offered note pads and pens I took 2.  

a sneezy day.  pollen moderate somewhere.  

I don't know what I'm feeling emotionally.  I'm feeling scattered.  an internal wind storm.  

I went to Savers after lunch and the library.  the new boxed air fryer senior discount $17.49, new red roller $4.20, facial cloths $1.40.  Grocery Outlet I bought lasagna $4.99 and salad $1.49.  so good.   

Pay Citibank by tomorrow-PAID

I'm using DST to advantage.  new behavior.  I usually just feel resentment to change.  typical autism reaction.  I'm relaxing into today.  I'm deep breathing into my feelings.  calming my stomach.  

Until I was 4 and we came from Hawaii to the mainland I was loved.  while arriving at night I saw the landing lights and thought I was in Fairyland.  the next morning was cold drab and loveless.  

DST+1

I changed my clocks.   I thought about laundry and decided to rest.  the smoked corned beef, potato, soda bread was so delicious.  I retrieved the butter from the car.  

ooh, bananas.  calming food.  3 in car.  

I'm feeling so much inner conflict turmoil.  this is what addicts cover up just prolonging the pain.  

1) I am willing to change my thinking.

2) changing my thoughts changes my chemistry.  

3) my chemistry forms my feelings.  

4) my feelings=emotions =energy in motion constructs my experience.  

TCMe-I paid Prop Tax listening to Louise

I'm resting for St Justin's  St Patrick dinner courtesy of Lita Cairel.  I don't know if I like it.  I feel inner resistance.  I don't know.  doesn't feel authentic.  not my resistance.  just stored in my gut.

I'm practicing attentiveness.  

I feel resentful of the years I spent attending to a family that never appreciated me.  this is all coming out of my tissues.  I can feel it in my gut.  

I've been truly blessed.  Lita shared her beautiful, caring and supportive family with me.  they included me in everything, made me feel so welcome.  my family in Hawaii is here.  the family my parents denied me by moving here.  

chrome froze

the battery had to run down to shut off.  only took me half hour to restore pages.  I still got stressed and blamed myself.  

lovely days.  library coughing man probably making everyone sick.  

Mirreck gave me a dozen grapefruit from his tree.  I'm feeling guilty.  bad family induced habit.  delicious after left over lunch for dinner.  

I'm having fun no time to blog

seniors 8 am, lunch, Fred and Walter, 4 extra pcs fish.  woo hoo!  I rested at central playing in the copy room listening to healing puzzling.