found Sunny way in back of trunk. 89/55 hot spot return

probably where PERS DD papers are.  

I did a lot yesterday I'm OK-Benna Savers v mail found my key

I heated rice, peas meatloaf.  I'm blessed.  eating triggers my back.  huh.

I was feeling a little off balanced, I'm feeling grounded.  I'm remembering Joe Special.  hamburger onions spinach eggs.  so good.  

I'm reading Louise while listening to you tube.  so many good books.  she works with great writers.  

6:10 and I'm ready.  a little gentle exercise.  

lunch with Trudy Kenny, Fred, Toke, Walter extra potatoes mixed veg.  

feeling calmly excited

seniors was good Fred, Walter.  I soaked and stretched 8 am.  I finished puzzle started new.  lunch tasty sesame fish extra rice.  I went library an hour.  then Savers I dropped the car key green stretchy.  oh, well I walked entire store twice.  I have other keys.  I left my name and phone number.  

I walked Grocery Outlet for Inge looking 87 years frail.  

home 3:30 I called Anthony 3:55 pm re dump trash in 3 bins.  I took out recycle and put 2 bins under cover.  third bin under tree too heavy I put umbrella to cover.  recycle pick up Thursday said no wood.  I called Anthony again 4:14.  he called back 4:34 pm saying they'd handle.  I suggested tomorrow getting dark.  he promised clean up before leaving on vacation.  front stabilizing 2X4 unpainted.  needs painting.  

using magnet I picked up over a dozen driveway nails.  

Let go Let God-Anthony 9:30 arrival

$2543.75 total dad rebuild.  took a lot longer.  'til 5 pm.  OK job.  Discover denied security reason so I called to verify Jennifer said resubmit fine.  

came home 12:30 guys still working I went to library returned chrome no longer holds.  puzzled 'til 3:30 still painting.  raley's meatloaf $5 and eggs $2.50, hazelnuts $4.49, peas $1.79 I used $5 coupon.  

Dr Wehle didn't follow through on insurance so no $535 cleaning visit.  time for new dentist.

I want truly helpful people.  no ambush or sabotage.  

fear of the unknown today-Anthony Dela Cruz 909-313-6422/650-477-3562

in the pit of my stomach, shoulders and chest.  I was never allowed to feel anything.  family judged and criticized me, adding to my discomfort and pain.  I don't know what love and support feels like.  I'm feeling afraid of new feelings.  new feelings create new experiences.  

somehow the format changed and chrome took over.  I'm sitting with my feelings.  

I looked up Rhonda Richards CPA helped me in 2002 for tax year 2001 when Aiko ambushed me with estate taxes to cover her embezzling.  I'm looking through the return.  I'm assembling this year's return.

Rhonda took excellent care of me drafting the letters and printing forms so all I had to do was sign forms and checks, mail envelopes.  I was barely alive.  I felt I was dying.  at that point sitting in a chair was causing my spine to compress literally killing me.  

I folded laundry trying on 2 dresses.  perfect.  the 4 pocket zip hoodie had a hole I wove.  

I put out the garbage bin.  I'm inspired.  trunk organizing.  

Anthony and Damien Campos 3:30 pm $175 cleaning.  Damien does some repairs.  tomorrow 'day' off estimate $2 K on dad's front hang.  parts and materials.  for fixing 3 bracket repair flashing fix $350= 3.5% $543.38 total today.  I gave them bottled water.  

pocket full of miracles

I fell asleep after a repeat celebrity wheel 8-9 pm.  I woke at 3 and song was playing in my head.  contradicting Walter's gloom and doom.  and I hadn't connected charger to chrome or hot spot.  

4:30-8:30 slept and woke up pondering whether to go to seniors or St Just.  the pro was I've been finding goodies and need for water massage exercise.  so I went and found over 45 NEW pcs earrings, pendants, rings, necklaces, and a bracelet of pearls semiprecious gold over silver in little plastic bags.  WOW!  I thought of Sunshine.

St Just at 10:30 short line and Sandy weekend bag.  puzzle 

Anthony Dela Cruz /Bayline Solutions Inc estimate gutter clean $175+ 3% $5.75 for Discover.  tomorrow Sunday 1/25 2-3 pm.  I asked about carpentry repair dad's add on.  

chrome due today

what to do?  I can act average keeping it or return it.  

having done laundry I'm feeling bold.  my back is a little sore.  and I love, love, love clean clothes.  probably a function of autism fresh clean clothes feel good.  so much of life feels uncomfortable.  I was worried about weakening as long as I pace myself I'm OK.  

foggy 100% humid.