I prefer naked strawberries

even green they taste very fresh.  

I went to seniors talked at length with Amber going through similar divorce but with 2 girls.  I shared my stored energy 

processing smog reg-remembered gas forgot phone 1

I have my Spare phone charged.  

1,004,104,886 PCH tokens.  no more free games.  

2 pm home remembered rummage sale 'til 5 decided tomorrow 9-5.  unless after school.  no parking now.  I'm having fun relaxing.  most fun in my life.  

Tex chicken stew lunch Walter and I extra.  and I remembered mug cake 3 T mix to 2 T water 2 minutes micro.  lemon cake like pudding with my fresh strawberries.  I am a Genius.  I put extra mix in glass bottle for easy access.  I'll have another.  

Sleep

I think it's when we return to Spirit.  

I think I'm finally getting through to Walter.  he went off with Gloria after lunch.  Fun Fun Silly Willy.  Fred, Trudy, Kenny, Gloria, Toki, Walter.  my fun family.  Paula gave us Boston cream pie.  I love parties.  

I'm thinking of Eric and his dad Frank.  such tragedy.  I can't understand people making trouble unless they just have it too good.  they don't know trouble.  Eric's death day 6/13 mom's 5/13.  

Frank's murder Thursday March 12, 1998.  the trial is online.  horrifying.  Eric was a witness and endured the trial.  Adan Hernandez killed more than Frank.  reading his history it was only a matter of time before he killed someone.  public record.  

I'd never read it before.  I had only heard general details from the family.  no mention of Eric riding in the ambulance as Frank died.  

so the engagement party was Wednesday night.  from joy to.......

I decided to look for 2 piece windshield at O'Reily  $20 r/t $8 at Ross.  I bless and release.  next door India 3 lbs almonds $16 tomatoes $2.49.  Smart Final strawberries $2.49 small avocados 2/$1.  

I read Canterville Ghost on Gutenberg.org.  

traditional Earth day

I actually feel good this morning.   watching BBC "ghosts".  my family.  ninnies begging for constant attention.  no wonder I was always feeling exhausted.  I was the only adult even at 8.  

BBC 2019 feels fresh.  so many good British ghost comedies.  "Canterville Ghost", "Ghost & Mrs. Muir", "Blithe Spirit".  "Topper".  "I Married a Witch".  "High Spirits".

CSAA Sean Koy sent my case to litigation.  he's sending me info by mail.  thank you.  they've been patient and kind.  

I puzzled seniors before and after lunch w/Trudy, Ken, Fred, Toki, Walter.  2:30 Savers walkabout 3 bags nylon suede yarn $8+.  Gro O coconut water $1.99, new frozen dinner $2.99, peas $1.29.  most excellent.  

I am willing to follow spirit-Paid Disc, PGE

sleep is a miracle.  scientists know nothing of how we sleep.  

I am at peace.  I love to sleep.  

I let go.  

I called S Kohlwaies has referred to legal dept.  didn't respond to my v mail.  he sent to litigation dept.

Walter gave me 2 poly lace curtains.  I walked Walmart paid PGE.  

I walked Savers found shampoo $6 and $13 dress to exchange for shorts and bath suit.  so much fun walking and looking.  Grocery Out 2 goat cheese frozen combo, amino $4, lavender 4 inch $5.  

Sean 719-534-4903 litigation specialist in Co.  missed his call message to mail to me any info.  

Louise is my S Hero--->1,003,559,886 PCH tokens-PAID DISC-new OTC

her example gives me courage.  I went to bed early and I woke early.  I listen to her on You tube.  she's healing my heart.  

she passed 8/30/2017 the same year as Eric 6/13.  

I think it was Isaac Asimov who chose to write at 3 am when the world was the quietest.  I feel at peace.  

on Friday Walter asked about my anxiety then kept interrupting me.   we were like an Abbot Costello act Who's on First.  

Tommy Walker Meyer 1947 Oh-1994 Ca.  47 yrs old.  

Walter dug up baby lavender so they'll live.  

dreamed of drama phone call from Mit

so depressing.  my pain over everything.  I divorced X because I knew he'd die like his dad.  I couldn't stay around.  I wouldn't torture myself. 

the court and scam elder abuse is pain from my sisters embezzling mom's estate, threats of eviction, physical violence.  I didn't want them prosecuted.  I didn't want them in jail.  I had to retain Susan M Kanclier $5K.  worth every penny.  

mitzi's boys came to me for college money when the sisters had all the estate cash.  ludicrous.  I worked part time school part time took me 6 1/2 years they made fun saying I'd never graduate after X quit working.  well, I did graduate.  the only one.  never even a card or phone congratulations no acknowledgement whatsoever.   

I could be angry but too ludicrous.  a waste of time and energy.  

Karen Kuek is bringing all the pain back.  all the humiliation and abuse.  listening to Louise my wounded child is healing.  "my heart is unfurling".  my stomach is relaxing.  

I returned Alice and picked up Cup Ghosts BBC original series.  I'd seen info online.  then I remembered and checked Target elastic found at Michael's $6, Ross no windshield cover, Safeway frozen crispy chicken $7 got cash back.  all in 2 hours.