END OF THE OLD

TOMORROW BEGINS A NEW MONTH.  NEW TREASURES.

I GOT BACK

WHAT GOOGLE TOOK AWAY, HURRAY!  AFTER TRYING TO GET BACK TO MY SETTINGS I'VE MANAGED TO RETRIEVE MY SEPARATE BLOG.  I HAVE A TOFU SALAD FROM SECOND SERVING.

I ONLY HAD ONE DVD WITH ME AND FOOL SET THE THERMOSTAT 79 DEGREES OPENED WINDOWS AND IT'S NOT MY JOB SO I'M WAITING TO SEE HOW LONG IT TAKES FOR THE COMPUTERS TO COOK.

MY JOB IS TO CREATE MY HAPPINESS.  THE RINGS I BOUGHT FOR $2 ST J SATURDAY SILVER W/AMBER AND TURQUOISE.  I CHECKED MY 12 DVDS FROM CITY.  MISSION HAS NEW ONES.  I'M MAXED.

IFFY STOMACH

IT MAY BE THE SENIOR LUNCH.  I'M SITTING IN THE LOT 82 o. 

WHAT A GOOD DAY

IT WAS HOT AND I WENT TO CUPERTINO LIBRARY.  I CHOSE A GOOD SHADY SPOT FOR THE CAR.  I RESTED.  THE ONLY THING MISSING WAS THE ABILITY TO WATCH DVDS.  I'M FASTING.

I EXERCISED AND SWAM.  WENT TO $UNNYVALE FOR NEWSPAPER, CHIPS AND JUICE.  JUICE FAST.  I'M FEELING OK.

I REMEMBERED LUCKY'S 2 X POINTS AND WANTED TO GO TO LUCKY'S.  GONE A 99 SUPERMARKET NOW.  IT WAS NICE REMEMBERING WHEN I LIVED ON VIA VICO. 

I WENT TO BURGER KING FOR CHICKEN NUGGETS AND LUCKY'S LAWRENCE AND BOUGHT PEACH PIE FOR DINNER.

HEAVEN SO FAR.

on fire

MY TAILBONE AND HIPS FEET.  MY STOMACH IS STILL IFFY.  I ATE MY CHEERIOS OK.  SO FAR NOT TOO MUCH NAUSEA.  MY STOMACH MUSCLES STILL SPASMING.  KAVA SHOULD FIX THAT.

OWWY

MY BACK AND STOMACH ARE STILL IFFY.  I'M A LITTLE WEAK BUT OK.  EH, I'VE BEEN BETTER, I STILL HAVE THAT METALLIC TASTE IN MY MOUTH.

I WENT TO SENIORS A LITTLE SHAKY.  RAYMOND SHOWED UP FOR LUNCH AND RAVI.  I CAREFULLY SWAM AND WATCHED MOVIE ON COMPUTER. 

I COULDN'T EAT LEFT OVER NOODLES FROM LUNCH.  WAY TOO GREASY.  OH, WELL.  I HAD AN APPLE AND NECTARINE RAVI BOUGHT AT KAISER FARMERS MARKET. 

MY STOMACH STILL IFFY.

CANCELLED SENIORS

I'M SICK AGAIN.  MY BACK HURTS MY UPSET STOMACH.  I'M SIPPING GRAPEFRUIT AND NIBBLING CHEERIO O'S TRYING TO CALM MY BACK SPASMS.

PUTTING ON THE BRACE HELPS.  ASPIRIN=WHITE WILLOW, KAVA, PASSIONFLOWER HELPS.  I SLEPT MOST OF THE DAY.  NOT MY IDEA OF LIVING.  REMINDS ME WHEN I CLEANED GUTTERS AND CHOPPED WEEDS I'D GET SICK.

AT LEAST I HAVE DVD TO WATCH.

TYGJ.

one foot

AS VICTOR MELDREW WOULD SAY, I DON'T BELIEVE IT.  RATHER THAN SAY I DON'T KNOW PEOPLE MAKE UP OUTLANDISH THINGS.  IS IT AN ATTEMPT AT CREATIVITY OR A HISTORY OF LYING?

DAS TELLS FRED JACK HASN'T BEEN FOR MONTHS WHEN I'VE SEE DAS TALKING TO JACK AND SON LAST WEEK.

I DON'T FEEL LIKE PUZZLING.  THAT COMPULSION IS GONE.

I SIT HERE RADIATING LOVE AND PEACE.  WHAT THE WORLD NEEDS.

93os OUTSIDE AT 5 P M.

UGH

ROSE SHOWED UP FOR LUNCH AND MONOLOGUED ON HER STEP SON.  HE NOW HAS A RIGHT TO ONE OF HER HOUSES HIS DAD OWNED AND SHE'S TRYING TO KEEP IT.  SHE HAS A COMPLAINT FOR EVERYTHING.  SHE ONLY HAD AN INTEREST IN IT FOR AS LONG AS SHE LIVED THERE WHICH SHE DOESN'T NOW.  SHE DISSES AND IGNORES ART AND I.  JUST AS WELL.

AGAIN TODAY DOOM AND GLOOM.  I BROWSED MY PAPER.  JOHN AND BRIAN BROUGHT 3 OF 5 LEFT OVER MC PIES FROM WEEKEND COMPANY.  I WANTED THE LAST PIECE OF LEMON MERINGUE HARRY INSISTED I TAKE THE TIN I TOOK A BOX TOO.  SUMI MADE CORUM LIKE VERY LITE CORN BREAD SOUFFLE SLIGHTLY SPICY HOT.  I ASKED FOR 2 PIECES SO GOOD. 

I WANTED TO SHARE THE PIE WITH GERDA AND ART BUT ELSIE AND ROSE SHOWED UP SO THERE WASN'T ENOUGH.  I'M HAVING IT WITH DINNER.

VERY GOOD

I'M ADJUSTING.  I DROVE THROUGH 3 GREEN LIGHTS.  MADE IT IN 7 MINUTES 2 TO SPARE.  I FINISHED THE PUZZLE AND LOVE THE CLEANING CREW RE ARRANGEMENT OF THE FURNITURE.  IN THE POWER SPOT.

WELLLL...

AS ALEC WOULD SAY.  INTERESTING DAY.  STILL LESS TRAFFIC IN SUNNYVALE.  I DID MY ROUTINE.  BEING AUTISTIC HAS THE ADVANTAGE OF LOVING ROUTINE.  WHAT OTHERS CONSIDER BORING I FIND SAFE AND COMFORTABLE.  SO MUCH TRAUMA AND DRAMA ARE CREATED TO AVOID ROUTINE.  I LOVE BORING. 

I DID BACK DVD THIS A M AND HAD TO NAP 2 1/2 HOURS BY 2;30.  MY RIGHT EYE IS WEAK.  THE SLIGHT IRRITATION I'VE EXPERIENCED HAS BEEN DUE TO MY ASTIGMATISM.  I ALWAYS THOUGHT I WAS GETTING AN INFECTION BECAUSE I'D START RUBBING MY EYE.  IT WAS THE ASTIGMATISM. 

I HAVE CELERY AND ICEBERG LETTUCE.  THE CABBAGE PLANT LOOKS LIKE BROCCOLINI.  IT'S DELICIOUS.  AND I WANT SOME PEAS.  READING AARP FROZEN FRUITS AND VEGGIES ARE PICKED AND PROCESSED WHEN RIPE UNLIKE FRESH THAT SPENDS TIME BEING TRANSPORTED ARE PICKED GREEN.

QUITE CONTENT

I FOUND BACK SHAPE UP DVD AT MISSION LIBRARY.  IT USES HANNA TECHNIQUES.

I VISITED TARGET, JERKY $2.99 FOR LUNCH SINCE I FORGOT TO PACK ANYTHING AND 3 $TREE CELERY, LIGHTERS, RINSE, STICKERS, CHIPS.  I REDEEMED FREE CVS ROCKY ROAD ICE CREAM.  3 SCOOPS FOR APPETIZER.  FINISHED QUINOA WITH SOME KRAB AND 3 MORE SCOOPS.

VERY FULL DAY.  I'M GETTING RID OF FREEZER ONE BAG AT A TIME.  SO UNLIKE ME.  I'M NOT OBSESSING COMPULSIVE.

I WATCHED KID WHO WOULD BE KING.  DID POORLY IN THEATERS BUT MUCH BETTER THAN I THOUGHT.  DESTINED TO BE CLASSIC.  SECOND GENERATION BRITISH CHILD ACTORS WAY BETTER THAN I EXPECTED.  RETELLING KNIGHTS OF THE ROUND TABLE IS A TIRED TOPIC BUT IT WAS SURPRISINGLY GOOD.  NOT GREAT BUT GOOD.

A BAG AT A TIME

I'M PRACTICING MODERATION.  I NO LONGER RESENT WAKING EARLY I ENJOY IT.  I THREW OUT THE MELTED ICE CREAM.  I'M GIVING MY LIFE AND ALL I OWN TO GOD.  I HAVE THE COUPON FOR FREE ICE CREAM FROM CVS AND I'M KEEPING IT.  I CONTEMPLATED GIVING IT TO THE LADIES. 

TECHNOLOGY

DESPITE THE VIOLENCE THIS WORLD IS PRETTY GOOD.  I CAN SHOP EVERY DAY.  I LIKE SHOPPING LOOKING AROUND EXPLORING.  I CAN WATCH DVDS AND STILL TRAVEL WHEN I'M TIRED.

MARK HOGANCAMP

HE CREATED HIS OWN WORLD TO HEAL HIMSELF.  WHEN THE WORLD FAILED HIM.  I CAN DO THAT.  I'VE BEEN DOING THAT.

TODAY I GOT GAS AT COSTCO.  EASY PEASY.

I WANT TO RECYCLE TOMORROW.  AND I HAVE TO GET STRAIGHT ABOUT MY FAMILY CHRONIC DEPRESSION WITH DR CHUNG.  I'VE ONLY BEEN KIDDING MYSELF.

I TOOK AND SHARED CHERRIES.  A LITTLE TREAT EVERY DAY IS NICE.

HAVING ACCESS TO THE INTERNET IS WONDERFUL.  I CAN FIND INFO ABOUT EVERYTHING.  THIS IS AMAZING.  I HUNG OUT AT SENIORS READING MACDONALD ONLINE 'TIL 5:30 DROVE TO TAJ FOR APPLES AND SUPER LOTTO.

I HAVE HOPE FOR A BETTER LIFE.  I WANT TO MOVE TO A SMALLER MORE EFFICIENT SPACE KEEPING EVERYTHING THAT GIVES ME PLEASURE.

WOW RESPONSIBLE

I'M SITTING IN AM TIRES USING THEIR WI-FI AND JUICE.  THEY WANTED TO CHARGE ME $60 FOR RE BALANCING.  NO THANK YOU.

SO FAR SO GOOD.  I'M SITTING ON THE BAR STOOL TWIRLING.

I SWAM STRETCHED PUZZLED AND I FEEL GOOD.

I WENT TO LAWRENCE SAFEWAY WALKED THE STORE FOUND A BOX 10 DARK CHOCOLATE CHERRIES $.25. 

THE TATTOOIST OF AUSCHWITZ

I STAYED UP TO FINISH THE BOOK.  I'M CRYING.  HOW MANY HOW MUCH.  LALE EISENBERG SOKOLOV TOLD HIS STORY SO "IT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN."  AND IT'S STILL HAPPENING.  UNWARRANTED TORTURE, CRUELTY, HUMILIATION CONTINUES EVERYWHERE.  THE INNOCENT ARE SACRIFICED.

AND THE ONLY WAY TO FIGHT IS TO SURVIVE.  TO LIVE WITH INTEGRITY.  TO BE KIND.

I'M IN A STATE OF FLUX.  I'M FEELING FLUID AND UNSETTLED.  LAST WEEK I WAS REMEMBERING, COLLECTING BITS OF MYSELF, WHEN I HAD TO BUY FOR THE WEEK BECAUSE I HADN'T THE ENERGY TO SHOP EVERY DAY.  AND WITH THE FREEZER OUT I CAN FINISH WHAT'S IN THERE AND IN THE GARAGE AND HUNT EVERY DAY.

I'M UPSET THIS WORLD IS LIKE MY EIGHT YEAR OLD NIGHTMARE OF GRAVITY FAILING AND EVERYTHING DRIFTING OUT INTO SPACE.  I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO BUT ONE DAY OR MINUTE AT A TIME.  EVERYTHING SEEMS SO FAKE AND WRONG. 

TOMORROW'S A NEW DAY.

A DAY W/O MEXICANS

I DREAMED I HAD FOUR MICKEY MOUSE LAPEL PINS I WAS CHECKING TO SEE IF THE SAME DESIGN AND HOW TO DISPLAY MY COLLECTION.

I'M STILL EXHAUSTED FROM THURSDAY AARP ADVENTURE.

I REALIZED I'VE BEEN PROJECTING ALL MY FAMILY STUFF ON THE HOUSE AND YARD WHEN THEY DON'T DESERVE IT.  I RESPECT THE SPIRIT OF THE PLACE.  MANITOU.

MARIA SAFEWAY WAS DESERTED.  THE PARKING LOT WAS EMPTY.  I ASKED SOME CUSTOMERS IF IT WAS A HOLIDAY AND TODAY IS THE DAY IMMIGRATION IS CHECKING ILLEGALS.  AND LIKE THE MOVIE OF 2004 IT WAS SURREAL.  $UNNVALE TOO.

OUCHY BACK

FROM AARP MEETING.  AND TWO DONUTS TO SOOTHE MYSELF FROM FRUSTRATION, I COULDN'T SLEEP.  I WATCHED NIGHT AT THE OPERA, MARX BROTHERS.  BEST PART SPECIAL FEATURES.  KITTY CARLISLE OF TO TELL THE TRUTH AND WHAT'S MY LINE.

I HAD TWO DREAMS, ONE OF HERE AND ONE OF THE OTHER SIDE.  THE ONE HERE THE BREAKFAST NOOK WAS CLEARED.  THE OTHER I WAS LOOKING THROUGH A TELESCOPE AND USED MEGUIAR'S PLASTIC CLEANER ON THE LENS.  I HAVE A REAL FAMILY.

PERFECT

I DID WHAT I WANTED TO DO ALL DAY.  I PUZZLED, HAD LUNCH, PUZZLED SOME MORE, WENT ONLINE TRYING TO PAY UTILITIES, SWAM, TRIED AGAIN, TRIED TO USE PHONE LINE FINALLY GOT KICKED OUT OF AUTO TO LIVE PERSON PAID, FEELING VERY FRUSTRATED FOUND AND ATE FRESH DONUTS AND ALL BETTER.  ALL IT TOOK WAS DONUTS.

7/11

well, it's here.

DOING THE DEED.  DRIVING TO SAN JOSE.  NOT SINCE LAST DRIVING JURY DUTY.  I WAS SO NAIVE THEN.  NOT IN TOUCH WITH THE DEPTH OF CO-DEPENDENCY.  FIRMLY ENTRENCHED IN DENIAL.  SO FIRMLY ENTRENCHED I HAD NO IDEA I WAS STILL IN DENIAL.  LIVING IN A TRENCH YOU CAN SEE THE SKY AND DON'T REALIZE THERE'S ANOTHER LEVEL.

SO I'M TENTATIVE.  SMART TO BE.

I WENT.  I GOT THERE 4:30.  I CHECKED EVERYTHING OUT AND HAD CRISPY SHRIMP, VEGGIES, ASPARAGUS CAULIFLOWER, REAL CORN CHIPS, GUACAMOLE, RANCH DRESSING, LOTS OF CHEESE, REAL QUESADILLAS.  AND A SPRITE.

THEN I TRIED TO GET OUT OF THE PARKING LOT.  AARP ONLY VALIDATED $5 AND THE PARKING WAS 10.  FOR 2 HOURS.  I HAD TO GO TO THE CASHIER TO PAY THEN BACK TO MY CAR.  I HAVE TO RECONSIDER VOLUNTEERING.

WHOA!1

healing the feeling

I AWOKE FEELING SAD, ALONE, BETRAYED.  I FELT LIFE BETRAYED ME WHEN IN FACT IT'S MY FAMILY.  LIFE HAS ALWAYS TREATED ME WITH KINDNESS AND RESPECT.

DISSED AGAIN.  LARGE HELEN ASKS ME ABOUT BOOKMOBILE DVDS AND THEN IGNORES ME.  SO RUDE.  AND I FALL FOR IT AGAIN. 

I'M FEELING AFRAID

I'M RESISTING GOING OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE.  THURSDAY I MAY OR MAY NOT GO.  JUST THINKING AND RSVP'ING IS PLENTY.  AARP AT SAN JOSE FIRE MUSEUM AT 5, PARKING DRIVING AT NIGHT.  AUGH!!

I DID TOO MUCH

I COULDN'T SLEEP BECAUSE I FORGOT HERE AT SENIORS I REST FOR HOURS AFTER EXERCISE BUT NOT AT HOME.  I FIND THINGS TO DO, SO MANY THINGS.

I RE ARRANGED MY GYM LOCKS SO I ONLY NEED ONE KEY FOR TWO THE SAME COMBINATION LOCKS,.  I SORTED THRU' FABRIC PLANNING DRESSES.

THIS A M I COMBINED CUTTINGS AND SET OUT.  ROAR!!!

SO FEELING TIRED AND BLUE I PUZZLED IMMOBILIZED.  AND I'M REFRESHED.  I HAVE TO REMEMBER HOW BORING IT IS AT HOME AND NOT GET DISTRACTED LIKE A SQUIRREL ON A WHEEL.

WHAT A DAY

I DID MY REGULAR SUNDAY ROUTINE AFTER 9 HOURS SLEEP.  WHEN I WAS IN MARIA SAFEWAY I FOUND SLICED SMOKED  TURKEY AND GARLIC PARMESAN BREAD WHICH RANG REGULAR PRICE SO SHE REFUNDED ME.  FREE BREAD.  DELICIOUS.  I CUT IT UP IN BAGS IN FRIDGE.  I HAD MEATLOAF AND PUMPKIN PIE.

$UNNYVALE TWO PAIR CUTE PINEAPPLE SOCKS. 

I SWITCHED OUT THE LOCKS EASILY.  ONE KEY FOR TWO LOCKS. 

THE OLD CABBAGE I WAS GOING TO COMPOST IS GROWING IN THE BUCKET. 

JUDGING MYSELF

BASED ON MY TRAINING I CRITICIZE AND CONDEMN MYSELF.  MY SELF SABOTAGE.

I CAN'T BE LATE.  MY TIME IS MY OWN.  ONLY THE PERFECT TIME.

I WORKED TRIMMING KIWI.  I'M BETTER.  I WENT TO $ANTA - 2 MOUTHWASH/4 5X BLACK TEES/3 PADLOCKS/4 PR THE CUTEST SOCKS. 

I STRETCHED, BRIDGET GAVE ME A GREEN PLUM I ATE, JAMES GAVE ME A BAG OF PURPLE PLUMS I GAVE TO JOHN AT ST J AND THE NEWSPAPERS.  YESTERDAY WAS HIS BIRTHDAY.  I FOUND A COLANDER W/HANDLE $2, PINEAPPLE PATCH, 'FROZEN' CHARM BRACELET.  GOOD DAY HUNTING.

I'M OK

AFTER ALL I DID YESTERDAY I FEEL OK.  NOT GREAT.  I STRETCHED AND WENT TO CAMPBELL LIBRARY 7 DVD S.  WHILE THERE I CHECKED MY E MAILS AND LOADED LUCKY'S FREE PRETZEL AND 2 X POINTS.  SO I BOUGHT 2 POTATO CHIPS AND TWO CHICKEN DINNERS.  DELICIOUS.

HAPPY 4TH

I HAVE HOPE THIS WILL BE HAPPY.  I PLANNED BACK YARD WORK BUT WHY.

I'M WATCHING THE GOOD WITCH SUE ELLEN=CASSANDRA THE NAME I PICKED FOR MYSELF BECAUSE CASSANDRA WAS GIVEN PROPHESY AND CURSED BY DISBELIEF.

'A HOME IS WHERE PEOPLE ACCEPT ME AS I AM.'  I'VE NEVER HAD THAT.

I RE STACKED AILEEN'S PLYWOOD, CUT KIWI AND PULLED WEEDS.  I WENT TO G2 THE FOUNTAIN OF YOUTH.   PONCE DE LEON.  MY FEET HURT SO MUCH.  I STRETCHED EVERYTHING AND USED THE JETS FOR MY FEET.  I DID MY SUNDAY ROUTINE.  ATE LUNCH 1:30.  DINNER OF STEW. 

I REMEMBERED TO BUY PADLOCKS SO TODAY'S A SUCCESS.

MYSELF

I'VE NEVER BEEN MORE MYSELF.  CATHY GAVE ME MORE MAKE UP SAMPLES AND KELLY GAVE ME A NEW 3 X BRIGHT RED PEASANT BLOUSE.  I WONDER IF SHE USED TO BE 3 X?

I PUZZLED AND DID WHAT I FELT LIKE DOING.  I HAD LUNCH AND WAITED 'TIL 3 TO EXERCISE.  PUZZLED 'TIL MY FEET WERE DRY AND GOT SMOKES AT WALGREEN'S 1 ONLY LEFT WASABI ALMONDS ON SALE.

HOME 5 P M.

what a day

STARTED OFF OK, NOT FANTASTIC.  LOVELY COOL.  I PUZZLED 'TIL LUNCH AND BITCH WITCH JOINED ME WHEN LADIES LEFT.  OF COURSE SHE TAKES OVER MY SPOT SO I TOLD HER OFF AND LEFT.  I COME BACK AFTER LUNCH AND EXERCISE AND SHE'S DUMPED THE PIECES IN TWO BOXES.  AT LEAST SHE'S GONE.  I PUZZLE 'TIL 3. 

OUT IN THE PARKING LOT I RELAXED AND REALIZED I COULD GO TO THE BANK.  I WENT TO CHASE AND THEN $ANTA FOR PARCHMENT PAPER NO PADLOCKS.  I WANT TWO SPARES.  I CAN GO $UNNYVALE THURSDAY.

OK.