STILL DEALING END/BEGIN MONTH

I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S THE BILLS OR WHAT.  EVERY END/BEGIN I GET ANXIOUS, UNEASY.  AND MY LIFE IS OK.  ANNUAL CLEANUP PRESSURE NEXT WEEK. 


IS IT HABIT?  TRAINING?  LOYALTY TO THE FAMILY?

I JUST WANT TO RUN AWAY. 

HANGING ON/IN

SOMEONE RESET THE LANGUAGE TO DUTCH.  I REMEMBERED THE SIGN IN, IGNORED THE LANGUAGE AND GOT IN.

WELL, UNTIL THAT EVERYTHING WAS TOOO SMOOOTH.  I WAS FEELING ANXIOUS. 

HILDA SAVED US FISH.  SO I HAVE VEGS, AND SALAD FOR 3PM MEAL.

IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE HOT.  WE'LL SEE.

I'M LOVING THE PARKING.  SRS IS SO NICE AND CALM WITHOUT THE PARKING HASSLE. 

I WENT COSTCO, G2, SRS DID MY CMPTR.  I CAN BE DONE FOR THE DAY.

G-2 WEEK

SINCE THE POOL/SPA HAS BEEN CLOSEDTHIS WEEK THE PARKING HAS BEEN GREAT AT SRS.

I'VE BEEN GOING EARLY TO G-2 AND TAKING MY TIME DOING WHAT I WANT.

TUESDAY I WENT W/T TO SSF TO C'S.  I WAS HOME 7:39 IN TIME FOR WHEEL.  AND I'VE BEEN DILIGENT SIGNING IN FOR BONUS.

MONOPOLY HAS BEEN GOOD AND I'VE BEEN WATCHING MY ENERGY.

LAST NITE I CUT FLOWERS AND PUT THEM IN KITCHEN WINDOW.

SO THIS AM I DIDN'T KNOW WHERE MY DISC/LIC WERE.  I FIGURED I MIGHT HAVE LEFT IT IN A POCKET.  YESTERDAY(WED) I WENT CMBLIB, WESTGATE, SPTS I BOUGHT ICELANDIC H20 FOR.50.  THE LAST TIME I USED IT.  FOR SOME REASON I PUT IT IN MY BOOK BAG.

I WENT TO SFWY, G-2 AND LOOKED FOR IT AND IT WASN'T THERE.  I LOOKED ON FLOOR, UNDER SEAT, OVER SEAT.  I DROVE HOME TO CHECK MY POCKETS AND NOTICED THE AM/SPIRIT CARD IN MY B/BAG.  SO I CHECKED THE BOTTOM AND THERE IT WAS.  WHEW!!!!!  HOW I PUT IT THERE I DON'T KNOW.

I'M MORE TIRED THAN I KNOW.

REST, REST, AND MORE REST.

GONE AGAIN-MAINTAIN WEEK

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT BUT AGAIN I HAVE TO FIND THE WAY IN.  AND THAT IRONIC MESSAGE OF SIMPLIFYING SIGN IN. 


AND I DID IT. 


I WAS FEELING SO GOOD.  TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF G-2 AND SRS.  AND IT SEEMS MY BACK HAS REACHED A HEALING POINT. 


LAST NITE T CALLED FROM JULIE'S FOR A MONTH AND SAID HE'D SEE ME TOMORROW.  WE'LL SEE.


I DID MY MONOPOLY AND EMAILS, PCH.  I'M GOOD.  I PRINTED OUT NICKELODEON FOR VALERIE'S KIDS. 

HURRAY!! IT'S BACK

THE OLD SIGN IN IS BACK. 

ST. JUSTIN ENTERTAINING AS ALWAYS.  THIS KEYBOARD STICKS.  DOESN'T ALWAYS PRINT THE LETTER.  HMMM....

NEW FORMAT

IT JUST TOOK ME TWENTY MINUTES TO FIGURE HOW TO GET TO NEW POST.  IT SAYS IT WILL BE EASIER, YEAH, RIGHT.  MAYBE IN A YEAR WHEN I GET USED TO THE NEW FORMAT.


I ALMOST FORGOT TO BLOG.  I'M JUST DOING AND CHANGING AND THE TUB IS DOWN AT SRS.  AGAIN.  IT WILL BE CLOSED ALL NEXT WEEK ANYWAY.


AND LISA GAVE ME 23 MONOPOLY TICKETS YSTRDAY.  0. OH WELL. 


TODAY IS THE CITY GARAGE SALE.  THERE'S ALWAYS NEXT YEAR.

STILL ADJUSTING TO HEAVEN

EVERY DAY FEELS LIKE A NEW BEGINNING, A NEW YEAR.  I HAVEN'T LOST ANYTHING THIS WEEK OR MISPLACED ANYTHING.  I WAITED TOO LATE FOR WHEEL YESTERDAY SO I'M EARLY TODAY. 


AND I NEED TO PAY DISCOVER. 


AND RETURN DVDS CMPBLIB.

I DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING

I KNOW I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SAVERS OR CMPBLIB, ST JUST.  THERE'S NOTHING I MUST DO.  TOMORROW I MUST RETURN DVDS TO CMPBL.

MAYBE I'LL GO TO SFWY TO SEE IF THE LOGS ARE STILL THERE. 

I HAVE LEFTOVER PIZZA AND SALAD. 

I SLEPT SO GOOD FROM 10:30-5:43-7:07.  I DRESSED AND HAD A PNUT BTTR BFAST SQUARE.  I'M YAWNING SO MAYBE I NEED A NAP. 

AND HURRAY!! I FOUND THE MC PIE COUPON. 

I SAW EVELYN (GEORGE) AND GAVE HER MILKS AND SHE GAVE ME STORAGE BOXES.  SINCE ONE MILK WAS ART'S I GAVE HIM BOXES TOO.  I GAVE HER 3/5 ORANGES TOO. 

I TALKED TO WALTER JR OUTSIDE BY MY CAR.  THEY GET THE APT THIS WEEK.  HE'S WORRIED.  THE FAMILY HOBBY.  I TOLD HIM KEEP THE TWO CAMPERS.  HIS DAD MAY NOT STAY.  HE'S SO OBSTINATE.  LIKE MY DAD.  SELF-DESTRUCTIVE TO HIMSELF AND ALL AROUND HIM.

MY LIFE IS GOOD.  AND GETTING BETTER.

KARAZY OLD LADY

AND I'M LOVING IT.

IT'S FREEDOM FROM EVERYTHING.  AND I'M LOVING IT.

I REMEMBERED TO PAY PGE AND WHILE THERE I REMEMBERED I NEEDED TO PAY CONSUMER CELLULAR TODAY.  WHEW!!  SO I CAME BACK TO MLIB.  I WATCHED X-MEN APOCALYPSE.  OK.  SOME PARTS WERE VERY EXCITING.  BUT HOW CAN THEY DESTROY THE INDISTRUCTABLE??  IT DIDN'T SEEM TO FLOW.

T-TAXES DONE; TERRIBLE TWO'S

YESTERDAY:  G2, SVLIB, FORGOT PGE AT HOME.


HE REFUSES TO FILL OUT HIS TAXES.  SO I DID IT.  WHY?????  I DON'T KNOW.  HE'S A PILIPINO PRINCE.  THEY TEACH HIM TO DO NOTHING.  SO HE DOESN'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING. 


THE PERFECT EXAMPLE OF STUCK IN TERRIBLE TWO'S.  AND I'M THE OBVERSE SIDE.  I WAS RAISED TO DO EVERYTHING FOR EVERYBODY.


I'M DOING MY TERRIBLE TWO'S NOW.


HE DID TAKE ME TO THE BEST CRAB MELT.  CANADIAN LUMP CRAB, CELERY SALAD, SUBSTITUTED SWISS CHEESE, ON GRILLED SOURDOUGH.  THE BEST.  MAKES MY MOUTH WATER EVEN NOW.  COUNTRY INN ON SARATOGA.  $15. 


THEN  HARBOR/BBB LAST FREE COUPON.  I FOUND DEMO CLOTHES RACK $10 AND PERU SALT CRISTAL $7-$5 COUPON.  HOME AND I COULDN'T SLEEP.  MUST HAVE BEEN THE DR. PEPPER OR THE THREE HELPINGS OF D'S RICE-HAMBURGER.  LIKE NASI GORENG.  SO GOOD.


THE TUB IS DOWN SO ON TO G2. 

GROWING PAINS

SINCE I GREW 1 1/4 " I DIDN'T EXPECT GROWING PAINS, BUT THAT'S WHAT THEY ARE. 

BABY HUEY GAVE ME SFWY TICKETS.  WOW! AND THE J-MAN FROM LUNCH.  TYGJ. 

T CALLED AT 1 TO SAY THEY WANTED HIM TO WORK.  I KNEW HE'D POSTPONE.  SO TYPICAL.  IT'S HIS TAXES, HIS HEAD.  HE SAID COME OVER TOMORROW 11:30-12 FOR LUNCH AND WE'D DO TAXES.  SRS CLOSED FOR NO REASON.  AND NATORIUM CLOSED 22-29 THIS MONTH FOR MAINTENENCE.  SO 24HR.

AND I REMEMBERED HARBOR FREIGHT. 

TANTRUMS

AUNTY WROTE UNCLE DIED TWO WEEKS AGO.  HE'S MY SPECIAL ANGEL. 


YESTERDAY WAS ANOTHER MIRACLE.  CMBLIB, $TREE, WESTGATE MICHAEL'S-TARGET.  THE MARIO SHORTED ME $.30 BY NOT SCANNING MY COUPON AND GAVE ME $2 OUT OF THE TILL.  SO I THOUGHT ABOUT IT AND DECIDED TO GO HARBOR-BBB THEN ON TO ANOTHER MICHAEL'S.  I DROVE UP STCK BOULEVARD AND CHECKED OUT THE NEW MAIN STREET CUPERTINO, BUILT TO SUPPORT APPLE CORP.  NO NEW SFWY BUT TARGET.  I CONTINUED ON THE BACK WAY TO HOMESTEAD RD VIA BLANEY.  RETURNED AND REBOUGHT PENCILS USING COUPON AND FOUND MORE GRN BEADS 70% OFF.  I DROVE THE BACK WAY TO BENTON.  HURRAY!!


I GOT HOME 6:45 TO AUNTY'S LETTER.  I HAD LEFTOVER PKCHP, 2KALE SALADS, GRN BEANS.  I WATCHED MY SHOWS AND AT 10 STARTED A LETTER 'TIL 11 PM.


I AWOKE 6:30 AND DROVE TO SRS REMEMBERED I NEEDED GAS, DROVE TO COSTCO COLEMAN.  EZ.  PARKED SRS FOR SAVERS HALF OFF DENIM TODAY.  I HAVE 30% OFF COUPON. 


AUNTY SAID UNCLE IN THE HOME REFUSED TO EAT AND WAS IN AND OUT OF THE HOSPITAL.  HE LIVED AND DIED THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE CONSIDERING THE TIMES.


EVERYONE GETS A CHANCE TO BE A TERRIBLE TWO YR OLD.  I'M DOING MINE NOW.


 

THE GOOD FIGHT

YESTERDAY AT 24 I SAW A WOMAN EYEING ME.  SHE OBVIOUS TO ME; WANTED MY SPOT IN THE TUB.  AFTER MAYBE TEN MINUTES SHE TELLS ME THE JETS ARE STRONGER ON THE OTHER SIDE.  I WASN'T FOOLED.  I SAID NO.  SHE TURNS HER BACK TO ME AND STARTS COMPLAINING, MUTTERING TO HERSELF.

TODAY ARMANDO TELLS ME I DROPPED A SHEET OF PAPER, I ALREADY KNEW.  TEN MINUTES LATER DANNYBOY TAPS ME ON THE SHOULDER FOR THE SAME THING.  IF THEY WERE TRYING TO HELP THEY WOULD HAVE PICKED IT UP.  I SAID DO YOU MIND IF I DO IT WHEN I WANT?

UNHELPFUL PEOPLE.  LIKE PATTY "OFFERING" TO PAY ME $2000 A MONTH WITHOUT A THOUGHT ABOUT ME AND WHERE I'D LIVE. 

WHAT THE!!!!

THEN AFTER LUNCH KIMO'S GIRLFRIEND ASKS ME ABOUT MY WORKOUT LIKE I'M ONE OF HIS BITCHES.  I ASKED HER WHY SHE WAS ASKING, WHY DID SHE CARE.  SHE BACKED DOWN.

WHAT THE!!!!

I DECIDE

I WENT TO $ANC, SAFEWAY MIDTOWN MONOPOLY NEW GRILL CLEANER TWO BOX TAPES, SAVERS 50%=$13.50, SRS.  I'M DOING IT ALL.  WOO-HOO!

MY MIDDLE BACK HURTS SOMETHING FIERCE AND I'M OK. 

I KNOW IT WON'T LAST FOREVER.  EITHER I IMPROVE OR EVENTUALLY I'LL DIE SO EITHER WAY IT WON'T LAST FOREVER.

I forgot to pay Citibank.  Sunday standing in line at SFWY I suddenly remembered, sat in my car and called citi.  Stacy fixed it for me.  help was provided.

GOOD TIME

I HAD A SALAD AND I'LL HAVE FISH FOR MY SNACK.  AND I'M HAPPY EVEN THO I FORGOT WHEEL UNTIL 2:30.  I'M OK. 


D DID A NUMBER ON T AND HE WAS TOTALLY OUT OF IT.  I CAN SEE WHY IT'S TAKEN ME SO LONG TO GET IT.  IT'S SO SUBTLE.  THE DENIGRATION IS SO INGRAINED FOR SO LONG.  I'M LUCKY.  BEING THE MIDDLE HAS IT ADVANTAGE.


SO NOTHING WAS ACCOMPLISHED AND I'M OK WITH THAT. 


IT MUST BE OLDER AND YOUNGER WHO PUT THE ONUS ON MIDDLES. 


LIARS ARE ALWAYS TRYING TO CONVINCE THEMSELVES THEY DON'T LIE.  THAT'S HOW THEY END UP SUFFERING MISERABLY. 

WHOLENESS-DW

T CALLED FROM LEXINGTON DAM TO CHAT 4:13 MINUTES.  I WAS AT SRS WAITING TO HEAR WHEN HE WAS COMING OVER FOR ROOF OR ATTIC OR YARD.  HE'S DUE THIS PM WHENEVER. 


I CAME HOME AND TIDYED IN LIVING ROOM.  MY LEGS ARE SORE FROM 10 MIN. BIKE AND STRETCH YESTERDAY AFTER LUNCH. 


I'M STILL FEELING APPREHENSIVE ABOUT THE IMPENDING RAIN.  IF I'M NOT WORRIED ABOUT THE SKYLIGHT LEAKING I'M WORRIED ABOUT THE  AVOCADO TREE COMING DOWN. 


WORRY=THE FAMILY TRADITION. 
I HEARD A GOOD ONE THAT WORRY IS SUFFERING TWICE.
THEY WERE TOTALLY INTO SUFFERING.


I'M GLAD I'M THE BLACK SHEEP.


PART OF MY WHOLENESS AT THIS TIME IS WORRY.  I'M LEAVING IT BEHIND AND FEELING THE PARTING.  LIKE PSYCHIC SURGERY.






 

PREJUDICED GENEALOGY WOMAN

THIS 7:30-8:30 A M I PROCESSED MY MONOPOLY TICKETS.


HOMELESS ASIAN WOMAN CONFRONTED THE GENEALOGY WOMAN ON GOING OUTSIDE TO TALK WITH HER FRIEND.  A VERY SENSIBLE REQUEST.  BECAUSE SHE WAS OBVIOUSLY HOMELESS, GENEWOMAN ACTED LIKE HOMELESS WAS UNREASONABLE WHEN IN FACT GENEWOMAN WAS VERY RUDE AND INCONSIDERATE.  HER CLASS DIDN'T START FOR 15 MINUTES.


GENEWOMAN NEEDS THE ATTENTION.  SO INSECURE AND BEHAVING BADLY TO ATTRACT ATTENTION. 


GENEWOMAN=ENERGY VAMPIRE.

I REDEEMED MONOPOLY

I WON $5 FOOD CARD AT SFWY.  HURRAY!!  SO I WENT AT 6 AM AND FOUND PORK JERKY HALF OFF= $2 AND USING MY SFWY CARD $1.50 EA.  AND THE CLERK WAS SOOOO NICE.  I WAS GOING THRU' DIY TO BUY 6 INDIVIDUALLY OR JUST ONE MONO TICKET.  DIY DOESN'T OPEN TIL LATER.  SHE AGREED TO DO IT.  SO 12 MORE. 


AND I GOT MASH AND BROCCOLI@SRS.  AND IT'S COOL.  HURRAY! ME!



AND I NOTICED TODAY'S LAST DAY CAR CONTEST NISSAN SCLARA.  SCBLVD AND CRONIN/ALBANY.  SAYS I WON SOMETHING.

ow, my shoulder blades

FROM THURSDAY YDWK. 

I WAS AT G2 AT 7 AM.  I GOT MY FREE BAGEL AT SFWY TO CHASE $ AND HERE MLIB. 

IT'S GOING SO WELL I'M ANXIOUS.  THE BAGEL WAS DELICIOUS.  YSTRDAY AT SRS I LOOKED UP HOUSE OF BAGEL LOCATIONS AND I DON'T NEED IT.  ALL BAGELS ARE BOILED FIRST.  SO MUCH IMPROVED FROM COLLEGE.  I JUST NEED TO EAT FRESH ONES. 

I'LL GO TO *1 AFTER AND SFWYVF FOR MORE BAGEL.  HURRAY!!!