Free Lunch 7*27*14 Sunday-St Justin

To my way of thinking everything can be free.  Everything is energy.  The sun is free. 

90* day HOT-HOT-HOT

Yesterday and today staying in the cool at seniors.  I'm amazed when I consider how sick I was and how badly I felt.  How limited I was.



My life has improved.  And I'm learning how to keep my energy by not feeling responsible for others.



Gil keeps asking me to dinner and movie but when I say ok he hems and haws.  He spends all this attention on his face and how he appears, none on the rest of him.



I'm learning.
Typical alcoholic commitmentphobic behavior to act like needy puppy.  Too close too soon and then fear filled and avoidance.  Pushing, intruding, forcing the other person to delineate boundaries to make them feel guilty to manipulate them.  All an act.  None of it reality. 


Acting GOOFY and on drugs and denying. 


Need for attention and then pulling away, broken promises.  Blaming his behavior on the other person.  His calling 5 times in one day to say hi.  Like Arlene.  Ridiculous.  Riddick-ulous.


Forcing other people to react to them making them feel in control. 

HERE I AM 7*1**14 TUESDAY

I watched Frozen dvd, $anta, Chase cash.  Still very hot.  Unless the wind picks up it will be in the 90's again. 


Spent the whole, entire day here at the Sr. Ctr.  Went home in time for Xwords.  Tried out spaghetti sauce last night and bought more today.  Same with toilet cleaner. 


Didn't go to Savers half off sale yesterday.  Chose not to go.  I'm very satisfied with my hematite bracelets from last Fri.