Friday, July 17, 2015

MIRACLES HAPPEN ALL THE TIME

I'VE ALWAYS LIVED BY INTUITION
1972-AVOIDING HEAD ON COLLISIONS 2X
AFTER WE MARRIED IN SAN JOSE WE WERE DRIVING TO BEAR VALLEY THRU FREMONT ABOUT TO GO UNDER THE TRAIN TRESTLE TO NILES.  I FREAKED AND MADE X SLOW DOWN, THERE WAS SOME FOOL TRYING TO PASS IN THE ONCOMING DIRECTION.
AFTER HAVING DINNER WITH SOME FRIENDS IN MONTEREY, DRIVING HOME TO SAN JOSE I AVOIDED ANOTHER CAR TRYING TO PASS IN THE ONCOMING DIRECTION ON HWY 1.

1982?-HIGH-SIDED 350-4 HONDA MOTORCYCLE ON SUNDAY MORNING SKYLINE RIDE W/X/SHAWN. TRYING TO KEEP UP WITH NORTONS ON MY HONDA.  BIKE RICOCHETED UP THE SIDE OF THE MOUNTAIN SO FAST I HAD NO TIME TO THINK.  I KNEW I DIDN'T WANT TO GO UP THE MOUNTAIN AND THE BIKE LEANED, WENT DOWN THE MOUNTAIN, HIT THE DRAINAGE DITCH AND I WAS AIR-BORN INTO THE ONCOMING LANE SANS TRAFFIC.  I WAS ELATED UNTIL I REALIZED I COULD HAVE BEEN KILLED.  WE CONTINUED DOWN 84 TO A REST STOP.  SHAWN THREW OFF HIS HELMET AND JACKET AND CAME RUNNING OVER TO ME.  "ARE YOU ALRIGHT??" " YEAH, I THINK SO."  I HAD NO IDEA WHAT HAD HAPPENED UNTIL LATER THAT WEEK X CAME HOME AND SAID SHAWN WAS A LIAR.  "HE SAID YOU HIGH SIDED." "WHAT IS THAT?"  X EXPLAINED.
HAPPENED IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE.

1985-FINDING THE COURSE IN MIRACLES
I'D BOUGHT A GREETING CARD IN SAN JOSE AND FRAMED AND PUT IT ON MY BREAKFAST TABLE.  THEN AFTER I'D MOVED TO GILROY I JOINED  A COURSE IN MIRACLE'S GROUP AND ON PAGE 24: THE MIRACLE WORKER'S PRAYER.  I HADN'T LOOKED AT THE BACK OF THE CARD.

I DIDN'T KNOW I WASN'T SUPPOSED TO DO IT ALL AT ONCE.  ONE SUNDAY AFTER CHURCH I TOOK A RIDE TO THE FLYING LADY RESTAURANT IN MORGAN HILL.  I WAS IN A FOUL MOOD.  ON MONTEREY HIGHWAY MY FUSCHIA  FEEDBAG PURSE FELL OFF THE BACK AND AFTER I NOTICED I U-TURNED AND WENT BACK FOR IT.  I SAW TWO MEN IN A CAR PULLED OVER, ONE OF THEM HELD UP MY BAG.  HE SAID THEY'D TRIED TO FIND EVERYTHING THEY COULD.  I THANKED THEM AND STUFF WAS STILL BLOWING ALL OVER AS THEY DROVE OFF.  I LOOKED FOR EVERYTHING I COULD FIND AND CONTINUED TO MY DESTINATION.  I HAD A RELAXING CUP OF COFFEE AND ACCEPTED MY MISERABLE LIFE.  THEN WHEN I STARTED MY 350-4 HONDA I'D LEFT IT IN GEAR AND IT LURCHED FORWARD ON ENOUGH OF AN INCLINE FOR THE GAS TO DRIBBLE OUT THE GAS CAP.  I COULDN'T PICK IT UP BECAUSE OF THE SLIGHT ANGLE.  I HAD TO ASK A TERRIFIED FAMILY COMING OUT OF THE RESTAURANT FOR HELP PICKING IT UP.  DROVE HOME WITHOUT INCIDENT AND HORRIFYINGLY REALIZED MY FAVORITE RINGS HAD BEEN IN THE BAG.  I SPENT THE REST OF THE EVENING UNTIL IT GOT DARK LOOKING FOR MY 1 CARAT DIAMOND SOLITAIRE FROM MON AND THE 5 CARAT ALEXANDRITE FROM JENNY ZEUZEM.  I FOUND THE RUBY AND AMETHYST A LITTLE SCUFFED.  I CALLED THE ONLY ONE TO HAVE A METAL DETECTOR AND HE SAID HE'D GET A BATTERY FOR IT NEXT A.M.  I DID THE OPENING THE BOOK TRICK AND READ SOME OF OUR SUCCESSES ARE ACTUALLY FAILURES AND SOME OF OUR FAILURES ARE SUCCESSES.  I COULDN'T SLEEP ALL NIGHT, AFRAID IF MOM FOUND OUT SHE'D HAVE A STROKE OR HEART ATTACK.  NEXT MORNING HE COULDN'T GET IT TO WORK SO BEFORE I HAD TO GO TO THE STORE AT 10 I WALKED FROM WHERE THE BOTTLE OF WHITE OUT HAD HIT THE PAVEMENT.  I FOUND THE DIAMOND STONE ON THE SHOULDER OF THE ROAD AND THE SETTING MANGLED 10 FEET IN THE MIDDLE OF THE LANE.  THE ALEXANDRITE MUST HAVE BEEN SMASHED TO SMITHEREENS.  I FOUND ITS SETTING ON THE OPPOSITE SIDE OF THE FOUR LANE ROAD.  OR IT MAY HAVE BEEN GOING ROUND AND ROUND IN SOME TIRE TREAD ON ITS WAY TO CANADA OR MEXICO.

I LEARNED TO WATCH MY TEMPER.  BAD MOODS RESULT IN BAD EXPERIENCES.

1989-MOVED HOME.  MOM AND DAD DROVE TO MY APARTMENT IN CUPERTINO TO ASK IF I'D DRIVE DAD TO HIS KAISER DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENTS.  HE WOULDN'T LET HER DRIVE.  SINCE ALL MY GRANDPARENTS DIED OF CANCER I KNEW THEY WERE TERRIFIED.  THE FIRST TIME THEY CAME TO ME EVER.
THERE WAS A RECEPTIONIST JOB AT UNITY CHURCH. ONE OF SEVERAL CHURCHES I'D VISIT ROTATIONALY.  I TOLD THEM I'D FILL IN TEMPORARILY.  IT WAS GREAT AT THE BEGINNING.  JOHN BRADSHAW TICKETS WERE AVAILABLE BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO GO TO OAKLAND ALONE.  LINDA WANTED TO GO BUT DIDN'T HAVE A CAR.  IT WAS THE BEST. 3000 CODEPENDENTS BEING OUR POLITE SELVES.  PAGE HUTCHINSON WAS THE KINDEST OM.  I STAYED FOR A YEAR AND 3 MONTHS.

1993-DELORISE LUCAS 
WHEN I QUIT UNITY CHURCH AS THE RECEPTIONIST I STARTED SELLING MARY KAY WITH LINDA THE SECRETARY BECAUSE SHE TOOK ME TO A RECRUITING BREAKFAST MEETING FOR MY  BIRTHDAY(12-6-1992).  I'M SHAKING MY HEAD AT MYSELF.  I DIDN'T HAVE ANY JOBS LINED UP.  AND IT SEEMED LIKE A GOOD TIME FILLER.  
I KNEW I NEEDED SOMETHING AWAY FROM MD DRAMA.  
I STARTED SELLING BY INTUITION. AT A SECLUDED METAPHYSICAL BOOKSTORE IN CUPERTINO BELONGING TO PAULA WHO I LATER RAN INTO AT KKUP RADIO.  ONE MORNING I'M DRIVING LAWRENCE EXPRESSWAY AND I HEAR THREE KNOCKS AT THE BACK WINDOW OF MY NISSAN SENTRA STATION WAGON AND THE URGE TO GO  PAULA'S BOOKSTORE. I'M HANGING AROUND WAITING FOR I DON'T KNOW WHAT AND LIZ MORSE SHOWS UP WITH HER GREETING CARDS FOR SALE.  SHE LIVES IN MTN VW AND I SELL HER PRODUCT FOR HER B'DAY BUT I CAN'T FIND ONE ITEM IN THE CAR.  I PROMISE TO GET IT TO HER THE NEXT DAY BUT SHE'S GOING TO BE IN SAN JOSE AT HER WOMEN'S MEETING AT TEN AM AT THE RECOVERY BOOKSTORE IN SAN JOSE ON BASCOM AV.  I KNOW THOSE PEOPLE TOO.  I SET OUT AT 9:30 AND GET THERE WITH EVERY GREEN LIGHT ON SAN TOMAS.  SO I'M SO EARLY.  I TELL MY FRIENDS I'M WAITING FOR SOMEONE IN THE WOMEN'S GROUP HAVING AN APPOINTMENT WITH A "HEALER".  I WAIT AND LOOK AT THE INFO ON THE WALLS ABOUT "MOMMA".  I THINK ALL SORTS OF QUESTIONS ABOUT HER.  THE WOMEN START SHOWING UP AND I KNOW HALF A DOZEN OF THEM FROM SUFI DANCING SUNDAY NIGHTS, DANCES OF UNIVERSAL PEACE.  THEY INVITE ME TO JOIN THEIR GROUP FOR THE READING AND LUNCH.  MOMMA STARTS BY ANSWERING ALL MY UNSPOKEN QUESTIONS AND SAYS"I DON'T KNOW WHY I TOLD YOU ALL THAT".  I RAISE MY HAND AND SAY" I DO.  YOU ANSWERED ALL THE QUESTIONS I THOUGHT."  I'D NEVER FELT SO NAKED.  I WAS TOO FREAKED OUT TO DO ANYTHING ELSE.  THEY ALL WENT TO LUNCH, I WENT HOME AND LITERALLY PUT ON MY PAJAMAS AND CRAWLED INTO BED UNTIL I FELT SAFE ENOUGH TO MOVE.  

1994-I ATTENDED HER CLASSES TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY I WAS TERRIFIED.  HERE WAS SOMEONE WHO KNEW ME INSIDE OUT.  PROBABLY BETTER THAN I KNEW MYSELF. SOMEONE OF PURE LOVE.  AND I COULDN'T BELIEVE WHAT I SAW.  AT FIRST I WENT TO CATCH HER IN SOME TRICK.  BUT THE CROWDS WERE ALWAYS 30-40 DIFFERENT PEOPLE.  SHE DIDN'T BRING IN ENOUGH MONEY TO GENERATE THE ACTION.  I WENT ALONG FROM CURIOSITY AND TO RESOLVE MY FEAR.

THEN ON APRIL 1, SHE ASKED IF SHE COULD ORDAIN ME A MINISTER.  I BECAME REVEREND SUSAN OF